Courtney Cries A Lot

Why when you're manifesting something does it always seem like the opposite of what you want starts to play out more in your life? In this episode I explain the Law of Opposites to the best of my ability and help you see that it's not a bad thing. It's helping you come home to yourself and align with what you're manifesting so that you allow yourself to receive it. The journey, with all its ups an...

In this episode I talk about how "we manifest at the speed of safety". We let ourselves receive newness and change and the things we desire… to the extent that we feel safe receiving them. This is why we have to train our bodies to feel safe right here, right now. To receive the good that's here now. And rinse and repeat and repeat and repeat until we feel safe to receive more.  When we're walking...

In this episode I talk about how you can't override your subconscious programming from a conscious declaration or resolution alone. You have to meet your body and your subconscious where it is, and show up with the consistency and patience and love required to help it feel safe. Like one of those stories of an adopted shelter dog you see on Instagram. They come home traumatized and distrusting. Bu...

-A life update -Artist's Way update -Realizing I've been putting so much pressure on myself since I turned 37. About timelines and having kids and being *behind* -My Louise Hay bender -Shep from Southern Charm inspiring a lil epiphany in me -Becoming not only more open to affirmations but all about that life  -Reaching a new turning point of being DONE with making my circumstances mean anything ab...

In this episode I answer the question "Are people born wicked or do they have wickedness thrust upon them?"  and talk about what I've been up to this December: seeing Wicked, listening to the Wicked soundtrack nonstop, watching a documentary about the study of violence, sitting in silence, making space and being intentional about connecting more to my true nature, and embarking on The Artist's Way...

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When we honor our feelings, our feelings don't take over and run our whole lives. IFS has been such an empowering tool/framework for helping all the different parts of myself feel seen, heard, honored, and valued no matter what they may feel about my current reality.  When we can let ourselves be completely ok with this present moment and whatever our current circumstances are (including whatever...

In this episode I explain the steps of RAIN (Recognize, Allow, Investigate, Nurture) for emotional processing and how sometimes you can think you're allowing a feeling, but you're really only fake allowing it in hopes that it will go away ASAP. I used to do this all the time. I'd be like "oh yeah, it's totally ok that I'm feeling this" when meanwhile everything in my energy was saying a big fat "n...

In this episode I talk about how I used to be scared of my feelings. I'd avoid them, numb them, distract myself from them. And in doing so, I was so disconnected from myself, my desires, my needs, etc.  Over the last 7ish years I've been slowly but surely learning to allow my feelings. I've learned how to turn inward and meet whatever's there with love and compassion. How to validate myself. How t...

Once you own what you really want in life, it's common to resent where you're at now. To see your current reality as something you just need to get through, so you can get to where you really want to be. And to see who you are now as inferior to the person you'll become once you have what you want. When that's your mindset, you're essentially putting your desired future on a pedestal, and making t...

In Remembering pt 2, I talk about why it's important to own your desires. Why what you desire is not random. And how, once you own that you want something, an energetic dialogue is established between you and the unseen. A co-creative dance of bringing that desire into physical form. So when it comes to your part in the dance, you need to check in with yourself. There's an anchor question to come...

This episode introduces the Remembering series. I talk about why we forget who we are and what we're capable of. Why we numb when we could be creating. Why we perpetuate the same patterns in our lives even though we're consciously so tired of them. And how when we get to the ROOT of what's going on internally, and relate to it with love, we remember our power. And we start moving differently.  You...

In this episode I talk about a few ways I've been much more kind to myself lately. It's been almost four months since I said goodbye to Gary, and I wouldn't have gotten through this time with any grace at all unless I amped up my self-compassion practice. And I've realized there are parts of myself that I've never really shown compassion to before. I guess I thought that certain parts of me or cer...

This episode is about Gary, my baby boy (my Beagle). I talk about his very peaceful passing and what I'm experiencing in my grief. I promise it's not just a heavy and dark listen. It's more about love than anything. Gary brought so much lightness and humor and joy to my life, and he continues to do so. And his last days were filled with light. He gave me so much peace at the end and I'm so gratefu...

This episode details the classic false premise of the mind: when I have x, then I'll be happy. I'll finally feel ok, I'll truly be able to relax when _____. This is a classic law of attraction trap that keeps us from manifesting what we desire. I talk about how we can recognize when we're in this state and what we can do to shift out of it. 00:00:00 - 00:04:49 - general intro 00:04:49 - 00:13:12 i...

In today's episode we get into some of the basics of manifestation and just begin to scratch the surface really. I have a billion other things to say on the topic but we gotta start somewhere!  00:00 - 08:00 intro and coming out as a manifestation believer lol 08:00 - 13:11 how I see manifestation  13:11 - 19:28 we're meant to trust and OWN our desires 19:28 - 23:05 why the strength of your belief...

In this episode I go into detail about the two things that were most incremental in me climbing out of what mentally felt like a huge hole (living at my parents' house in my early 30s). Those two things were self-compassion and surrender. I'm so glad I started learning about them then because it turns out they're actually foundational keys to life. 00:00 - 08:16 thank yous + why I wanted to start...

In this episode I go into detail about a rock bottom-y time of my life, when I lived with my parents from age 29-32 and felt like a too-damaged-for-the-world loser. I talk about how that time cracked me open to begin healing wounds and negative beliefs I've carried about myself since childhood. Without that bottom, I don't know when I would've started doing the inner work that has made my life so...

Chasing the high of viral videos on TikTok and the influx of cash that came along with them, I got a little lost in 2022. I forgot what mattered tbh. And now I'm remembering what actually matters. Starting this podcast is something I've wanted to do for a long time. In this episode I give you a glimpse of what it looks like inside my mind when my inner critic is running the show. I also talk about...