Clam Slam

BEHOLD. ’Tis I, and not a single tear was shed this episode. This one is a belated birthday celebration of me, the Aries queen - who I’ve been, who I’m becoming, and how far I’ve cum. I talk about those messy, uncomfortable “right before it works out” feelings… the threshold moments where self sabotage, imposter syndrome, and fear start clawing at the walls right before something bigger breaks thr...

Hello. I want to play a little game - guilty, innocent, or electric chair? Welcome to Clam Court, where we give damning verdicts and feral vibes.

This episode is the home your nervous system recognizes. The home your spirit craves. The home that doesn’t disappear when someone doesn’t understand you. I talk about what it’s like to feel like you don’t belong anywhere, how heavy home dynamics can mess with your identity, and why chosen family isn’t just important- it’s crucial. I spill some tea on the roommate who must not be named, discuss th...

This episode is not another tired segment about magic underwear or trashing religion. It’s about the things they don’t teach in Sunday school: that unity can come at the cost of your truth, compliance gets mistaken for love, and identity is often the first thing you’re asked to sacrifice for family. I give a hot take on cults and why Mormonism is more complex than that label, grieve the loss of be...

Wild Child started with an Enya song I used to play on repeat as a kid, when the universe grabbed me by the shoulders and said, remember her? This episode is a slow unraveling of inner child work, shadow work, and the kind of healing that doesn’t announce itself—it sneaks up on you while crying over your ex. After starting over (again), I talk about grief, loneliness, childhood patterns, and what...

In this deeply personal episode, I buss it wide open. I talk honestly about my struggles with authenticity and vulnerability while navigating a move to Nevada, the end of a significant relationship, losing my job, and starting over in a new place. I explore the difference between short-term stability and actually building a foundation that lasts, and how old patterns like hiding parts of myself to...

I’m letting off a little steam in this one. I unravel what it’s like to straddle love and distance with your own parents - when belief, expectation, and silence get tangled up in identity. I dive into memories and dreams that still sting, wrestle with what it means to set boundaries, and unpack that unrelenting ache of feeling unchosen as a daughter. Scattered through the episode are clips from El...

This episode is about the weird in-between part of startingover - when you’ve technically “changed your life,” but emotionally you’re still buffering. I talk about moving from Kansas City to Nevada, grieving a life I was bored with, and trying to remember why growth always feels like getting evicted from your comfort zone. This is a love letter to all the moments that feel like failures, betrayals...

Are you brave enough? This week, I’m sharing what it really feels like to make big, scary moves - when you have no guarantee it’s going to work out. Wondering if courage accepts refunds? Same. In this episode, I talk about moving, money, and the art of pretending you know what you’re doing. Spoiler: choosing your own happiness is messy, risky, and wildly worth it.

The term ‘seek discomfort’ sounds cliché with the man bun wave of the wokes, BUT in a nutshell, it’s the very thing that’s been carrying me—giving me hope when I had none, and possibilities when my day-to-day is usually set. In this Lonely Clam segment, I close the chapter on my home state, Missoury, (Damn auto correct). I share my healing journey with my parents, my personal relationships, and my...

In this natural Clamerella tale, I continue the saga of how I'm working through the muck of communication barriers and breakdowns with the people I love most. It feels like the rug has been ripped out from under me, and I'm trying to stabilize myself as I sort through what's true and the light that's being shed on my need-to-grow areas. I share the importance of boundaries and how to have them in...

This episode? It’s not just classically Clam and clever. It’s confession. In this Lonely Clam segment, I get raw—like edited-out-the-ugly-cry raw. Featuring a Tarot reading that came for my whole life, and a deep dive into why I keep attracting relationships that feel like emotional déjà vu. This isn’t about religion. It’s about the quiet, lasting imprints of belief systems and how they can shape...

In this solo slam, I get real about the emotional chaosthat’s been simmering under the surface lately. From unexpected car repairs that cost more than my dignity to inching toward a big move and my thirties at the same time (cute, right?), I’m unpacking what it means to actually commit to yourself—especially when everything around you feels uncertain, unstable, and just a little bit stupid. Betwee...

