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Most people aren’t stuck because they don’t know what to do… they’re stuck because their nervous system is addicted to what’s familiar. Even when it hurts. Even when it’s clearly not working. In this episode, Aya talks about the quiet, uncomfortable truth: we often choose familiar discomfort over unfamiliar freedom… because it feels safer. But what if the life you actually want requires you to cho...

For a long time, Aya thought quitting weed would fix her life. She believed sobriety would bring clarity, motivation, and direction that everything would suddenly make sense. But six months later, she’s realizing something much deeper happened. Sobriety didn’t save her. It forced her to finally meet herself. In this episode, Aya talks about what it has actually felt like to sit with her emotions w...

Six months sober. Ten years with marijuana. And one of the hardest years of my life. In this episode, Aya shares why she chose to break up with MJ after a decade not from shame, fear, or moral superiority, but from a deep desire to meet herself fully sober. She opens up about living in the Dominican Republic during one of the most emotionally challenging seasons of her life navigating social anxie...

From 2020 to 2025, everything cracked open. The plans we thought were solid dissolved. Identities fell apart. Coping mechanisms stopped working. And whether we were ready or not, we were asked to meet ourselves more honestly than ever before. In this episode, Aya reflects on the collective initiation of the last five years - what it meant to live through constant uncertainty, emotional shedding, a...

What Happens When You Stop Smoking Weed Anxiety, emotional flooding, vivid dreams, REM sleep rebound, attachment patterns, and nervous system recalibration explained. Within this podcast episode, Aya dives into what actually happens in your body when you stop smoking weed not from a place of shame or fear, but through a nervous-system-informed, trauma-aware lens. She explores how cannabis interrup...

In this episode, Aya dives into the difference between what your nervous system is reacting to and what your intuition is actually trying to tell you. She explores why familiar cycles feel safer than aligned ones, why the unknown triggers anxiety, and why endings can feel like grief even when they’re the right move for your evolution. Aya also breaks down the science behind why we cling to old pat...

In this first episode of Season 2, I get honest about something I’ve avoided talking about for years: the holidays. Not the cute, cozy, Instagram version the real version. The anxiety, the loneliness, the pressure, the grief of not having the childhood holiday story you were “supposed” to have… the weird mix of nostalgia and sadness when December rolls around. And what it feels like to spend the h...

welcome to a lil q&a with aya diving into the fundamentals of mushys. this episode is based off personal experiences and our bff chat gpt. For all things 🍄 go to Mycrologi and use code AYAWITHIN for a discount! Some of my favs: Clarity Wavy Microdose Bliss Bites (my fav) Support What I want to try: Restore Psychedelic Bundle Ritual Albion A Join me in the Dominican as we dive within, connect...

cheated on once again... maybe its just me? aya dives into her little jungle life and how she took her discomfort & said "fuck you, let's make the most of it". has aya made a mistake of going back to the small village where her ex lives and is currently dating his old ex girlfriend or is this the next step in her journey of healing a deep wound around rejection and claiming it as redirection....

In this episode, Aya dives into the transformative practice of cycle syncing—aligning your lifestyle with the four phases of your menstrual cycle to optimize your health, productivity, and overall well-being. Cycle syncing allows you to work with your body’s natural rhythms, making every phase an opportunity for growth, rest, or connection. Aya breaks down each phase, explaining how to harness the...

In this episode of ayawithin, we’re diving deep into all things sex. Aya gets personal, sharing how growing up in Utah with teen parents shaped her sexual awareness. As she embarked on her spiritual journey, she felt a profound calling to connect with her womb on a deeper level. Aya opens up about the powerful shift she experienced transitioning from hormonal to non-hormonal birth control. This ep...

Join Aya for an ayawithin frequency session—a laid-back smoke session where we’ll explore the techniques she's been using to manage anxiety, the powerful process of closing circles in Ayas life, and a soothing mini meditation to wrap things up. Roll up and set an intention. Artists: Olivia Dean Joy Crooks ENNY Pip Millet Keisuke Sakai Erothyme Entheo Instagram:  Personal - https://www.instagra...

