Mike Maeshiro

Confessions of A Reformer

Religion EN ↓ 233 episodes

Hi. My name is Mike Maeshiro. I'm a gay, deconstructed former Christian minister. I wanted a place where I wasn't teaching and more inviting my audience on the journey with me in a candid and exploratory way. So I started this podcast. I hope my journey is helpful for you. With curiosity and a critical mind, let's dive in. Music by Alex_MakeMusic

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Mike Maeshiro

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Religion

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Latest episode

Jul 6, 2026

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Episodes

Deconstructing Jesus 18.03.2024

Season 4: Episode 9 In this episode, Mika Perrin, Mike's sister and the host of Numa's Decunstruction Group, Ashes, joins Mike to discuss what it means to deconstruct Jesus and to share some of their own processes and pain around this topic. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Ashes Deconstruction Group Ashes Book Club A

Trans Allyship: Journal Entry #1 11.03.2024

Season 4: Episode 8 Journal Entries: Reflections Around Politics . It's an election year and that means some crazy stuff is about to happen! This series will show up, as needed, to pull apart, poke at, and examine political adjacent happenings. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠God Made Me Gay - Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠

The Real Lives of Gay Men: Colton Underwood 04.03.2024

Season 4: Episode 7 Mike wraps up this series with special guest, reality star, Colton Underwood (The Bachelor, Coming Out Colton). Get ready to learn, to be uncomfortable and to laugh your head off as these men talk about life, love, sex and being gay. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠God Made Me Gay - Substack⁠⁠⁠ Daddyhood Podcast on Instagram

The Real Lives of Gay Men: Ben Cardenas 26.02.2024

Season 4: Episode 6 In this series, Mike hosts short conversations with gay men in order to hold space for their stories to be told; stories of being gay in a straight man’s world. Get ready to learn, to be uncomfortable and to laugh your head off as these men talk about life, love, sex and being gay. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠God Made Me Gay - Substack⁠⁠⁠

The Real Lives of Gay Men: Ben Thomas 19.02.2024

Season 4: Episode 5 In this series, Mike hosts short conversations with gay men in order to hold space for their stories to be told; stories of being gay in a straight man’s world. Get ready to learn, to be uncomfortable and to laugh your head off as these men talk about life, love, sex and being gay. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠God Made Me Gay - Substack⁠⁠

The Real Lives of Gay Men: Dylan Miller 12.02.2024

Season 4: Episode 4 In this series, Mike hosts short conversations with gay men in order to hold space for their stories to be told; stories of being gay in a straight man’s world. Get ready to learn, to be uncomfortable and to laugh your head off as these men talk about life, love, sex and being gay. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠God Made Me Gay - Substack⁠

The Real Lives of Gay Men: Eric Ellis 05.02.2024

Season 4: Episode 3 In this series, Mike hosts short conversations with gay men in order to hold space for their stories to be told; stories of being gay in a straight man’s world. Get ready to learn, to be uncomfortable and to laugh your head off as these men talk about life, love, sex and being gay. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠God Made Me Gay - Substack

The Real Lives of Gay Men: JB Somers 29.01.2024

Season 4: Episode 2 In this series, Mike hosts short conversations with gay men in order to hold space for their stories to be told; stories of being gay in a straight man’s world. Get ready to learn, to be uncomfortable and to laugh your head off as these men talk about life, love, sex and being gay. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠God Made Me Gay - Substack

The Real Lives of Gay Men: Introduction 25.01.2024

Season 4: Episode 1 In this, the first series of Season 4, Mike hosts short conversations with gay men in order to hold space for their stories to be told; stories of being gay in a straight man’s world. Get ready to learn, to be uncomfortable and to laugh your head off as these men talk about life, love, sex and being gay. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ God Made Me Gay - Substack

Screw Christmas! 25.12.2023

Season 3: Episode 43 It’s Christmas and Christmas often means family … or does it? At the back-end of deconstruction, Christmas is complicated and it doesn’t mean what it use to mean for many of us. In this episode, Mike explores some of the disappointment and pain that comes from the silence that expressing the wish for something else brings this time of year. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠...

