"Conversations with God about God."

In this episode, I sit with a quiet but heavy truth: "I want to hope again… but I’m tired." This is a conversation born out of prayer, an honest reflection with God about waiting, grief, and the tension between what was and what could be. Sometimes the pain speaks before faith does. Sometimes trusting God feels heavier when He is all you have. And sometimes, the past feels safer than the future… b...

At the start of a new year, there’s often pressure to feel excited, refreshed, and ready… but what if you’re stepping into 2026 still carrying the weariness of 2025? In this episode, we reflect honestly on the past year — the faith it took to keep going, the quiet battles, the prayers that felt unanswered — and what it means to begin again while still feeling tired. Rooted in Psalm 73 and Mark 9,...

In Part 2 of The State of the Church, we continue our deep dive into Matthew 23 and the reality of spiritual abuse in today’s Church. This episode unpacks the painful aftermath of hurt within the Body of Christ — the distrust of pastors and prophets, the struggle to separate God’s true character from human failings, and the temptation to walk away from faith altogether. But it doesn’t end there. W...

In this episode, we dive into one of the most sobering passages in Scripture — Matthew 23 — and reflect on what it reveals about the current state of the Church. Jesus once confronted the Pharisees for their hypocrisy, pride, and misuse of God’s Word, and today we see the same patterns repeating in spiritual abuse, legalism, and unhealthy leadership. Many believers have walked away from the Church...

We are all just clay in the Potter's hands. Will you trust Him enough to mold you and shape you according to HIS vision? Let's reflect for a moment and ponder on the beautiful love story that God is writing with your life. 💨💨 Scriptures: - 1 Corinthians 2:9 - 1 Peter 5:10 (AMPC) - Romans 9:20-21 Stay blessed, stay planted, don't leave the potter's hands. I love you family!! 😙❤️🎧

In this episode, I get real raw and vulnerable about my own struggle with desires that don’t always align with God’s will — and the faith it takes to lay them down. Inspired by James 1:14–17, we’ll explore how our unsurrendered desires often open the door to temptation and sin, not because God or the devil forces our hand, but because we let our own longings lead us astray. Like Eve, who gazed at...

"Death is the end... yet in every situation, death is the way to life." – John Stott, The Radical Disciple In this soul-stirring episode, we confront one of the most profound paradoxes of the Christian faith: death as the doorway to life. Drawing from John Stott’s powerful reflection in The Radical Disciple, we explore the two kinds of death every believer must face—the death of self through daily...

How kind of God to give us His Spirit to constantly remind us of who we are. Conviction from Holy Spirit is just a way of God reminding us that we are His sons and daughters, and by reason of that, we live differently. Our identity changes and transforms the way that we live, speak, walk, think act and conduct ourselves. It is a daily reminder to live above the flesh and embrace the life of the Sp...

"THE FAITH TO MOVE ON" is quite special and close to my heart. It's a call to get up out of the wilderness, a journey that was meant for 40 days but has turned out to be 40 years. It's a cry of the Father to heal and free His children from the past pains, hurts, heartbreaks, traumas and into the promised peace and healing that He offers. God is calling us to come to Him with our pain, doubt, anger...

Have you ever prayed earnestly for something, only to watch God move… just not in the way you expected? What do you do when someone else receives the very breakthrough you’ve been crying out for? In this episode, we explore the quiet strength in God’s sovereignty—how sometimes He doesn’t remove the struggle, but instead strengthens us to endure it. Drawing from the example of Jesus in Gethsemane a...

WELCOME BACK EVERYONE!!! ☺️🔥🙌🏾 Thank you for joining me for yet another powerful and power-packed season!! I pray that the Lord would use this season to make you fall in love with His word. I pray that the Lord would bless you and cause whatever is being said here to push you to spend more time with Him, in prayer asking Him to help you and grant you the FAITH TO SEE BEYOND the pain, trauma, hu...

In this episode, we dive into the story of Jonah and the lessons it holds about obedience, resistance, and the ripple effects our choices can have on others. "This Time... Obey!" explores how we often find ourselves running from God's calling, not always in obvious ways, but through small choices that take us outside His will. Join us as we reflect on the consequences of disobedience, the storms i...

Are Christians going overboard with their devotion, or are we settling for less than what Jesus calls us to? In this thought-provoking episode, we tackle the question of whether living "too much" for Christ should be seen as a negative or if it's simply the biblical norm for all believers. We'll explore how cultural perceptions of faith may limit our understanding of true discipleship and why full...

I am so happy that I recorded this powerful conversation between my sister Mbali Mafai and I. This conversation happened in 2023, and as I was listening to it, it felt like we had this talk yesterday because that's just what the word of God is: Active and Alive, fresh and new every single day. I felt so blessed again and this is a conversation I will listen over and over again. We are vulnerable,...

Isaiah 62:6-7 NLT [6] O Jerusalem, I have posted watchmen on your walls; they will pray day and night, continually. Take no rest, all you who pray to the Lord. [7] Give the Lord no rest until he completes his work, until he makes Jerusalem the pride of the earth. A generation of Jacob's must arise!! Those who will say "Lord, I will not leave You until You bless me. I will not leave You until You e...

We hope you've been blessed. Remember, let us learn to live well and suffer well with God, otherwise we're always going to leave Him. Happy listening, COG. ❤️👂🙏

We are just clay in the potters hands. And the Lord will not rest until we become what He has envisioned and destined us to become. This podcast is a reminder of how God is interested, committed and invested in our becoming and that He will not rest until we become like Him, even if it means taking us through seasons of pain and suffering. Can this show to us something about the love, kindness and...

In the words of Elisabeth Elliot, "To be a follower of the Crucified means one day a personal encounter with the cross. And the cross always entails loss." Jesus said that if we want to be His followers we should "deny ourselves, take up our cross and follow Him." He invites us to experience what He experienced and that includes suffering/death and resurrection/life. Suffering is never for nothing...

One thing I love about the Apostle Paul was his integrity in ministry and his dedication and commitment to ensuring that Christ is seen and glorified and that the gospel is preached to many people. We can learn a lot from his life, and one of the things we can learn from this podcast is that boasting as a Christian leader is not in line with the character of God. We see a lot of this in pulpits, p...

Matthew 26:39 AMP [39] And after going a little farther, He fell face down and prayed, saying, “My Father, if it is possible [that is, consistent with Your will], let this cup pass from Me; yet not as I will, but as You will.” Aligning Our Desires with God's Word in Prayer In our journey of faith, aligning our desires with the Word of God is crucial for a transformative prayer life. Prayer is not...