Bleep Midlife Bulimia

Send us Fan Mail I'm not going to lie.  I had great teeth.  My bulimia killed them.  We don't really understand the consequences of the amount of acid that is in our stomach when we binge and purge. Oh wait a minute!  "But I am purging within a short time so the stomach acid shouldn't be a problem!"   Sorry, yes it is.  It will completely destroy the enamel.  It WILL do th...

Send us Fan Mail Just a ramble and speaking to thoughts.  It's interesting being recovered how when you listen to songs, or people talking how it brings you back thoughts and memories.  Not all are bad, because when you look back as a recovered bulimic you realize the wonder of recovering from what you were hiding.  Bulimia is about hiding as well as finding something to hide in.  You can bre...

Send us Fan Mail What a lovely conversation with Keith Blakemore-Noble, who I invited to this podcast because I was intrigued with his being the UK's #1 Fear Strategist Coach. There is a fear with bulimics when it comes to letting go of bulimia for several reasons.  The main one we hear about is weight gain.  As I said in the podcast, however, bulimia is like the blanket Linus in the Peanuts...

Send us Fan Mail I won't write too much in these notes.  This is my personal segment on knowing that everyone is more than good enough.  They just lose touch with that by expecting the outside world to validate them. I hope you enjoy this Episode. LaurieAnn For further support you can visit my group on FB at https://www.facebook.com/groups/bullimiaddict Find me on Instagram @bullimiaddict and...

Send us Fan Mail Fun fact about this episode.  I was so excited about having John as a guest I personally introduced myself as a guest.  LOL. What a great conversation about so many things from unconditional love, love and fear, how we live our lives answering to other people's "beliefs". John has a very interesting background including being a Stuntman, a Comedian and more,  and wi...

Send us Fan Mail What a truly insightful conversation with Dr. Christian Heim.  It was fun to talk about music and about bulimia. Dr. Heim truly answers the question in such an elightening way about relapse, and how hobbies define you and can be a catalyst to moving from bulimia to a healthy identity connection. What is apparent is that Dr. Heim helps the listeners understand how bulimia is NOT sh...

Send us Fan Mail  Emma-Jane began with sharing about her childhood, her time with her family, the happy moments, followed by being sexually abused and the ultimate alienationation of her father.  These experiences were devastating for Emma-Jane.  Over time she became rebellious, and "monster", as she says, who hated life, hated people and hated making decision (on a personal level). Thos...

Send us Fan Mail Alexis shares her experience going through anorexia and her journey towards recovery. Alexis experienced depression at a young age in grade 7, and says at the time she wasn't sure what it was.  She had always been very involved in sports and music.   A year later she felt better, and in grade 9 decided to pursue a healthier regiment with better eating and exercising.  She sai...

Send us Fan Mail What a pleasure to have Marcella as a guest.  It all started for Marcella with her own experience with anorexia as a teen.  Upon reading articles on women of colour, she felt that they resonated, and felt "seen and validated" through them. This compelled her to move forward after her recovery to help others.  She is very active in many organizations.   She is on the Abou...

Send us Fan Mail I was so pleased to have a male reach out to me to be on my Podcast!  Dai Manuel shares with me several experiences in his life, including his time when he was morbidly obese, when he used alcohol as a crutch and his decision to leave his 17 year position in a business he was co-founder to start brand new. Listen to his metaphor about dark corners in the house,  So many of us live...

Send us Fan Mail A great conversation with Sherry, and how we shared our feelings about bulimia.  We discussed that although weight was involved, it was more of an emotional release.  There is a form of shame associated with bulimia as well, as we discussed in other podcasts.  Beyond the bulimia it's compounded with emotions.   Sherry shared that since she was a child she struggled with anxie...

Send us Fan Mail What is depersonalization, and what is derealization?  Cindy shares the difference and we spoke to the fact that they are a numbing process, much like bulimia becomes. It was such a lovely conversation speaking to the tribal theory, of how it is to feel one doesn't belong. Cindy spoke to addiction, and does share some books that can help with overcoming addiction.  Much like...

