Always on my mind

I bought a pair of pants last weekend. Eight dollars. Thrift store. H&M tag. And somewhere between the fitting room mirror and walking out the door, I realised I had been dressing for a version of myself that no longer exists. This week I'm talking about the moment your outside finally catches up with who you've become on the inside. About the hiding we do behind baggy clothes and comf...

Not everything you build needs to make sense to someone else. Not everything you create needs to earn its place. This week I've been thinking about ownership. Not the financial kind. The emotional kind. The feeling of having something in this world that belongs completely to you, that you built for yourself, that exists because you decided it should. This one is about the yes baby who learned...

What if being chosen, completely, unapologetically, with no backup plan, wasn't too much to ask for? What if that's actually the bare minimum? This week I've been thinking about dark romance. Not as a genre, but as a mirror. About what it says that millions of women are reaching for these books at 2am. About the swiping culture and the situationships and the performing indifference whe...

Have you ever woken up one day and noticed that everything just feels a little easier? Your worries don't weigh as heavy. Your sleep comes faster. And there's a smile you can't quite explain. That's what this episode is about. Somewhere between binge watching a love story and a conversation that caught me completely off guard, I found myself feeling something I had almost forgotten...

One ignored call. That's all it took. In this episode I talk about the spiral, that very specific journey from worry, to rationality, to pretending you don't care. About how our past heartbreaks press on bruises we thought had healed. And about what happens when silence becomes louder than words. This one's for everyone who has ever said "I'm fine" and meant the complete...

Have you noticed people reading again? Actually reading, physical books, on the subway, on the bus, pages and everything. In this episode I talk about what I've been reading, why I picked it up, and the one thought it left me with that I haven't been able to shake, that good and evil don't live in different people. They live in all of us, at the same time. This week's reflection, w...

Endings are rarely clean. Sometimes you feel relieved. Sometimes confused. Sometimes both at the exact same time. In this episode, I talk about a recent breakup, the small things that hit the hardest, what four months taught me about love and communication, and what it feels like to lose your comfort zone in a country far from home. This week's reflection - what is one small thing you can do t...

This is "Always on My Mind", a digital diary and a safe space for your thoughts. If you've ever felt something and wondered if you were the only one, this podcast is for you. New episodes every week. Welcome.