Cosmic Triggers with Sam

Don’t let the title fool you. I think self love is something talked about a lot but rarely understood. Heck, I don’t really know what it means. But I’m starting to get glimpses of it, I think. I think we’re taught to give ourselves entirely to another. That is love. But then why does love and relationships always seem to fall short? Why are we left disappointed and unhappy? I think we rely too muc...

This episode is vulnerable. Probably the most vulnerable I’ve been yet. I talk about my sexual trauma. How society only wants to look at the “good” or positive things and ignore the bad. And what can happen when we ignore what is in all of us. Thich Nhat Hanh talks about interbeing. How there can’t be right without left, up without down. The same is true for joy and suffering. Happiness and sadnes...

Todays episode is a continuation of our inner child part I. This will probably be a series because I’m realizing there is a lot of work to do with our little child inside. This is just some of my own experiences with little Sam and how I’m learning to heal her.

This episode is about connection. What is real connection? We think we have it because we can reach each other in an instance. But what does that take away from us? What do we lose? I think we lose warmth and love and true connection. Looking into a real humans eyes. Sitting with someone. Holding them. Feeling their warmth and love and pain. We lose this when we rely on social media. This is anoth...

I spent the past few days in West Virginia to climb, and instead learned a bunch of stuff about myself and just people in general. We have a child inside all of us who knows so much and can help us in so many ways, if we just listen to them. One of the most important episodes in my opinion. I hope you find something here ❤️

I haven’t used marijuana in a while. But I did this day and then took a bath. And it was an experience, let me tell you. Your body is incredible. Laying in water is incredible. The fact that water comes out of a faucet is incredible. There are little joys and wonders in everything. That’s not even what this podcast episode is about. It’s just a ramble. I hope it’s somewhat coherent. Regardless, th...

After a little more than a week of integrating a bell into my life that goes off every 15 minutes to remind me to breathe, I have some updates. I feel calm. I’m happy almost always. I smile a lot. I see subtlety’s in things I did not see before. I’m quiet. My mind is quiet. I don’t respond to people or things right away, but first take a breathe to assess how I’m feeling and a better way to answer...

Thich Nhat Hanh said “the only way to ease our fear and be truly happy is to acknowledge our fear and look deeply at its source. Instead of trying to escape from our fear, we can invite it up to our awareness and look at it clearly and deeply.” This episode is just about that, inspired by my partner who constantly acknowledges his fear and faces it when it comes, instead of ignoring it or abandoni...

What happens when you are cracked open? When you acknowledge all of the parts of yourself, the good and bad. When you delve deeper and deeper into yourself no matter what you find. I believe you can spend a lifetime doing this. And I believe the deeper you go, and the more open and loving and real and vulnerable you are, the more you can experience and love and see and enjoy. When we go deeper and...

All those spiritual people on Instagram got to me when they talk about how they journal everyday. I think every day might be overwhelming, but if we reflected on our day to day feelings and emotions, we’d probably process and release a lot of shtuff. And then we won’t be so uptight, and we’d probably have a better understanding of ourselves and the world around us. But what do I know.

This episode is about being open and vulnerable. And how when you do that, sometimes you find people who can hold you for all that you are, both good and bad. They can accept and understand all your parts. And because of that, you get healed a little. Imagine if we did that with more than just our primary partners? Where we allowed the right people to hold us and see us, what we could become. What...

This one is a ramble, we definitely go all over the place. Featuring my dear friend Emily, we talk about society, why we’re separate, how we’d like things to be, why technological advancements are good and bad, food, love, kindness and the security dilemma. This is a great one. Please reach out to me on Instagram @cosmic.triggers if you have anything you’d like to say!

Hello to you. Todays episode was recorded after I did a guided meditation to nurse the beloved (who’s the beloved?) and discover what your attachment style might be. It was enlightening to say the least. Just a quick ramble about how I discovered how I need and want to love myself and be loved by others. Important stuff ya know? Hope you enjoy 🖤

This is kind of about relationship to self and other. Realizing what your relationship to relationships were at a younger age, and how you can make your adult ones more healthy and fruitful! At least for me. Maybe you’ll resonate. This one’s a little vulnerable, but I appreciate you hearing me out.

Ain’t capitalism something? Companies produce waste and we’re responsible to recycle it. We also have so many options of the same thing! Which is weird. I just talk about things that shouldn’t be made for profit (medicine, healthcare, mail) and how bizarre they are. And maybe how things could be. I don’t know, I hope you enjoy regardless 🖤

I ponder to what extent consciousness exists over a can of soup. And if we see things as having consciousness, would that change how we treat them/consume them/spend time with them?

A quick bit about why it’s cool to be open to depth within your relationships and to find as much fulfilling and worthwhile connection as you can. That is all.

This is meant to be a Monday morning ramble, because it is quite the ramble. However, it unexpectedly became a review of sorts, where I try to explain my mentorship program and what it has done for me, and how it might help you if you so choose to reach out to Kerrie. You will be in the best of hands. It’s like therapy but times a thousand. I have breakthroughs way more often, and instead of just...

This was a late night ramble about what it means to master something, and potentially a way to find out what your natural talents are. Or at least one of them. A few other random bits are sprinkled in (as usual). Enjoy ❤️

This episode is about information. Where certain ideas came from, how information is spread today and whether it’s good or not. This will have a second part because it ends with a new line of questions. I hope it gives you something to think about, and if so, please share what it is!

In this episode I talk about how the way we live isn’t sustainable. Capitalism exists banking on the fact that the end of the world is coming, because it acts as if it is. So I talk about a different world and a different way of living. Join me as I ramble on my drive to work. Let me know what you think! Have a lovely day ❤️

Are we going as fast as we need to? That’s all I ask. A short one about nature and it’s speed and strength and whether or not we’re working in accordance with it. Enjoy ❤️

Hello! This is my longest solo ramble. I wish y’all were there to help me sort out thoughts and just figure stuff out. But I talk about a different way of living. More leisurely. Where we can actually enjoy being a human. You think it’s possible? Let me know. Thank you ❤️

This is a short bit about how everything is connected, and what happens when we seemingly sever connections between trees and each other. If anyone has answers, please reach out! Instagram: @cosmic.triggers

LISTEN TO THIS ONE. It’s my favorite. They’re all my favorite. But this is truly a ramble. And I encourage you to please respond and reach out with thoughts that you have. That is all. Enjoy your day, your life and everything you do.