Ayla and Potato3s: A Nightly Message From Your Best Friend

Today was actually… fun. I got a full body massage, a foot massage, and a head spa — and yes, the massage hurt like foam rolling x10, but it felt amazing afterward. I ended up wandering Chinatown, ordering all the dumplings, and even made a new friend thanks to a stranger who spotted me cash. The dog was adorable, I put my nose on hers (twice), and I remembered that life gets to be fun. I’m writin...

Today was… a day. I tried to write, tried to film, tried to be productive, and every piece of technology betrayed me. Substack deleted my post, my workshop setup kept glitching, the dog had diarrhea twice, and I’m just frustrated, tired, and doing my best to keep going.

Today felt… lackluster. I didn’t touch my workbook, not because I’m lazy, but because I didn’t have the emotional bandwidth. I tried to honor that instead of powering through like I used to. I hung out with the dog — my little shadow — and honestly, her love was the best part of my day. I treated myself to cupcakes after a hilariously chaotic DoorDash saga, had my workshop, and reminded myself it’...

Today I realized I’m actually the product. I talk about scrapping a year-long program I don’t have the bandwidth for, and instead building a “becoming” workbook from my own podcast episodes—using my life as the class. There’s a dog who knows my perfume schedule, a new painting for the cover, and a reminder that if God’s got me and I’ve got you, then we’ve got us.

Today I worked on my workbook and only made it through three months before realizing the structure was off and needed revisions. I experimented by going live on YouTube for the first time in years and even streamed on YouTube and TikTok at the same time. Two people joined on TikTok and someone asked for my YouTube channel, which felt encouraging even though YouTube is slow to pick up again. I’m do...

Today was an experiment in showing up—even when nothing went to plan. My workshop had zero attendees, but I still presented the whole thing like people were watching. Then I had to pitch my business to my class and fully expected a red light… and somehow didn’t get one. A classmate suggested moving my workshops onto YouTube so everything lives in one place, and that lit something up in me. I even...

Today felt deliciously delightful in the most ordinary, magical way. I cooked beautiful eggs, accidentally ate all my dinner because it was too good, wandered the park, and then hosted my workshop—which people actually loved and want to come back to. I’m figuring out my program, my workbook, my website, payments, and how to trust the weird divine timing of everything. I talked about 2025 being a y...

Today I talk about letting myself have a spectacular day on purpose — with a little help from the universe, a spicy affirmation, and a bagel that changed my life. I share a new way I’m using “affirm-questions” to rewrite my subconscious, why cooking with whatever’s in the fridge feels like therapy, and how joy shows up in the smallest places (like mystery meals and picky sandwich quests). It’s a s...

Today was unexpectedly spectacular. I woke up at 10 AM because my brother accidentally locked my dog out of the room, which honestly set the tone for the kind of day it was—slow, gentle, and a little funny. I took her to the park, met new people, gave skincare advice, and somehow ended up shocking strangers with the fact that I'm 46… even though I've “only been 46 for a week.” Most of the day was...

Today was just… a travel day. I slept an hour and fifteen minutes, somehow still made the plane, and the dog nearly lost her mind with joy when she saw me — literal scream-yelping, spinning, blocking-the-door energy. I walked her, avoided repeating last trip’s Poop Disaster, ate half of a skyscraper sandwich, accidentally took a three-hour nap, forgot to text my dad that I landed, and then ended u...

In this Thanksgiving episode, I ramble my way through the sweetest little day: the donut shop was open (yes, I got the last boudin kolache), the heater betrayed me, and I somehow turned a 4 a.m. wakeup into a three-hour nap. I cooked dinner with my family, put up the Christmas tree, and laughed at my dad declaring I’ll be married by next year—because apparently he’s been praying for my husband sin...

In today's episode, I'm basically half-asleep, half-frozen, and somehow fully reflective. I woke up at 4 a.m. on Thanksgiving after accidentally crashing at 8 p.m. with my dad turning the lights off for me. I talk about travel prep for New York, craving donuts, pulling my daily Oracle card (“answer the call”), dreaming way too vividly, and realizing why morning people like mornings. I didn’t do an...

spent today learning, connecting, and wrestling with my own resistance to love while doing the “Prism” exercise. I infused my future energy of a life of fortune into my present self—and then spent nine hours battling myself on manifesting love. I still did it. I also got unexpected gifts, talked deeply with friends, taught someone Canva, and ended the day feeling supported and better about my life...

