#AutisticAF Out Loud

👉 YouTube Video of this live spoken word performance 👉 “every clock is a handgun pointed at my head,” Amazon book & ebook Cold Open I feel like a brilliant creative soul as if… trapped in a damaged body & neurology trying to communicate with the world through an intermittently short-circuiting transistor radio playing through static & the distortion & sparking circuits… to just be heard. Do you...

Cold Open I just heard the duly-elected President of these United States... Donald J. Trump... brag about dropping the atom bomb. On Hiroshima. My god. Steven Colbert? Jon Stewart...? Once, these guys were subversive... were daring. But... But with troops still in the California streets and missiles in Mid-Eastern air... Haven't comedians become nauseatingly... tone dead? When the Comedy stops bei...

Cold Open You wanna pathologize me? Knock yerself out. Faithfully counting every leaf marked "deficit"… But missing the whole damn forest we know locally as "Survival." [Doc? You Got Us All Wrong, Pt 1: Autistic Resilience] Intro You're listening to AutisticAF Out Loud. One voice. Raw. Real. Fiercely Neurodivergent. Since 1953. Season 5, Episode 5. “Doc? You Got Us All Wrong, Pt 1: Autistic Resili...

Cold Open CBT…? Never worked for autistic me. So, look, we KNOW masking doesn't work. Or FEAR. Or PAIN. We’re dying from them already. That's all the words we need. [Music] Intro You're listening to AutisticAF Out Loud. One voice. Raw. Real. Fiercely Neurodivergent. Since 1953. Season 5, Episode 6. “Doc? You Got Us All Wrong, Pt 2: CBT…? Never Worked for Autistic Me.” Abelist agendas. Bad research...

Cold Open You wanna pathologize me? Knock yerself out. Faithfully counting every leaf marked "deficit"… But missing the whole damn forest we know locally as "Survival." Intro You're listening to AutisticAF Out Loud. One voice. Raw. Real. Fiercely Neurodivergent. Since 1953. Season 5, Episode 5. “Doc? You Got Us All Wrong, Pt 1: Autistic Resilience.” Deficits… or strengths? Survival… or thriving? P...

Cold Open [into silence] Friend, I haven't done this before. Usually I talk autism & neurodiversity with you. But I'm very concerned about events unfolding this weekend... I've seen these patterns emerge before. In other countries. Authoritarian countries¹. I have no plan of action to suggest. It's happening too fast for me to process… in my slow, deep AuDHD² way. All I could think to do… is share...

Cold Open (into silence) You love Dune? Like me? Frank Herbert is dead... wrong. Fear is NOT the mind-killer. Denial is. [Music ] Intro You're listening to AutisticAF Out Loud. One voice. Raw. Real. Fiercely Neurodivergent. Since 1953. Season 5, Episode 5. Attacks on neurodivergence, facing our fears, finding our strength. Today we're talking threats, resistance, and the power of a hundred million...

Cold Open I was not born to be pitied. I was born to raise Hell. Autistic style. Intro You’re listening to AutisticAF Out Loud. One voice. Raw. Real. Fiercely Neurodivergent. Since 1953. Season 5, Episode 4. Breaking mirrors, dancing at the edge of noise, raising autistic hell. Autism, Neurodiversity, 3 Poems... and 3 Rando Manifestos. Just one autistic elder's truth. I'm Johnny Profane. Content N...

Full podcast with links to available poster artwork: https://johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/p/podcast-every-clock-is-a-handgun-2ee Sensory-Friendly Discussion & Summary: https://notebooklm.google.com/notebook/30720fb4-dab4-48b9-873f-90ec1ac03b88/audio Transcript: Autistic Spoken Word: Every Clock Is a Handgun Pointed at My Head This spoken word on my autistic experience of time contains triggerin...

Hey! I’m Johnny Profane… back after a 6-month bout of the "shys" to launch Season 5 of AutisticAF Out Loud. Missed you guys… But I'm here now, at least for the moment... Let's do something great with that moment, shall we? This seems like the perfect occasion to talk about Time… and how it passes. A crucial topic… whether you’re autistic or ADHD, wonder if you are, have kids or a loved one, work w...

An Example of Exclusive Subscriber Content… Raw, Real, Authentic. I’m letting my one austic voice do all the talking this time. I kinda like that. AutisticAF Out Loud - One Autistic Voice. Hmm… Here’s my first thank you. My first real attempt at being live on camera. It’s an autistic thing. No mask. No cosplay. I explain after you hit the button…. Anyway, this one’s for you. All the subscribers. Y...

Shattering Neurodivergent Stereotypes: A Raw Dialogue for Tomorrow's Generations Description : Embark on a transformative journey with Johnny Profane in this compelling episode of AutisticAF Out Loud, titled "Actually Autistic? Whatever Doesn't Kill Your Unique Neurodivergent Ass…". This conversation goes beyond dismantling societal myths and stereotypes about neurodivergence; it...

Autistic Authenticity: Navigating Identity and Community Description : Dive into a candid conversation on AutisticAF Out Loud, where we tackle the often blurred lines between being autistic, belonging to identity groups, and maintaining personal integrity. "Autism? It's a State of Being. NOT an Identity Group" serves as a bold reminder that autism is an inherent part of us, not a bad...

