Crooked Butterfly Podcast

After listening to this over I feel like I was a bit frenetic and not quite articulate in taking my thoughts into specifics. But, it's posted and I feel there are multiple layers of messaging. 1st. I gave up FoxNews and CNN in favor of a few more 'less manipulative' media sources. I couldn't have found a better start to settling into some inner quiet again and affording myself...

I suspect that for many who seek the motivational something somethings to help them find purpose, set goals, find success... that they really aren't wired to adopt the standard over played clichés of Goal Setting and whatnot. If they were, they wouldn't need those very same motivationals repeatedly? The same would hold true I suppose for the contrast. But, for me, 'one bite at a tim...

Too many small instances this past week where I find myself looking back and thinking I wasn't communicating quite well. I deliberately phrase it this way instead of - 'I was misunderstood' or 'Somebody else wasn't listening'. I want to be responsible not only for my words that come out, but also for the manner that they arrive in another's head. Also, came acros...

After a little pity party and negativity last week, I work through out loud how I processed and where I'm at today. Let's not confuse freedoms, rights & liberties with privileges, comforts, conveniences, wants, & desires. Especially not without a firm and healthy arrival at responsibilities, obligations, & duties or absent common decency, courtesy, integrity, patience, and re...

I'm embarrassed to even upload this "sound event". I don't even want to call it a podcast. My intentions were to re-direct everyone to a Podcast I recorded with Will & Eli a day before with very little other than a quick explanation why I didn't feel ready to record this week. Then, I felt that it wouldn't be authentic of me to scrub and curate my own thoughts whe...

Audio File of a video podcast we did to discuss leadership during these uncertain and stressful times. Leadership, Management, and Authority are not synonymous and it doesn't mean the three must co-exist. All three are essential components in life, are usually inter related, but not dependants. Three things that are largely consistent across most scenarios/situations that we can especially in...

A few quick thoughts on increasing punishment (in both severity & quantity; with credibility) to prevent criminal activity. Rebalancing the risk vs gain ratio and recalibrating incentive to reward rehabilitation. I would much rather deter someone from breaking into my home than have to realize the damage and loss and then the hassle of catching and reconciling the activity. What if we adopted...

At a certain point, the last thing needed is someone sowing seeds of discord. Especially not from a position untempered from personal, petty, selfish, or whatever discontent position. In times of exception, the only thing to do is be part of the solution and support; however large or small. Criticism and challenge and narrow conversation are absolutely not needed. There can be a time for that post...

You ever feel like something is wrong with you because you aren't super intense about goal setting, meaning making, or finding your purpose? Lately it seems there is such tremendous focus on living a purpose filled life, leadership, knowing your why, etc... that I get distracted from just living and enjoying the moment. The intensity and passion around all of this must be full steam or you ar...

Uphold the standards of class and dignity that you expect from others. Or, want to see from the world. Regardless of the disappointing reality of what is. Be the ideology, as best you can, and put money in the bank to invest in a better reality. Stay the High Ground. It's too easy to allow cute little phrases and sayings to guile you into acting less than you are. For example, fight how they...

Why is it that everyone asks for forgiveness at Death's doorstep? Wouldn't the time to prevent needing forgiveness be now? Through changed behavior? Maybe a better question would be - why do we allow people on their deathbed to be absolved of their bullshit when they have known better their whole loves? And chose not to change? It's all about comfort - for them and for us. Change re...

I found myself falling into the trap of trying to seek comfort and escape from some recent daily stress; because I have the means, 'outs', and luxury to. And I am unravelling the more and more I opt to seek quick comfort fixes. That's the problem, we are creatures of conditioning. In both directions: positive (progress) and negative (regress). You develop skills, mechanisms, and str...

Too many little pokes here and there this week to not just dig into something in the moment. Peeling back some layers to what it means "not to fall in love with your own bullshit". From taking 'undue credibility', not correcting the truth, humility, self awareness, character, image management, ... to just simply being an ignorant, arrogant, self promoting, audacious load.  

I started up a conversation with myself on a long drive home; instigated, again, by: The First Agreement, listening to a Sam Harris interview w/ David Whyte, a Jordan Petersen quote about Character, and triggered by a few notable personalities stealing the truth about who they are through the use of feasible bullshit.  Should I leave behind a legacy, what would it be, how would it be described? Sp...

Spending time digging into the 1st Agreement from "The Four Agreements".  #1 Be Impeccable w/ Your Word. My mind has been racing all over from tell the truth, develop a vocabulary, positive self talk, be kind (honest/direct) towards others, reframing...  I'm brought into something that I've read and listened to Jordan Peterson talk about in his "12 Rules for Life: An Antid...

Digging in on some weird tosh psychological stuff here in how my response to certain things tune me. I'm not going to summarize as I hope everyone listens. A short synopsis will not do anything justice this week and I would likely dilute/ distort my message. Two thought move instigators for me this week: Quote- "Forgiveness is the scent the violet gives off to the heel that has crushed i...

I'm tiptoeing here and over the last few weeks around trying to get after some direct straight talk on suicide. In my head it all circles back and forth around hyper sensitivity, entitlement, the effort to be different, and a desire/need to have a problem for identity. Maybe it is all just a sense or enmesh of validation? I had to start talking it aloud because I was getting lost in my own he...

People have problems. It is normal, natural, and psychologically healthy - to have and process them. It is absurd to need them for Identity. It feels like the world is growing where everyone needs to have problems, have them recognized, and even goes to the extent of encouraging them. Like, if you don't have a problem and are not sharing it there is something wrong with you. It's a reinf...

Happy New Year and Welcome to Season 2! I started out with a plan to dig into a few ideas I've been chewing on for weeks. Then I went off script and into a few things more pertinent to the day and a runoff from there. Resolutions are suspect; just another way to eventually break a contract with ourselves and further reinforce that it's ok to do so. Then, it bleeds into other behaviors. C...

Just back from an amazing total reset vacation and the contrast back into 'regular' life made me recognize how many subtle signals we're saturated with that keeps pushing us towards confrontation default. 

We're going to start off struggling out loud about last weeks episode ad how not satisfied I was (am still in this moment as I type this) with it. Then, we are going to dig into stepping up to the plate with a little more effort and intent moving forward. Next season's podcast is going to have some more structure to it. Some guests, direct leadership statements/discussion, continued ramb...

This episode isn't ultimately about announcing the non-profit we're launching as much as it is about the why, how, and what driving me to do it.  I have a tendency to think small. Or maybe better stated - not think big; big enough. It's weird, because during my career I prized myself as seeing a little more robust. When I really think about it, it's that I don't think big...

We recently released the full length video of "The Hard Way". Super happy with how it turned out and how every time I watch it, I'm brought  brings back into the moment. To reflect and grow from the thoughts, emotions, and overall experience. This episode just talks a little about what the intent was and drifts into some thoughts about how I tackle challenge, life, and design events...

Working through getting into when the programmed aggression / tough guy mode needs to be switched over to patient / prudent. Like, at what age or career progression through life is it time to start evolving through an anger originated behavior pattern. At what point do you start to be the tired cliche and marginalize your own effectiveness? Be the man you needed twenty years ago for someone else t...

Entertaining a question received from a friend about the endurance events I enjoy so much.  ~paraphrasing~ When you commit and find yourself consumed with participating in these endurance events, are you trying to fill a hole and do you end up making it deeper? I think the question is answered differently for everyone. And the conversation can be applied to more 'obsessions' or 'pas...