Conversations With Camille Podcast

This reflection is about the lies we tell ourselves when we are trying to survive familiar chaos. The hope that this time is different. The belief that better words will finally make someone understand. The pressure to stay available in the name of responsibility, even when that availability keeps costing us our peace. It may resonate with anyone learning the difference between communication and a...

Good evening. Good, good evening. It is about 11 o’clock tonight, but I just got out of this meeting, and I felt like I needed to get on here and talk about something. The meeting was about how much we’re investing in ourselves. And it got me thinking because what I realized is, yeah, I really wasn’t investing in myself until I started going to these groups. It’s taken me about 40-something years...

In this episode, I’m talking about the subtle ways control can disguise itself as love, concern, responsibility, or care. I break down what I’m calling the four M’s of control: managing, manipulating, martyring, and mothering. Not as a way to shame ourselves, but as a way to recognize the moments when we are trying to feel safe by taking over what was never fully ours to carry. This reflection is...

I’m literally done staying committed to things that no longer feel good. That’s really the best way I can say it. I had this revelation the other day because I realized I’ve been splitting myself between two identities. As I’ve shared before, by degree, I’m a marriage and family therapist. I took the national exam, failed it by one point, then created my own system, brought a classmate along with...

I think commitment was the real issue. Not talent. Not intelligence. Not even lack of options. Commitment. Because if I’m being honest, I have spent a lot of years starting, stopping, pivoting, rethinking, reimagining, getting excited, burning out, and then asking myself the same damn question again: What the hell am I supposed to be doing with my life? And that question has followed me through de...

Good afternoon. I wanted to bring an old concept back to life because when I heard it again, I was like yeah… this one still hits. FOG. Fear. Obligation. Guilt. And when those three come together, they do exactly what the word suggests. They create fog. Fear clouds perception. Obligation chains the will. Guilt poisons self-worth. And once all that gets working together inside of you, it gets hard...

Hello, hello, hello. I’m laughing because when I say that I immediately think about RuPaul’s Drag Race . You know how RuPaul comes out and says that? That’s literally what popped into my head. Anyway… moving on. Something came back to me recently from when I was working as a substance abuse counselor and running group therapy. At the time we were doing everything on Zoom, and so many people refuse...

This morning I had a completely different topic planned. But life had other plans. What ended up sitting heavy on my heart was my daughter. She’s 20 now, so technically not a teenager anymore. But she’s still young, still figuring things out, still in that stage where everybody around you seems to have strong opinions about what your life should look like. Recently she made the decision to withdra...

Today I want to talk about surrendering the outcome. You’ve probably heard that phrase a hundred times. Focus on the process. Enjoy the journey. Let go of the outcome. It sounds beautiful when someone says it in a book or a video. But when your life feels like it’s falling apart, surrender can feel almost impossible. Because how do you not focus on the outcome when your bills need to be paid? When...