On this Lonely Clam segment, I’m cracking open and getting real about what it means to bloom through the bullshit.  I’m finally grounding into my power—and planting seeds for a new chapter. I prepare for my move and FINALLY start to see real progress. From unlearning patterns that kept me small to letting the universe act as my guide, this episode is a full-body exhale for anyone who’s ever felt s...

At long last! The Clam Sellmeyer episode has been  born. John Sellmeyer, host of Because I'm John Sellmeyer , teams up with yours truly for the mash- up of your dreams. Today’s episode is SO funky and cool because you get to dive straight into John's turf without lifting a finger. We do what he does best: review movies and shows, including (but not limited to) The Substance *Dun Dun Dun* AND we ca...

Whoops *sweat face emoji* Tune in Sunday at midnight this week and every week after (hopefully).

Finallyyy not only did I fulfill my promise to drop a Clam Slam segment this week, it also features Phillip! As a local director, filmmaker, networker, GENIUS- alright i'll stop choking on it. Phillip shares his creative insights, how he's grown as a movie maker, and his journey as an artist. Phillip also shares how conversation is resistance, and why we all have the responsibility to teach others...

Welcum back to another Lonely Clam segment, where I rant,reflect, and hopefully drop morsels of wisdom along the way. This one’s for all my fellow twenty- and thirty-somethings as I sound the battle cry: we need to GTFO of our hometowns yesterday. I’ll share where I’m at in my own journey, how I’ve been navigating tough relationship decisions, and what’s been helping me keep depression at bay (for...

I came back—just like I always do in my on-and-off relationships. It’s tough out here, and I’m bitching about all of it. In this Lonely Clam segment, I dive deep *eyebrows eyebrows* into the chaos of this transitional period in my life. I break down my self-realizations, relationship standards (for both friends and lovers), and how I use Human Design to guide my decisions.00:00 Introduction and Ov...

In this final Lonely Clam of the season, I reflect on this past year with both fondness and horror. Twenty-nine feels like “crawling out of the depths of the earth” as Kalika would say. I share what healing has reached me, and where it has just begun. *Read this in that deep dramatic Morgan Freeman style movie trailer voice* 00:23 Reflecting on Personal Growth and Healing 04:09 Family Relationship...

In this Clam Slam episode, we explore all that is my mentor, Shar. She has taught me so much about what it truly means to be an independent, empowering woman, and I’m excited to share her story with you. Shar opens up in the classic Clam way—with humor and raw authenticity. She talks about her marriage, divorce, navigating traumatic relationships, motherhood, and being the breadwinner for her fami...

In this Lonely Clam segment, I dive into the reality of growing apart from friends as we navigate adulthood. Sometimes it’s not a big dramatic falling out—and sometimes it’s because they slut-shamed you. Well, slap my ass and call me Hester, for this is my Scarlet Letter. We’re all human, and it’s time we normalize (and celebrate!) female sexuality, free from shame or judgment. This episode is abo...

In this emotional Lonely Clam segment, I remember my brother Isaiah, who passed away five years ago. He was my Irish twin, Aries brother, and soulmate. I share the pain of my loss, my journey through grief and sobriety, and the reality of the hardships Isaiah faced in his life. Featuring input from his loved ones, we celebrate his humor and love for anyone he has ever met. This episode is raw and...

On this episode of Clam Slam, we finally get to meet my longtime friend Emma! We walk down memory lane and look into each other’s eyes while doing it. We dive into their new life as a scholar, where Emma talks about their discoveries of forest nerds, plant gods, volcanoes, and other sciency shit. We also discuss the importance of school in Emma’s life and how slow and steady has been winning the r...

In this deep (I’ll show you deep) and personal episode of Clam Slam the Lonely Clam, I share a raw (just walking into the jokes at this point) unscripted brainstorming session where I confront the realities of financial struggles, depression, and fears for the future. At the core of the episode is a hope that my hard work and perseverance will eventually pay off despite the uncertainty and struggl...