Aya confesses to her self-sabotaging patterns as her body still remains in a survival mode. Aya is faced with new challenges as she's learning how to navigate falling in love while also reconditioning her mind and body as she is easily triggered in a new way. Press play for a real and raw experience as Aya dives into her life in a vulnerable way. Instagram:  Personal - https://www.instagram.co...

high-chats with Aya and how she continuously hurts her own feelings through self inflicting behaviors. Aya is here to normalize behaviors that maybe you feel shame to talk about and looks at. in this episode you can hear in Aya voice the embarrassment that she feels because of her behavior. so let’s dive in. Instagram:  Personal - https://www.instagram.com/sshelbs/ Podcast - https://www.instagram....

Aya dives into the complexities of friendships and communication. She dissects her own communication style and considers how her communication has impacted the development and longevity of old, new, and future relationships. She discusses the difficulties around being neurodivergent and how this could impact one's communication skills.  Join us this May 28th for The Divine Self Retreat in Port...

Aya is coming in raw straight from the iPhone memos in the Dominican Republic. Exploring the relationship shifts that are happening within her life. Letting go of old friendships, and places, and traveling to the Dominican. Is Aya ready to rekindle her relationship with her mom after no contact for 3 years? Many shifts happening and more to come.  Join us this May 28th for The Divine Self Retreat...

Aya takes us on a journey through the evolution of her life over the past four months. Offering a glimpse into her world, she shares updates on various aspects, with a particular focus on light, frequency, and sound. The episode promises an insightful exploration of these elements and their impact on Aya's life. Tune in to hear firsthand about the recent developments and experiences that have...

Aya delves into the intricacies of dating and her ongoing journey to identify and communicate her needs, wants, and desires. However, she encounters a particular challenge when it comes to articulating her needs and establishing and maintaining boundaries. So, grab a seat, perhaps light a joint, and join us as we immerse ourselves in a passionate recount of a recent evening when Aya had finally re...

Aya embarks on a journey to master the delicate art of harmonizing her personal needs with the anticipation of a significant life transition. With her loft getting meticulously packed for the commencement of a three-month adventure, the countdown to her Divine Self Retreat begins. Join us as we delve into the depths of Aya's life, as she navigates the intricacies of processing her experiences,...

Aya's out here in her feels per usual. Looking within as she takes space from the digital world. Now she has to sit with herself in silence. Aya dives into her Rapé ceremony and how it really slapped her in the face. Learning how to sit with deep emotions can easily be avoided when you have a phone where on the other hand she's feeling the withdrawal symptoms of running from big emotions b...

Join aya for ayawithin frequency session aka a lil smoke session to jam out. Light up a joint and jam out with aya - a moment to diconnect to connect.

Aya is finally listening... thank goodness because her spiritual team has been yelling at her but shes been to stimulated to even listen. Not only is Aya taking a major digital detox but all of her romantic partnerhsips are coming to a close. Dive into part 2 of how she's leaning into silence. Instagram:  Personal - https://www.instagram.com/sshelbs/ Podcast - https://www.instagram.com/ayawith...

ITS ALREADY MINE BITCH!!!! Diving into the techniques Aya is using to shift her vibration to call everything in that she desires. Shifting from victim to manifestation. After listening to Life Visioning by Michael Beckwith Aya had a very powerful realization. It was time to setup her vibration and become an instrument in embodying her divine power within. There is something. Within you that is try...

my partner cheated wtf do I do? Aya dives into a topic that a lot of her community members comes to her about. Cheating is a subject she is all to familar with after finding out her ex husband and partner of 8 years was cheating on her with 6 women for 7 years. This event was the shift she was manifesting into her life and was a time that brought up anger, shame, rejection, and a deeper spiritual...

This convo is raw and real! After a long work day a new soul friend and aya stopped to smoke a joint and dove into the most divine convo. Tears, laughter, and golden nuggets - both helping eachother gain something the universe needed them to hear. JOIN US SEPTEMBER 1st - 6th 2023 for the second Divine Self Retreat   https://www.soshelbs.com/retreat-sign-up Instagram:  Personal - https://www.instag...