Cosmic Mess Podcast

What happens when you finally stop hiding? When you stop shrinking to be digestible — and start telling the truth, even when it shakes your voice? In this raw and unfiltered episode of Cosmic Mess , Monica opens up about a difficult phone call with her parents, being honest about her mental health, her sexuality, and the cost of being seen. This isn’t an episode about blame — it’s about boundaries...

Part Two takes us deeper into ancestral healing—where release becomes reclamation. We talk about creating open dialogue with your ancestors, altar practices, and the simple but powerful ways signs and synchronicities show up in daily life. You’ll also hear a guided ritual for letting go of inherited pain, plus a card pull to check in with the energy of the week. This conversation is a reminder: yo...

📍 Ancestral Wounds w/ Britt, Part One What happens when the pain we’re carrying isn’t just ours? In this episode, I’m joined by my dear friend Brittany (@_issavibecheck_), a multi-passionate creative, vibe curator, and creator of the Issa Vibe Check affirmation deck, to talk about the ancestral wound—the inherited trauma, silence, and survival patterns passed down through our families. We share p...

We’re told healing is about fixing, upgrading, or becoming someone new. But what if it’s not? In this episode, I share why healing isn’t about polishing yourself into perfection — it’s about remembering who you already are. ✨ From treating healing like a Virgo-style checklist, to realizing my body is a doorway to the divine, to living the life my ancestors dreamed of — this conversation is about...

✨ No More Shrinking — Breaking Free from People Pleasing ✨ For years, I bent myself into shapes that weren’t mine — silencing my truth, softening my edges, and playing the role of “easy” because I thought that made me lovable. Spoiler: it didn’t. In this episode of Cosmic Mess , I’m sharing the real cost of people pleasing — how it sneaks into our relationships, friendships, work, even tiny ever...

Hey, beautiful messes. Welcome back to Cosmic Mess, unfiltered conversations for the too much and not enough among us. Episode 11 is something new — the start of a series I’m calling Dear Diary. I’m opening the pages of my journals from the very beginning of my healing journey back in October 2019. These entries are raw and unedited — filled with confusion, hope, anger, affirmations, Reiki reflect...

⚠️ Trigger Warning: Discussion of loneliness, patriarchal conditioning, queerphobia, fatphobia, and religious themes. In this empowering episode of Cosmic Mess , we dive deep into being single on the spiritual path , breaking generational trauma , and healing women’s loneliness . I unpack the so-called male loneliness epidemic , the patriarchal systems that shaped it, and why women have been carry...

✨ Breaking the Cycle, Rewriting the Story ✨ This episode is a sacred space for the cycle breakers — the ones doing the work no one modeled, who carry both grief and hope, and who are rewriting the story in real time. We’ll move through personal storytelling, ancestral trauma, the science of epigenetics, and the emotional and spiritual toll of being the first to choose differently. If you’ve ever...

Episode 8: The Lie of Not Enough 🎙️ Imposter syndrome, ancestral wounds, and the messy miracle of becoming. Ever feel like you're faking it? Like at any moment someone’s going to figure out you have no idea what you’re doing? Same. In this episode, we're pulling apart the myth of not-enoughness — where it starts, how it shows up in the body, and why it gets loudest when you’re on the verge...

What if your cycle isn't a curse, but a key? In this deeply personal and soulfully educational episode, Monica breaks down the four phases of the menstrual cycle, shares her lived experience with PMDD (Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder), and reclaims the bleed as a sacred, powerful rhythm. You'll learn: What's happening in your body during each cycle phase, hormonally, emotionally, and s...

In this softer, more playful episode, I’m sharing the weird witchy wellness rituals that actually help me feel grounded — from crystals in my bra to moon water in my tea. We’ll talk about intuitive tools like oracle cards, talking to your guides in the shower, ancestral altars, energy cleansing, and tuning into your menstrual cycle as a sacred rhythm. I also open up about a recent shift in my ment...

Awakening isn't always light and clarity. Sometimes it's heartbreak. Sometimes it's sacred rage. Sometimes it's feeling so overwhelmed by the state of the world that you don't know how to keep going, but you do anyway. In this episode of Cosmic Mess, we talk about the emotional and spiritual cost of being conscious in a world that thrives on disconnection. This is for the ones who can't unsee what...

In this episode, I’m getting real about my lifelong diagnoses of Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) and Major Depressive Disorder (MDD) —and why, even after years of therapy and self-work, those labels still feel more like symptoms than answers. We explore: The shame that grows when you feel like you’re always “too much” or “not enough” How women—and especially women of color—are often dismissed o...

What happens when movement becomes more about punishment than pleasure? When our bodies are treated like problems to fix, rather than sacred spaces to inhabit? In this unfiltered and heartfelt episode, I sit down with my very first guest, Amy’rie, to talk about our complicated (and ever-evolving) relationships with movement, intuitive eating, diet culture, and body trust. Together, we unpack: What...

In the premiere episode of Cosmic Mess , host Monica shares the raw, honest origin story behind the podcast. This episode explores body image struggles, spiritual healing, and what it means to live as a highly sensitive, neurodivergent soul in a world that often demands perfection. If you've ever felt like you're "too much" or "not enough," this podcast is your permission slip to take up space, sp...

⚠️ Trigger Warning: This episode includes personal reflections on dieting, disordered eating, body shame, and body image struggles. Please take care while listening and pause if anything feels overwhelming. In this powerful episode of Cosmic Mess , Monica unpacks the toxic myth that our bodies must look a certain way to be lovable, successful, or worthy. Sharing personal stories of early dieting,...