Conservatives Got Something Right 18.12.2023

Season 3: Episode 42 A lack of meaning and direction in our lives can create mental and emotional suffering. As I look towards the beginning of 2024 I find myself wanting to reclaim something from my capitalist, career-obsessed past. Let's Go! ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠2024 Goal-Setting Workshop

2023 Year In Review 11.12.2023

Season 3: Episode 41 2023 has been a great year! As Mike prepares to wrap up the year and Season 3, he reflects back on some of the most impactful and meaningful podcast moments. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠2024 Goal-Setting Workshop

A Coming Out Story with Tyler Williamson 04.12.2023

Season 3: Episode 40 In this episode, Mike interviews one of his coaching clients about his deconstruction and coming out journey amidst the healing of spiritual and emotional trauma. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠2024 Goal-Setting Workshop

Betraying The Bible 27.11.2023

Season 3: Episode 39 Many of us have been taught to come to the Bible with a very specific expectation and bias. In this episode, Mike shares how he betrayed the Bible by demanding things from it that were never true and how his deconstruction process has let the Bible be what it is rather than trying to control with he was told it had to be. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠2024 Goal-Setting...

My Memoir and Other Shameless Plugs 20.11.2023

Season 3: Episode 38 It’s November and Mike is already planning for 2024. With that, comes a new writing project - one that many of you have been waiting and asking for! In this episode, Mike lets you in on some of his excitement for what’s to come and his journey in getting here. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ My Memoir Substack Waiting List Numa Writer's Group 2024 Goal-Setting Workshop

The Afterlife: Adam Harris 13.11.2023

Season 3: Episode 37 What happens after we die? Is there life beyond this? In this series Mike gathers input and thoughts from some of his favorite deconstructed theologians to grapple with these questions. In this episode, Mike speaks to Adam Harris, Associate Pastor at GodWhy Church in Hendersonville, Tennessee regarding his extensive study and exploration of Near Death Experiences. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Every...

The Afterlife: Kevin Garcia 06.11.2023

Season 3: Episode 36 What happens after we die? Is there life beyond this? In this series Mike gathers input and thoughts from some of his favorite deconstructed theologians to grapple with these questions. In this episode, Mike speaks to Kevin Garcia, author of Bad Theology Kills , and Spiritual Recovery Coach helping people create sustainable spiritual practices.   ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠...

The Afterlife: Josh Scott 30.10.2023

Season 3: Episode 35 What happens after we die? Is there life beyond this? In this series Mike gathers input and thoughts from some of his favorite deconstructed theologians to grapple with these questions. In this episode, Mike interviews Josh Scott, Lead Pastor at GracePointe Church in Nashville, Tennessee.   ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠Josh Scott⁠ ⁠: ⁠ ⁠Instagram⁠ : ⁠GracePointe Church⁠ : ⁠Bib...

The Afterlife: Introduction 23.10.2023

Season 3: Episode 34 What happens after we die? Is there life beyond this? In this series Mike gathers input and thoughts from some of his favorite deconstructed theologians to grapple with these questions. But first, in this episode Mike shares some of his own thoughts and opinions on the matter. ⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Gender: Dr. Roberto Che Espinoza 16.10.2023

Season 3: Episode 33 Gender is a complicated topic in today's world. Implicit bias and an unwillingness to call into question fundamental beliefs, leads to many dismissing the topic altogether. In this episode, Mike interviews Dr. Roberto Che Espinoza, non-binary trans guy, professor, theologian, and author. Dr. Roberto Che Espinoza ⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Gender: April Ajoy 09.10.2023

Seaon 3: Episode 32 Gender is a complicated topic in today's world. Implicit bias and an unwillingness to call into question fundamental beliefs, leads to many dismissing the topic altogether. In this episode, Mike interviews April Ajoy, Influencer and Co-Host of ⁠@evangelicalish⁠ regarding her experience navigating gender issues within her marriage. ⁠April Ajoy⁠ ⁠: Instagram⁠ ;  ⁠YouTube⁠ : ⁠...

Gender: Introduction 02.10.2023

Season 3: Episode 31 Gender is a complicated topic in today's world. Implicit bias and an unwillingness to call into question fundamental beliefs, leads to many dismissing the topic altogether. In this episode, Mike shares his thoughts as someone who has been doing the research and the work of connecting to and listening to those who don't fit into the traditional male/female role. ⁠Everyt...

Atheists: Adam Frost 25.09.2023

Season 3: Episode 30 In the Atheists series, Mike shares his thoughts on connecting with atheists in his journey and interviews a few whose work has impacted him in significant ways. This week, he talks with Adam Frost from the Curiocity Podcast. ⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Curiocity

Atheists: Heretical Theology 18.09.2023

Season 3: Episode 29 In the Atheists series, Mike shares his thoughts on connecting with atheists in his journey and interviews a few whose work has impacted him in significant ways. This week, he talks with Will @Heretical_Theology. ⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠ @Heretical_Theology

Atheists: Eve Was Framed 11.09.2023

Season 3: Episode 28 In the Atheists series, Mike shares his thoughts on connecting with atheists in his journey and interviews a few whose work has impacted him in significant ways. This week, he talks with @evewasframed. ⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠ Eve_WasFramed: Instagram ; TikTok

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