Closed for Maintenance

Season 4 of Closed for Maintenance is here. This season we're doing a real maintenance check: on our careers, friendships, finances, family, faith, and love. Season 3 taught us how to get back up. Season 4 is about what you do once you're standing. Closed for Maintenance is back with its most personal season yet. This time we're talking about the areas we've been driving past, the things we keep m...

We made it to the Season 3 finale, and I'm ending it the only way I know how. Honestly. In this episode, we're talking about the truth about what it means to have a village. Co-parenting challenges, a son who has been testing every last nerve, and an unexpected shift with someone I didn't see coming that changed everything. This episode is about what happened when I finally stopped carrying things...

Some episodes are planned. This one wasn't. I sat down to record something else today and something in me wouldn't move toward it. Not because I was tired or distracted. Because it wasn't true. And I've learned that forcing what isn't ready is its own kind of pretending. So I got quiet. And this is what came out of that quiet. In this episode I'm getting honest about where I actually am with this...

Some paths don't look like progress...until you're far enough along to see what they were building. In this episode, I'm sharing my full origin story for the first time in full context. From dropping out of college and figuring out my next move from my mom's couch, to my dad handing me a one-way train ticket to New York City to chase a dream I couldn't fully name yet. I built a life there... a bra...

Have you ever made a mistake and immediately felt the urge to fix it, hide it, or carry the weight of it on your own? In this episode of Closed for Maintenance , Natasha reflects on a small moment that turned into a powerful reminder about grace, surrender, and the way we often try to repair things in our lives without bringing them to God first. Sometimes the very things we worry have ruined ever...

In this deeply personal episode, Natasha reflects on what it means to learn how to live again after years of survival mode. Growing up, she watched her parents work hard to provide but rarely slow down to enjoy life…a pattern she later realized she had quietly repeated in her own adulthood. At 37, a quiet realization changed everything: if she didn’t learn how to live now, she might spend her enti...

Sometimes the hardest part isn’t falling down...it’s believing you’re allowed to get back up. In the Season 3 premiere, I’m talking honestly about what it looks like to lose momentum, feel out of alignment, and wrestle with the tension between faith, creativity, and obedience. There was a season where I was still consuming God’s Word, but not fully living it out, and the result was confusion, nois...

For a long time, I've been closed for maintenance. Not because I disappeared. Not because I didn't care. But because life demanded more from me than I had language for. Season 3 of Closed for Maintenance explores what happens during and after survival- when you're still standing, but learning how to dream again. This season isn't about having a five year plan. It's about rebuilding in real time. M...

In this "interlude" between Seasons 2 and 3 of the podcast, Natasha pops in to share her heart about how God's Word helped her dismantle the enemy's lie that she was in fact not alone at a time that felt extremely lonely. Scriptures Referenced: Deuteronomy 31:8 “It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.”- ESV Do not be af...

In the Season Two finale, Natasha shares a timely reminder for anyone feeling stretched thin between purpose and performance: the fruit God desires in your life doesn’t come from hustle...it comes from abiding. Through scripture, personal conviction, and honest reflection, she unpacks how easy it is to drift from the Vine while doing things  for  God, and how critical it is to return to...

What you pour in is what will eventually overflow. In this episode, Natasha shares a personal moment that sparked reflection on how the things we consume...spiritually, mentally, and emotionally, shape the way we live, respond, and grow. Using a powerful cup analogy, she breaks down how our daily inputs (whether it’s scripture, music, podcasts, or even TikToks) affect our peace, clarity, and obedi...

In this episode, I reflect on a conversation with a friend that made me question if I focus too much on the “big” sins from my past—like drinking and sex before marriage—while overlooking the more subtle struggles I still wrestle with daily. Drawing from James 4:7-8, we’ll talk about why remembering what God saved us from is essential to staying free, why no sin is small in God’s ey...

Influence—it’s a word we hear all the time, but what does it really mean? Many think it’s about having a big platform or a massive following, but true influence isn’t measured by numbers—it’s measured by  impact.  Whether we realize it or not, we’re all under the influence of something, and at the same time, we’re influencing others in ways both big and small. In this episode, we’re divi...