Embracing Autism's Raw Truths in My 70s Description: Dive deep with Johnny Profane into a journey unlike any other—a raw, unfiltered exploration of living with autism discovered later in life. This episode peels back the layers of daily life, challenges, and the unexpected joys found in the simplest moments. "Facing the reality of autism in my 70s, I share the gritty process of acceptance...

###🎙️ Unmasking at the Late Night Picture Show: One Autistic's Reckoning * One night that demolished a lifetime of conformity * One bodacious shift... from meditation cult to liberated living * One tale of indulgence, rebellion & the embrace of an #autistic identity   👉 Click to witness the transformative night. ###👂 Tune In to Discover: * Hear the vivid recount of a night that broke al...

🎙️ Episode Highlights: The Myth of "You Can Do Anything": An Autistic Lens (Must-listen for adult autistics) The Hidden Costs of Conventional Education on Autistic Lives (Essential for educators) Curious? Keep listening. 👂 Listen and Learn: Step into the intricate world of autistic experiences, as Johnny Profane and Theo dissect the failures and biases of the educational system. (A must...

🎙️ Inside This Episode: • The Hidden World of Theo, a Homeless Autistic... Scholar • Privilege vs. Failure: An Autistic Perspective • The Raw Essence of Autistic Joy ❓ Curious? Keep listening to uncover these hidden gems. 🌈 Why You Need to Listen: Step into a realm where societal norms crumble, flashing a spotlight on the true meaning of autistic joy. This 4-part series on Autistic Education kic...

Perfectionism ain’t working for me… maybe not for Autistic AF dot you, either. So here’s something, shall we say, a little “rawer” than my usual /rant… Trascript: https://autisticaf.me/2023/09/29/this-autistics-fantasy-so-he-asks-about-my-history-what-i-told-my-doctor/ #AutisticAF Out Loud Podcast  Listen & Subscribe:  Apple https://neon.ly/mDd3e   Spotify https://neon.ly/p1Vay   Audible https...

Ever been told to ‘calm down’? How’d it feel? Well, this autistic feels like exploding! : https://autisticaf.me/2023/08/26/calm-down-why-is-this-the-worst-advice-you-can-give-an-autistic-person/ #AutisticAF Out Loud Podcast  Listen & Subscribe:  Apple https://neon.ly/mDd3e   Spotify https://neon.ly/p1Vay   Audible https://neon.ly/vkXa1   Stitcher https://neon.ly/vx5Zn   PocketCasts https://neo...

Folks ask about my #neurodivergent marriage. Umm… over and over. Like… “Is that even possible?” Gotta story for ya… Transcript: https://autisticaf.me/2023/08/18/neurodivergent-kiss-autistic-fairytale-or-fabulous-marriage/ #AutisticAF Out Loud Podcast  Listen & Subscribe:  Apple https://neon.ly/mDd3e   Spotify https://neon.ly/p1Vay   Audible https://neon.ly/vkXa1   Stitcher https://neon.ly/vx5Z...

Season 3's mission? To boldly explore living authentically autistic... out loud. That first story? Carving out a safe space to be our true autistic selves... a big part of that quest. Support the show --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/autisticaf/message This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus epis...

 Season 3 of AutisticAF Out Loud starts off with 3 new stories: 1. Living Unmasked Is a Political Act 2. Autism, Love & My Friend Billy: A New Epic Myth 3. Faking Normal: How I Mask My Writing Disorder... to Bring You Autistic Joy Transcript : https://autisticaf.me/2023/01/07/season-3-love-politics-faking-normal-3-new-autistic-myths/   "Hi! I'm still Johnny. I'm still Profane......

I'm autistic. And I can't DO social groups.  I don't think I'm alone. So, I'm launching a hashtag. #GroupProcessingDisorder. Transcript: https://autisticaf.me/   #AutisticAF Out Loud Podcast  Listen & Subscribe:  Apple https://neon.ly/mDd3e   Spotify https://neon.ly/p1Vay   Audible https://neon.ly/vkXa1   Stitcher https://neon.ly/vx5Zn   PocketCasts https://neon.ly/NLL...

Spacing out... Zoning out... Most autists do it... to survive boring conversations, family get-togethers... So dissociation's a good thing, Til it starts screwing with living your life. Or sense of reality.  Content note: mild profanity, one bleeped expletive relating to intellecutal disability. Transcript: https://autisticaf.me/   #AutisticAF Out Loud Podcast  Listen & Subscribe:  Apple...

 Wanna know what autistic life is like at 70?  Joy... and horror.  Transcript: https://autisticaf.me/   #AutisticAF Out Loud Podcast  Listen & Subscribe:  Apple https://neon.ly/mDd3e   Spotify https://neon.ly/p1Vay   Audible https://neon.ly/vkXa1   Stitcher https://neon.ly/vx5Zn   PocketCasts https://neon.ly/NLL3O   Amazon/Alexa https://neon.ly/mnOeq   Support the show --- Send in a voice mess...