Today I remembered what it feels like to come back to the surface. I didn’t sleep, I didn’t do much, and I didn’t have the bandwidth to force myself—but one unexpected phone call pulled me out of the emotional fog I’ve been sinking in. I talked about grief, intuition, how comparison steals your right to feel, and why “not doing anything” is sometimes the real work. I realized I’ve been carrying ol...

Today was one of those days where I woke up already fragile. I didn’t have it in me to pretend, to socialize, or to “be okay,” and I realized how much living in this house drains me. I talked about feeling ignored 80% of the time and attacked the other 20%, and how that shapes the way I move, rest, and try to heal. I reflected on how much I’m trying to change my life—even when it feels like the mo...

Today was quieter and heavier than I expected. Yesterday’s 86-cent moment cracked something open in me, and I’m still processing how a whole year’s worth of strength can collapse around something so small. I’m grateful… but gratitude feels complicated when you’re telling yourself you should be grateful instead of feeling it naturally. I rested, read, ate leftover birthday pizza and cake, and let m...

A quiet birthday turns into an unexpected emotional unraveling. I talk about being awake for almost 24 hours, falling asleep to a Reiki audio, surprise birthday calls, and reading binges. I share the moment I had to search for 86 cents for a soda — and how that cracked something open in me. There’s tenderness, gratitude, exhaustion, and a lot of honesty about how heavy this past year has been… and...

Today was the day before my birthday, and my body forced me to slow all the way down. The cramps were brutal, so instead of pushing through like I always do, I let myself rest, watch TV, and even reread a book that reminded me why I believe in love. I realized I’ve spent years wanting to be someone worth fighting for—and maybe I finally am. I’m learning balance, intuition, and allowing myself to r...

Today was one of those days where I thought I didn’t do much… then realized I actually did a lot. I painted a whole new piece called High Priestess, baked lavender dark-chocolate scones (too much lavender, no eggs, not crispy—practice batch), went on the Yegi Project podcast, hit the gym, ran errands, and started saying two new wealth/manifestation mantras. I also talked Webby Award submissions, w...

Today was all about the tiny shifts that somehow add up. I lost a microphone, two podcast interviews fell through, and I still didn’t take the laundry off my bed—but I made the most delicious pomegranate-cinnamon-white-chocolate scones of my life, updated my website, and actually felt excited about what I’m building. My classmate even noticed the difference. I figured out a money-saving system, la...

Today’s episode is a softer one — a little “filler,” a little life update. I worked on my website, wrestled with DNS settings, went to the gym even though my stomach was being dramatic, and prepped for tomorrow’s podcast interview. I talk about my manifestation practice with my friend, gratitude, trying not to complain, trusting God’s timing, and figuring out next steps while living at home. I als...

In this episode, I talk through a long night of honesty, healing, and big realizations. After a tough interaction last night, my sister and I ended up diving into my 40-Day Transformation journal. It opened both of us up in unexpected ways. I also share what I’m manifesting for my birthday, why this year feels different, and how painting helped me reconnect to my purpose. This episode is about bui...

This episode includes discussions of family conflict, emotional abuse, accusations around sexuality, past sexual trauma, pregnancy, yelling, and references to being physically hit. Please listen with care and take breaks if you need to. Your nervous system matters Today unraveled in ways I didn’t expect. I spent the morning with my dad at his office, talked with my sister, dreamed up a workshop I’...

I went swimming today and accidentally did 31 minutes instead of 30, created a new stroke I’m calling “floating butterfly,” and ended up talking to a stranger in the spa for an hour and a half. He reminded me I’m on the right path, and my dad surprised me by offering to buy me a new laptop. I’m proud of my website progress, my journaling, and how aligned my week felt. Everything is unfolding exact...

Today I rambled with a warm neck, a cold body, and a very confused thermostat — but I also finished the first draft of my website, updated my journal, and worked out even though I was exhausted. I’m learning to slow down, honor my pace, and stop stressing my body into holding onto this cortisol belly. Tomorrow I meet with my mentor, eat my little protein yogurt, and finally go swimming. I’m overwh...