Black Seed - A Listening Room

There is shame that society conditioned into my deeply melanated body….  And in confronting that conditioning, shame naturally arises. Not because I am the shame…  But because the body remembers what it needed to do…  To be to survive…..  To belong. This transmission is about staying with what arises… Without abandoning myself inside of it. Meet me there? --- As you listen, I invite you to notice...

Transmission 009 explores what it means to continue showing up even when the desire isn’t there. Not through force or performance. But by returning.... Returning to the body. To breath. Returning to the present moment long enough to feel what is alive within.  Some days the mind wants escape.   Some of those days, the body wants stillness. And... Some days emotion rises and falls like the waves of...

In this transmission, I sit with the discomfort that arises when something feels "off" inside of relationship with myself and another. For a long time, misalignment meant only one thing—that I must have done something wrong. To get away from the discomfort, I learned to blame the other.   Sometimes I turned that blame onto self.  Both reactions enabled me in leaving myself. Here, I explo...

In this transmission, we explore where safety can begin within the body. Not as something to force or something to get right, but as a gentle, loving return.   If it feels available, I invite you to find a place in your body where you can come back home to yourself.  Here, we begin teaching our body that it is safe to return and stay.   --- As you listen, I invite you to notice what is alive withi...

In this transmission, we explore what to return to when something gets stirred in you, especially in the midst of conflict. There might be a quick reaction. A tightening in the body. A pull to defend or to fix.  In those moments, the nervous system moves to protect. Not always because something is wrong, but because something feels unfamiliar. Instead of following the reaction, if it feels availab...

In this transmission, we begin to notice what gets stirred in us through others. A reaction. A feeling. A pull to move away or make meaning. Instead of following the reaction, we practice staying. Not for perfection.   Not to try to figure out the other person, but to learn what is arising within us so we can stay in relationship with ourselves and with others.  The activation is an invitation.  T...

In this transmission, we practice noticing what arises when things become clear. For some, a feeling follows. A tightening.  A pull to turn away. Instead of leaving, we continue the practice of staying, moving deeper into the sensations of the body.   The nervous system isn’t asking us to fix what we feel. It’s asking for consistency to stay in it.   To return. Again and again.  To be with what is...

When you stay with what you feel, something begins to rise underneath the thoughts that become the narrative. In this transmission, we let the thoughts speak. Not to believe them. Not to become them, but to be a witness to them.   And then… we return to the body, creating space between ourselves and the thoughts that once felt like us. --- As you listen, I invite you to notice what is alive within...

What happens when we stay with what we notice… instead of moving away? This transmission explores the quiet urge to leave our experience — especially when feelings like guilt arise — and invites a return to the body through the rhythm of breath. A practice in staying, softening, and allowing what is present to unfold. --- As you listen, I invite you to notice what is alive within you. Here we tend...

What happens when we stop judging ourselves and simply observe our experience? In this first transmission of Black Seed , we explore what becomes possible when we pause long enough to notice what is alive within us without immediately trying to fix, explain, or push it away. Through a simple practice, we practice observing what arises in the body, without judgment.    The reflection and practice a...