Mike Maeshiro

Confessions of A Reformer

Religion EN ↓ 233 episodes

Hi. My name is Mike Maeshiro. I'm a gay, deconstructed former Christian minister. I wanted a place where I wasn't teaching and more inviting my audience on the journey with me in a candid and exploratory way. So I started this podcast. I hope my journey is helpful for you. With curiosity and a critical mind, let's dive in. Music by Alex_MakeMusic

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Mike Maeshiro

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Religion

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Latest episode

Jul 6, 2026

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Episodes

Visitors NOT Welcome! 09.09.2024

Season 4: Episode 34 In this episode, Mike shares about his visit to the most toxic church he's ever experienced. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠Everything Numa⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Surviving Spiritual Abuse with Tyler Williamson: Part 2 02.09.2024

Season 4: Episode 33 In this episode, Mike brings back the guest from the most popular episode in 2023. Tyler Williamson shares more specific information and details about the spiritual abuse he endured while working in multiple ministries. This is part 2 of a 2 part interview. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Everything Numa ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Surviving Spiritual Abuse with Tyler Williamson: Part 1 26.08.2024

Season 4: Episode 32 In this episode, Mike brings back the guest from the most popular episode in 2023. Tyler Williamson shares more specific information and details about the spiritual abuse he endured while working in multiple ministries. This is part 1 of a 2 part interview. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Ex-Gay, Side B Nonsense 19.08.2024

Season 4: Episode 31 Mike confronts the toxicity and harm created by ex-gay and side-b theology. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Two Queers in a Car! 12.08.2024

Season 4: Episode 30 Jump in the back seat and listen in as Mike and his friend, Mica record a candid and very real conversation. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

After The Book 05.08.2024

Season 4: Episode 29 In this follow-up to the series Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents, Mike talks about his most recent visit with his parents and if the book changed how he experiences them. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Evangelical Straight White Men in Leadership 29.07.2024

Season 4: Episode 28 In this episode Mike interviews Sarah Heath and Keri Ladouceur—women who have been in evangelical leadership—regarding their experiences and perspectives navigating straight white men in those same spaces. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Sarah Heath: Instagram Keri Ladouceur: Instagram

Will the Most Violent Win?: Journal Entry #3 22.07.2024

Season 4: Episode 27 Journal Entries: Reflections Around Politics . It's an election year and that means some crazy stuff is about to happen! This series will show up, as needed, to pull apart, poke at, and examine political adjacent happenings. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Coming Out in a Straight Marriage: Nate's POV 15.07.2024

Season 4: Episode 26 In this extension of the previous episode, Mike interviews Nate, Mya's straight husband who has walked alongside Mya in her sexual orientation discovery and coming out within their straight marriage. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠The Rainbow Room

Coming Out in a Straight Marriage: Mya's POV 08.07.2024

Season 4: Episode 25 In this episode, Mike interviews his friend Mya who is navigating her sexual orientation discovery and coming out within a straight marriage. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ The Rainbow Room

Emotionally Immature Parents: Chapters 9 and 10 01.07.2024

Season 4: Episode 24 In this series Mike shares his process as he reads the most suggested book to him by his followers: Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents . Today's episode covers insights from chapters 9 and 10. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Emotionally Immature Parents: Chapter 8 24.06.2024

Season 4: Episode 23 In this series Mike shares his process as he reads the most suggested book to him by his followers: Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents . Today's episode covers insights from chapters 7 and 8.

Emotionally Immature Parents: Internalizer vs Externalizer 17.06.2024

Season 4: Episode 22 In this series Mike shares his process as he reads the most suggested book to him by his followers: Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents . Today's episode covers insights from chapter 6. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Emotionally Immature Parents: Daddy Issues 10.06.2024

Season 4: Episode 21 In this series Mike shares his process as he reads the most suggested book to him by his followers: Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents . Today's episode covers insights from chapters 3, 4 and 5. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Emotionally Immature Parents: Chapter Two 03.06.2024

Season 4: Episode 20 In this series Mike shares his process as he reads the most suggested book to him by his followers: Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents . Today's episode covers insights from Chapter Two. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Emotionally Immature Parents: Chapter One 27.05.2024

Season 4: Episode 19 In this series Mike shares his process as he reads the most suggested book to him by his followers: Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents . Today's episode covers insights from the Introduction and Chapter One. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

Stories that Represent: Boy Erased 20.05.2024

Season 4: Episode 18 Movies and shows were a significant part of Mike's coming out journey. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠God Made Me Gay

Stories that Represent: Call Me by Your Name 13.05.2024

Season 4: Episode 17 Movies and shows were a significant part of Mike's coming out journey. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠God Made Me Gay

Stories that Represent: Little Fires Everywhere 06.05.2024

Season 4: Episode 16 Movies and shows were a significant part of Mike's coming out journey. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠God Made Me Gay

Stories that Represent: The Happiest Season 29.04.2024

Season 4: Episode 15 Movies and shows were a significant part of Mike's coming out journey. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠God Made Me Gay

Stories that Represent: Buffy The Vampire Slayer 22.04.2024

Season 4: Episode 14 Movies and shows were a significant part of Mike's coming out journey. In this episode, Mike talks about the impact of powerful women in shows he watched as a kid. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠God Made Me Gay - Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠

Stories that Represent: Rocketman 15.04.2024

Season 4: Episode 13 Movies and shows were a significant part of Mike's coming out journey. In this episode, Mike shares the impact of the real life stories of Elton John and Freddie Mercury. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠God Made Me Gay - Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠

Stories that Represent: Introduction 08.04.2024

Season 4: Episode 12 Movies and shows were a significant part of Mike's coming out journey. In this series, Mike will talk about some of those stories and how and why they impacted him the way they did. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠God Made Me Gay - Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠

Exiting the CCM World: Derek Webb 01.04.2024

Season 4: Episode 11 In this episode, Mike interviews Musician, Derek Webb. Derek began his career in the 1990's as part of the Contemporary Christian Music band, Caedmon's Call. After 10 years in that world, he stepped out to follow his own way and to take the risk to speak and sing his truth. He continues to pursue authenticity in his music today. Derek Webb ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everyt...

Racism in the Algorithm: Journal Entry #2 25.03.2024

Season 4: Episode 10 Journal Entries: Reflections Around Politics . It's an election year and that means some crazy stuff is about to happen! This series will show up, as needed, to pull apart, poke at, and examine political adjacent happenings. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Everything Numa⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠God Made Me Gay - Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠

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