Creative Diaries

This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit lilliankemanis.substack.com Dear Listeners, This episode comes at a crucial time in my own personal season of change. For as long as I can remember I’ve been practicing the art of noticing subtle movements that are felt and sensed before any visible changes are seen. Some call it intuition, others call it sensitivity or empathy…I view i...

Dear Listeners, Lately it feels as though I’m making decisions in the dark. I had a big eureka moment the other day and realized I was delaying decision-making because I didn’t have all the information or clarity that I felt I needed to make a move. But I realized that sometimes you have to make a decision and let life fill in the gaps. I’m not in charge of how things will happen, but I am in char...

Dear Listeners, Despite some delays in getting my episodes out in February, here we are at the start of a new month, with fresh energy moving. I usually like to do an end-of-the-month recap but even by March 1 (when I recorded this episode) it seemed that February was long gone. And thank goodness for that! I am coming at you from Mazunte, Mexico where I have escaped the worst of New York winter a...

This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit lilliankemanis.substack.com Dear Listeners, In this episode I share what I am learning about the ways the “freeze” response shows up in my experience as an artist, and also, as a human being who longs to grow into my authenticity. What happens in our systems when we are chronically living outside of our capacity?…When we are giving more...

Dear Listeners, At the root of what keeps us stuck is fear. This fear has many faces : the face of perfectionism, anxiety, over-thinking, low self-esteem, shame… I’ve thought a lot about how these various faces of fear show up, not only in our behaviors and beliefs around what is possible, but also in our body. How does our fear manifest as a nervous system state and what happens when our body reg...

This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit lilliankemanis.substack.com Dear Listeners, Lately I’ve been reflecting on the waxing and waning nature of self-confidence. There’s a part of me that fantasizes about achieving some kind of peek-level confidence that remains eternally unfazed by insecurity, fear, or anxiety, however, this couldn’t be farther from my true experience. I d...

This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit lilliankemanis.substack.com Dear Listeners, Lately I’ve felt stickier than usual. I’ve fond myself cheek to rock, too close to even see what this thing is, this thing that’s “in my way.” I remind myself that the obstacle is the way. I let myself soften against it. How else can I relate to my obstacle? What if I rested against it? Whispe...

This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit lilliankemanis.substack.com I almost didn’t publish this episode for fear of it not “making any sense.” But to my surprise, upon listening to it back, I feel there is some sense to be made here : the nature of change-work (or in other words ⎯ self transformation and healing work) is simple yet complex. Change is the only universal and o...

This episode comes to you on the heals of the New Year. The month of December has always felt to me, intense ⎯ heavily saturated by reflection of both past and present, with the lingering question : where am I going from here? As I review what has been moving within me this past month, I feel the fullness of the whole year, like the swell of a wave inviting me to catch its descend. I meet this int...

This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit lilliankemanis.substack.com What it comes down to, really : is the need to be loved. When we have a desire to “be seen,” and / or equally, a fear to “be seen” : what it comes down to is the need to be loved. We need to be loved for who we are, fully and wholly, imperfectly, in all of our weirdness, brilliance, and darkness. When we are...

This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit lilliankemanis.substack.com creative containers, asking for help, burnout, safety : my journey moving back home

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