In this teaser, get a sneak peek into the upcoming episode 9, "under the influence," where we unpack the true meaning of influence. It’s more than a big platform or a following—it’s about the impact we have on those around us, whether we realize it or not. Every day, we’re shaped by what we consume—social media, music, conversations, even the people we admire. But the real question is:  Whose...

After a long break, I’m back with a lesson that changed everything. In this episode, I share how I struggled with second-guessing, overthinking, and trying to control my purpose—only to realize that purpose isn’t something we pick. God assigns it. I break down the difference between purpose and assignments, what Matthew 28:19 and Haggai 2:19 taught me, and why it’s time to step out in obedience. I...

Welcome to Season 2 of the Closed for Maintenance podcast! In today's episode, Natasha shares an eye-opening dream she had recently. As a result of this dream, she unpacks what it means to be prepared for Jesus' return, the distractions that can keep us from being ready, and the eternal consequences of our choices. We talk out how we can accept his gift of salvation and eternal life, prioritize ou...

In this teaser, get a sneak peek into the upcoming episode 7, "ready or not," where Natasha shares a recent dream she had and what God revealed to her that emphasizes the importance of staying focused on our spiritual priorities. Subscribe and share with a friend. Listen to past episodes of the podcast  here . Leave a review on  Facebook ! Support the CFM Podcast  here ! Follow Nata...

In Episode 6, Natasha shares what she believes about the state of this generation. She also opens up about some of the struggles she's experiencing in her journey with Christ, how community and newfound friendships have been her lifeline and more. Join the Lost and Found Tribe  here . Let's connect on Threads ! Listen to past episodes of the podcast  here . Leave a review on  Facebo...

In today's episode, Natasha lays it all out about her personal struggle of balancing commitment to spirituality, how she's dealt with feeling "lost" and what's next for the Closed for Maintenance podcast. Join the Lost and Found Tribe here . Purchase "Simply Pray" by Deb Hopper here . Listen to past episodes of the podcast  here . Leave a review on  Facebook ! Support the CFM Podcast&nbs...

In this week's "mindful maintenance moment," Natasha fills you in on where she's been, how she's felt "out of place" in life and what she decided to do about being in limbo. Listen to past episodes of the podcast  here . Leave a review on  Facebook ! Support the CFM Podcast  here ! Follow Natasha on  Instagram ! Follow CFM on  Instagram ! CFM is produced by Tot Spot Networ...

In the first ever "in between" episodes segment, Beyond the Couch...Natasha sits down with cherished & loyal CFM listener, AunJanai Query-Smalls. They unpack and explore her insight, revelations and personal takeaways from her favorite episodes. If you're a loyal listener of the CFM podcast and would like to have an on air conversation with Natasha, email closedformaintenancepod@gmail.com! Lis...

In Episode 4, Natasha talks about the importance of defining what is enough for oneself beyond societal expectations and external influences. She shares her own experiences of feeling uncomfortable as a result of taking on the burdens and desires of others. Natasha also discusses the freedom and empowerment that comes from being clear on one's own wants and needs and she encourages listeners to ha...

In today's candid discussion Natasha sits down with sobriety influencer, 2x author, baseball mom and licensed massage therapist, Ebony K. English as they talk about their journeys to sobriety. They talk about the difficulties they experienced, the changes they've had to make in their lives, and the support they received throughout their path to sobriety. Ebony shared the life changing wake-up call...

In the new & in-between audio-only episodes, "mindful maintenance moments," Natasha shares a conversation about finding your own rhythm when it comes to balance in work and life. This conversation was inspired by a co-worker who struggles to navigate her weekends, be productive and show up as a mom. Listen to past episodes of the podcast  here . Leave a review on  Facebook ! Support...

In this episode, Natasha sits down with Lifestyle Influencer, self-love advocate and mom of two, Kristen Feaster for a conversation about the power of really knowing who you are. During their chat, Kristen & Natasha both reveal how two once-in-a-lifetime run ins with billionaires came at a time in their lives that was least expected. Listen to past episodes of the podcast here . Watch the vide...