colin verdon

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I got caught up in my own web again Had to chew off my own leg No desperate thoughts, just a calm head Whole redefined, down one piece Sad definition of heaven: Distance from pain I’m mean I’ll never understand You beat yourself right out of your skin I’m miles away hammering nails into both my hands Just take my fucking head and flush it For all the good it does me put it on a pike For all the sh...

But who wants you to win? Who puts the pillow to your head? And who buries you next to the sink underneath your toilet again? Someone talked through the best part You'll have to start again Someone talked through the best part Rewind the tape back to its head I miss it but I'm glad it's over Got one less mess I'm forced to shoulder Got one less stress that’s hanging over me It was there in that pl...

what a loss by Colin Verdon

All the people I love are dead You have to scare what you want to protect Reject reject reject take my hand Let me teach you all I know about regret All this pain inside But I know all this pain can’t be mine A sense you’re calling My healthy thoughts sputter and stall and I tear the skin back And let you in Some things been holding me down again It makes its way through my arms and I’m asleep I g...

Tactile sensation Carpet kiss my cheek Drool moistening my face My stiff legs are asleep I don’t want to move I give in I’m a ghost And I weigh down everything I’m a ghost And I weigh down everyone Tactile sensation Carpet kiss my cheek Drool moistening my cheek My stiff legs are asleep I don’t want to move I give in I give in I give in…

Nothing nice in there I talk fast and you just stare Nothing kind inside I spit and snarl and writhe The bomb explodes Pieces of you Pieces of me High pressure crowd control There is a reason that it hurts like this Lunch in the park Ruined for us by nagging thoughts That bug crawled in deep It chirps and clicks And limits sleep A sense you’re called Healthy thoughts Sputter and stall Out, in, and...

A sense you're called Healthy thoughts sputter and stall Day out and out again It tears the skin so full of that hate you earned I live in the shadow of the whip and await what I deserve I deserve this everything wrong and rotten survives everything we think we know is a lie Fell, tripped up the stairs to this place Primal winds come and blow me away I’m swimming in chains, now I won’t reach out S...

All the people I love are dead You have to scare what you want to protect Reject reject Take my hand, let me teach you about regret All of this pain inside But all this pain ain’t mine I will live this life forever Until I dream of something better When we go, we go together x2 Dismiss and deny I’m a stray dog running wild Further down the dark is absolute But further down you go It’s only me and...

There is a trace amount of that warmth that I found Keeps me from freezing over I still find it throughout I know what you said It’s been months since you left Pinched my throat And stood on my fucking chest Throw away your phone it’s just useless Throw away your computer it’s useless Well here’s some fucking advice Don’t ever leave the house Stay alone and grouse Avoid all all the crowds I don’t...

Reach out to me when your whole life dissolves Reach out to me when your best friend stall Reach out to me for anything at all I’ll be reaching right back Like a fucking drunk in the dark Somethings, you can’t plan Now attached to your head

The way the world leans its curve its axis My satellite brain I sent into orbit The tomb, the millstone, my body left folded My time in the sun before exploded Stones I cut from mountains Mountains cut from the ice The pain that I inflicted the harm that I invite X2 The hardest part of ownership is How to possess and appreciate balance It’s tasteful to let some time pass Finger bruises where we we...

Reigns by Colin Verdon

has beens by Colin Verdon

No more silent treatment You are just screaming in my ears What the fuck am I doing here? I am just dancing at the edge of the world My father was a freight train, derailed Hard not to see the appeal Remembering then , before he was dead Everything was too loud Just say the word, and I’ll burn it all to the ground I have eyes of every color now I’m a child, with an old tired heart I am a beam of o...

Living life like an axe in a dartboard Living life like a b rated actress Yeah I’ve been a bitch and I been a bastard

Trying some stuff out

Instrumental for now

I feel your pity It’s drips right down your fucking shirt It’s pooling right by your legs A sad spot for you to be I hear you calling You think I fuck up everything Well, that might be true Chance to shine or something to prove Hold me, and tell me I’m someone you like Someone who loves me Sounds like it would be nice I got fucked up I threw some asshole down the stairs Drunk tank at 3am I find my...

Had another fight now I’m back in the corner Time to think to myself, and figure out my disorder All these fucking problems find their way in No talk no touch you just pretend you’re sleeping Are we feeling sad enough? Do you think we’re out of touch? Are we feeling bad enough? Enough to say that enough’s enough Hard to talk about problems when we can’t hear ‘em Even harder to look at myself in th...

Don’t be confused I sit right through As I elude and erase the plot Using hopes in hopes to achieve that Hope is all I’ve got or not Chasing my tail around the sun, in hopes that I can eat soon Forget this pain in my head oh, can we please leave soon?  Stale hope, shit, job, big grudge, and a real sad, sad heart little reminders of you fill the dead space All over my house

every body wants to be a little bit

You got sick on the drive home You needed help up the stairs The Christmas tree was an obstacle The lights get caught in your hair I get high off the moment I come alive in that frame It’s just so rare to be needed To see light on your face Head through the drywall Fist through the side door You put your family through bullshit I hide your drugs in the floorboards You leave without telling I’ll fi...

9 times out of 10 I do the same damn thing again Well tonight I stop the cycle Say goodbye to chains that we’ve been swimming in Are you feeling happy I’m not doing alright You’ve got boundaries I’ve no damn pride Please take my fucking head and flush it Push that big red fucking button Turn me into rain Something that doesn’t have a face Something that doesn’t have any eyes No matter how hard tha...

Come on, just swing through I know that it hurts These people they miss you you can leave when you want What it’s like to be gross What it’s like to be gross and alone I leave a lot unsaid, and even more undone I’m no good at basic tasks And I don’t accomplish much What it’s like to be gross What it’s like to be gross and alone What it’s like to be touched Feel shame, get nothing but crushed So he...