Cracks in the Cement

For this Cracks in the Cement podcast episode, I talk about how some of the ADHD symptoms that I can relate to might get mixed in with my whiteness. I know there can be a lot of relief in realizing one has what is currently called ADHD or ADD, either thru a formal diagnosis or just reading the symptoms and having much of what felt confusing suddenly make sense. And it has been a relief for me, but...

For this episode, Ronin (Ro) talks about what keeps them going in these times without losing their sh*t. If you're interested in the Emotional Resilience and Accountability Training, you can check it out here: https://www.apok-ccrf.org/for-individuals/Discount code: NEWCULTURE2026

How might white people bring up "your whiteness is showing" kind of thing with other white folks? Ronin shares four steps to make this easy, and without coming across as policing or superior. Youtube version here: https://youtu.be/czFnJdmXrzI Check out our workshops, courses, and hosted community conversations here: https://www.apok-ccrf.org

Ronin shares four ways white folks commonly think they're being helpful when they're actually overshadowing others and/or unconsciously prioritizing themselves. More information on our community conversations here - https://www.apok-ccrf.org/ccc April Harter interview - https://youtu.be/DwJrEjvvfdc?si=Zn_lqJlf-VTkgflh

In this episode of Cracks in the Cement, I have the privilege of talking to jen of wild root revival (certified in Embodied Sex Coaching, Sexological Bodywork, and Psychedelic Integration Coaching-- so fricking cool) about gender, queerness, embodied consent, and some ways to attend to ourselves after consent-ruptures. And consent not just in sexual encounters, but in how we navigate all relations...

The smoke and mirrors of the United States occupation is gone for many of us who were not able to see it (mostly white folks). As we work through the nausea, sadness, hopelessness, anger, etc., let's use this awareness to take responsibility for the collective karma of being part of an occupation, and to really embody collective liberation. If you are interested in a healing session with me, you c...

A quick episode to honor the current day human experience-- the grief, anger, hopelessness of war and climate change... and as humans have done forever through the worst of times, we are asked to find ways to help and hold each other and ourselves, and to find time for joy and connection. View on YouTube here . Cracks in the Cement podcast is connected to Apokalypsis Culture-Change Research and Fa...

It was brought to my attention that I have been using the word “woo" because I feel nervous my spiritual practices will scare some people off. I was unaware of how discounting and diminishing that is to the healers and healing that are/is so needed. And when it comes down to it, we can't make everyone happy, so we need to be honest about who we are. ~*~ YouTube version: https://youtu.be/L...

White supremacy is a violent pattern of being-- both seen and unseen-- that demands us to pattern ourselves to fit in with it (or it will spit us out). This has created a wounded culture that needs healing (we must to do more than tear it down). I went to the desert to ask Gaia "What is the pattern of being that heals?" And [~She~] answered... Listen to hear [~Her~] response. --> YouT...

This episode distinguishes between two types of perfectionism, and explores what's underneath so we can do more than just hot potato everything that seems related to it. Talking to myself and white-bodied listeners, I also share some ways I think this might mix with our whiteness. Find video version here . Resources I mentioned: https://www.frontiersin.org/journals/psychology/articles/10.3389/...

Four years past the big white awakening of the 2020 Black Lives Matter movement... Are places like Eugene, Oregon much better? If you are a white person, are you much better? This episode reflects on some ways I've learned white folks (I'm one of them) can show up in a much better way. ttps://www.apok-ccrf.org

What's slowing you down from stepping into your full self (and we need your full self now more than ever, as we enter new climate patterns and political challenges)? For me, it was alcohol and trying to be social in ways that don't gel with me (draining the shit out of me, and making me feel like a failure). Also, plz support our work by checking out our new self-paced professional and per...

A vision of my emotionally distant grandmother as a child inspires me to discuss how trauma, blocked grief, and a belief in group superiority create armor and plaque around one's heart, blocking the ability to feel others' pain, in turn being able to support or ignore genocide. Video version: https://youtu.be/PIwNFC7AATo

The condition of whiteness has programmed many of us white folks into thinking we can take up more than our fair share of time and resources. This episode reflects on how moving back is often the most helpful action we white folks can do.

This episode is dedicated to my mom and my partner for loving and accepting all of who I am. Thank you so very much <3 <3 <3

For this episode I dig a little more into how ancestral trauma potentially mixes with whiteness. Specifically, how being raised with messages that there is not enough food, resources, or unconditional love, coupled with individualism can create some harmful results. P.S. Rise Up Rooted is rebranding! Check out our new website here: https://www.apok-ccrf.org/

As we learn about tenets of white supremacy, productivity is commonly listed. Does this mean productivity is inherently bad? It seems to me it depends on what it's for, and if it's in healthy relationship with other beings and other aspects of ourselves.  The wounded masculine is a product of the settler/colonizer culture that pushes us all to be in constant productivity, not to support so...

Those of us who are justice-oriented, and raised with white supremacy conditioning, can often find ourselves in the habit of being hyper-judgemental. For this episode, I reflect on how whiteness interacts with this phenomenon (we white folx have got to practice humility...), as well as my realization that being honest about how my discernment can easily slip into hyper-judgement opened me up to fe...

A treasured friend of mine, M, requested I do an episode on grief, so here it is. Grief has become one of my favorite topics because thanks to friends of mine like Drea, and teachers like Martín Prechtel, I have come to understand that feeling (1) safe enough to work through our own grief, and (2) comfortable to hold another in working through their grief are necessary components of a healthy cult...

This August episode offers updates on what going on with Rise Up Rooted (the organization from which this podcast springs), including its place on the path towards nonprofit status, as well as a bit of background and more information on the upcoming “Me and White Supremacy” book/learning groups (they start in October). If you or anyone you know is curious about these book/learning groups, this epi...

For this podcast, I get into... Cracks: I have been FEELING Janelle Monáe's new album, "The Age of Pleasure"-- it has it all... summer vibes, the absence of the male/white gaze, juicy queerness, sovereign sexiness, joy, pleasure (of course!), and crushing on oneself with ZERO apologies~~!!! When's the last time you had a crush on yourself, for yourself and nobody else? What were...

While attending a recent environmental law conference, I noticed the importance of Accountability among occupier white folks. Take a listen! white ppl, we need to: feel, acknowledge, grieve, apologize, and let go of W.S. culture again and again and again and again...

For  this new Cracks episode, I share my journey of stepping into my embodied, empowered self as nonbinary, transmasculine-leaning (feel free to imagine me singing a made-up joy tune “it feels so good to be Me~~  yeah yeah yeah~~!"). If you have kids in your life, I hope you listen to  this episode. <3 When we squish the magic of our and other's sacred masculine/feminine balance,...

For this episode, I reflect on how white guilt (and regret and shame) is a healthy reaction when a white person first learns the ways in which they have caused harm and contributed to a super f-ed up system  + what might be some reasons white guilt can get stuck and amass  + how that potentially blocks progress on the path towards dismantling white supremacy Thank you so much for listening! You ca...

For this podcast episode, I noodle on how ideas of self-empowerment can show up as individualism (separation from others), as compared to sovereign beingness (connection with others), and the importance of noticing when my anger at white supremacy and the male gaze is actually anger at myself for assimilating and contorting to the male gaze for financial security. I realize a major aspect of sover...