Send us Fan Mail Sarah explains that her eating disorder behaviors started very young, around the age of 10.  She started restricting food at that time, however did not engage in bulimia until she was 18. Sarah feels that being in a larger body size, even if it is not an overweight body, there is shame that comes from being picked on and bullied about it, which leads to not being able to deal with...

Send us Fan Mail I have long since had a trigger, and when I was bulimic it really was one that triggered my episodes.  Anger, frustration, feeling not good enough because I was a woman, feeling that if I made a mistake in front of a guy, I wasn't good enough.  I remember reading about "penis envy" and I really didn't feel that way.  I liked being a woman, however I wanted to b...

Send us Fan Mail I really appreciate Jacalyn for sharing her candid and compelling story about bulimia, and her continued struggle with it.  As a Bulimia Recovery Coach, this interview was not easy.  It is, however, honest and true.  When a bulimic is not ready to let go and still feels bulimia is the answer to remaining slim, it is a bigger challenge to recover, and as a coach, I would be there t...

Send us Fan Mail It was such a pleasure chatting with Whitney.   We covered a lot about the feelings one has when they are struggling with their eating disorder, the social pressures, the constant "comparison" to others, the "people pleasing" aspects, and so much more. I really appreciate Whitney's candid sharing of her personal feelings and expriences, and being a part of...

Send us Fan Mail How Do You Want To Be Seen?  What a lovely question and one that Lisa asks her clients during the introductory session. From a small used camera that she received as a gift at 17, Lisa found it to be such a great experience to photograph everyone.  From there she began photographing wedding and learning about "being seen". Lisa tells of the story of having a beautiful br...

Send us Fan Mail If you stub your toe in the morning, how do you react (after of course crying out, screaming and possibly more)?  Do you feel that this is what your day is going to be like, or do you hold your toe, jump around and afterwards realize you have created a new dance move? Regina and I discuss how people are the product of what "they" create in life.  It is not always apparen...

Send us Fan Mail The healing from bulimia began when Jetty was 37, after the loss of her parents.  One might think that the stress and grief of her loss would have the opposite effect. Jetty, the youngest child in the family and twenty years younger than her brother, explains the start of her struggle with bulimia.  She states she really didn't have any sibling connection with the age differe...

Send us Fan Mail Not realizing that dieting perpetually was not the way it was suppose to be and watching it escalate from restrictions to increased binging, Elizabeth began to try to heal her own relationship with food, and in so doing it led her to become an Intuative Eating Counselor. She used food to comfort and soothe herself with food as a child.  She also said she had a bigger body shape th...

Send us Fan Mail When her father, the partriarch of the family, passed away seven years ago, Sandhya used art to get through her grief and the feeling of the family dismantling.  The impact this had on Sandhya inspired her to pursue her studies in art psychotherapy. Sandhya explained that she internalized her emotions from her loss.  On her graduation  she opened up to her close friends.   She acc...

Send us Fan Mail In this episode I speak about the feelings of anger.  How do you deal with it?  I find that when I was bulimic my temperament was worse.  In fact I remember my mother noticing that I was not that "nice young girl" anymore and I even started to talk back to her, which I didn't do before.   How I deal with it today is much different then when I was bulimic.  Of course...

Send us Fan Mail In this episode I bring a strange topic of boobs and how they objectify femininity, and how my sister and I agree we don't like them.  I am grateful for them, in as far as I know that some people would be happy to have them.  In our case, we don't see the purpose.  It is not meant to offend anyone, it is meant to be put out there to share because it's very possible...

Send us Fan Mail Interesting turn of events.  Whitnie started the interview with questions about my chapter in the #1 Best Seller 1 Habit for Entrepreneurial Success with Forbes Riley and Steve Samblis.  Whe I began to speak about bulimia, Whitnie's interest perked up and she speaks to it resonating with her, and proceeded to ask me more about it. This situation has occured on a few occasions...

Send us Fan Mail What a whirwind of a life I have lived.  Even with my bulimia, I achieved so much.  Yet I look back and think of how much more I could have enjoyed life without it and without the need to present myself as "perfect" and "successful".  I took on so much.  I didn't stop to smell the roses.  I overwhelmed myself trying to please everyone but myself.   Having...