Dear Goddess,

In this week’s episode of Dear Goddess, I’m opening my heart and sharing one of the most vulnerable chapters of my journey.. the part I never imagined I’d speak about publicly. Earlier this year, I received the message that the ex-husband, the man I was once married to, the relationship that catalyzed my healing journey, had taken his own life. What unfolded after was an initiation through grief,...

In this week’s episode of Dear Goddess, we’re diving into the sacred space of uncertainty,  the in-between, the void, the place where your next evolution is being birthed even when it feels like nothing’s working. After hosting my first workshop in Costa Rica (a vision I’ve held for so long), I found myself reflecting on the magic that unfolds when we follow our soul’s desires even when we don’t k...

In this week’s episode of Dear Goddess, I’m sharing the real and raw side of growth.. the part that doesn’t look like polished Instagram posts or “perfectly aligned” spiritual timelines. 🌹✨ My life has felt like it’s been tossed in a blender lately with equal parts joy, alignment, disconnection, and old patterns resurfacing, and what I’m learning is this: the messy in-between is not failure. It’...

In this week’s episode of Dear Goddess, I’m sharing why sometimes the most spiritual thing you can do is.. have fun. ✨ Yes, healing, self-love, and embodiment are sacred but so are the nights of laughter, spontaneous adventures, and saying yes to life outside of the “serious spiritual work.” From surfing and fiestas to tattoos and new friendships, I’ve been reminded that our joy is medicine, our...

In this episode of Dear Goddess , I’m pulling back the curtain on my move from Bali to Costa Rica, not just the flights, boxes, and logistics, but the soul journey that brought me here. This isn’t just a story about relocating to a new country, it’s about what it really takes to follow your intuition, trust your higher path, and build a life that feels like truth instead of trauma. From leaving be...

We’ve all been taught that pleasure is something you earn .. after the work is done, after the healing is complete, after you finally get it “right.” But what if pleasure isn’t the reward at the end of the journey.. what if it’s actually the fuel for everything you desire? In this episode of Dear Goddess, I’m sharing the unfiltered truth about pleasure, not as some fluffy luxury, but as medicine f...

We’ve all heard “you gotta feel it to heal it” but have you ever wondered WTF that actually means? In this episode of Dear Goddess, I'm getting brutally honest about what it actually means to "feel your feelings" beyond the Instagram wellness quotes and into the messy, transformative reality of emotional mastery. Speaking from the trenches of my own emotional overwhelm (thanks, fami...

In this episode of Dear Goddess, I'm getting real about the deep-rooted patterns of people-pleasing and "good girl conditioning" that live in our nervous system and how they show up even after we think we've healed them. Drawing from my own experience of how family relationships can activate our oldest wounds, I'm diving into the messy, complicated reality of healing, wher...

In this episode of Dear Goddess, I'm sharing the real, raw truth about navigating seasons of transition including specific tools and practices that actually work when you're feeling stuck, stagnant, or somewhere between worlds. Speaking from my current reality of transitioning from my beloved Bali life to suburban Washington, I'm getting honest about how challenging these in-between...

In this episode of Dear Goddess, I take you inside one of the most unexpected and most profound spiritual experiences I’ve had: a conscious weed ceremony that turned into a quantum healing journey into pleasure, shame, and feminine embodiment. We also explore the everyday moments that reveal how deeply shame and conditioning still live in our bodies, like witnessing a woman apologize for being “hi...

In this week’s episode of Dear Goddess , I bring you into one of the most tender and surreal chapters of my journey, my final days in Bali after calling this magical island home for the last two and a half years. This isn’t just a goodbye. It’s an exploration of presence, release, and the sacred grief of change when you know everything is about to shift. In this episode, I share: 💔 Why “letting g...

In this week’s episode of Dear Goddess, I take you behind the scenes of one of the most unexpected spiritual experiences I’ve had recently: going to a nightclub in Bali completely sober to see Fred Again.. Live and how it cracked me wide open in all the ways I didn’t expect. This isn’t just about the music. It’s about embodiment, nervous system awareness, and choosing presence in a world that enco...

In this week’s episode of Dear Goddess , I take you inside one of the most humbling and challenging experiences I’ve ever had in my recent ceremonies with Kambo and Bufo Alvarius and the deep integration that followed. This isn’t a conversation about blissful awakenings. This is the part of the healing journey most people don’t talk about, the spiral, the ego unraveling, and the sacred chaos of be...

In this episode of Dear Goddess , I share a personal and tender truth: I’m leaving Bali, not because I want to, but because my intuition told me to. This is one of the most emotionally raw conversations I’ve recorded. It’s about what it really looks like to trust your intuition when it doesn’t feel good, when it leads you into the unknown, and when it breaks your heart wide open. We explore: What...

In this episode of Dear Goddess , I take you behind the scenes of a very real moment: standing on the side of the road in Bali, trying to figure out if I was honoring my intuition or just letting fear win. This conversation is a deep dive into what it really means to trust yourself when the voice of your soul and your survival patterns start to sound the same. We explore: What it means to honor yo...

What if your appearance wasn’t the source of your confidence but the thing distracting you from it? In this episode of Dear Goddess , we’re getting raw and real about how perfectionism, shame, and societal beauty standards keep women trapped in cycles of self-judgment, and what it actually takes to break free. This episode is a vulnerable share of my personal journey with beauty, Botox, body image...

The Truth About Self-Awareness That No One Talks About If you’ve ever felt like you should be further along in your healing journey because of how self-aware you are, this episode is for you. In this deeply personal and powerful conversation, I’m pulling back the curtain on what it really means to hold space for yourself, and how self-awareness might actually be blocking your healing. Inside this...

What does it really mean to be a modern-day goddess? In this episode, we go beneath the buzzwords and beyond the surface to explore what true feminine embodiment actually looks like and why so many of us have been chasing healing with our minds when the real magic happens in the body. Inside this episode: ✨ Why I shared my bloopers and what they taught me about visibility wounds ✨ The difference...

She’s here. She’s bolder. She’s dripping in divine truth. Welcome to the very first episode of Dear Goddess, the podcast for the woman who’s healing, awakening, and ready to embody the life she knows she’s meant for. This is more than a name change. It’s an energetic evolution. In this episode, I share: ✨ The truth behind ending Dear Dumb Bitch (and why it had to happen) ✨ What resistance actual...

This episode is from the Dear Dumb Bitch, era of the podcast, recorded before the evolution into Dear Goddess,. It’s raw, real, and part of the journey. While the name and energy have evolved, the soul of this message is still powerful. It ends how it begins & it begins how it ends & so we begin & end again & agin & agian In this final episode, I’m sharing some major shifts &am...

This episode is from the Dear Dumb Bitch, era of the podcast, recorded before the evolution into Dear Goddess,. It’s raw, real, and part of the journey. While the name and energy have evolved, the soul of this message is still powerful. Mikaela Filar is an intuitive energetic healer and psychic medium whose mission is to help you heal, reprogram limiting beliefs that are keeping you from living up...

This episode is from the Dear Dumb Bitch, era of the podcast, recorded before the evolution into Dear Goddess,. It’s raw, real, and part of the journey. While the name and energy have evolved, the soul of this message is still powerful. This is an extra special episode because one of our fav guests is back on the show! Dez is a transformational coach and lifestyle entrepreneur based out of Las Veg...

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