All That And Mo

So, just like any grown-ass adult who struggles with insomnia, I turn to medical marijuana to knock me out. And boy, do those little gummies do the trick! I usually pop them an hour before bed and chill until they kick in. But one day, I made the mistake of recording an episode after taking the gummies, but before they hit me like a ton of bricks. Bad move, folks. Because when they finally did kic...

This is part two of a two part conversation! Part 2 went live a week ago for my lovely Patrons, for their support! *** SUPERSTAR MOFOS : Liz Scott Terri Lahmon J Starr Anna T Biddle Christopher Brown Amy Willaert James R Potyraj Marshall Flax Haddayr Copley-Woods Scott J Marty Wilder Meg Baca JP Robichaud aeric meredith-goujon KillerB1973 Sara Leiste Esther The Adipositivity Project Kathleen Melch...

In this two part story, my friend Jack, filmmaker and college film professor, shares his experience of being unexpectedly asked to direct the live broadcast of an event featuring the Dalai Lama, with a twist—the event is put on by the infamous NXIVM cult (yes, THAT one). On top of that, Jack finds himself in a trailer filled with millions of dollars' worth of equipment and no technical director. U...

Back in the 90s, I didn't understand the hype around Pokemon. I just never got into it for whatever reason. But in 2016, while I was traveling in Europe, I saw clusters of people on their phones, all playing Pokemon GO. I was curious, so I downloaded the game and asked some friendly kids to show me how to play. From then I was hooked, going as far as hiking in the woods at night to catch rare Poke...

Today I'm sharing my personal reflections on my recent one-woman show, Hyena, and my journey towards self-love and acceptance. It's been almost a decade since I first started performing this piece, and I'm excited to share with you the amazing experience I had performing at the Institute of Contemporary Art in Boston and the diverse audience that attended. I'll also be discussing my struggles with...

This week, I sat down with my beloved Spousemeister Georg Friedrich Haas to have a candid conversation about what it means to live an authentic life and find happiness in the process. We dove deep into how societal messaging can shape our sense of self-worth and the importance of recognizing the privileges we carry in life (sound complex? It is. And of course, I couldn't resist mentioning my one-w...

When I first got involved in the kink, leather, and BDSM scene, I thought it was going to be a non-stop sex party. But I quickly realized that it was not entirely true—and that it might just not be for me. As an actress and performer since childhood, I found it challenging to separate an audience from people watching me from a performative mindset. This made me realize that sex parties were not my...

Stage fright is one thing. Performing someone else's art is one thing. But what about performing something so personal, so raw, that someone watching is looking into your very soul? That's what I experience when I perform my solo show "Hyena". On today's episode, I talk about what it's like, about being an alcoholic in recovery (and an alcoholic of color at that), the story of when my beloved Spou...

In this episode, I decided to answer three of the questions and explains what it takes to make her feel safe in my relationship. I also share a hilarious fuck up as a submissive when I was new to the BDSM scene, and dive into how I managed (in the past) polyamorous relationships. Plus, I talks about the tasks I had to do as a submissive, and how she learned to appreciate them. Tune in to hear all...

If you've been a long-time listener to this podcast, you'll know about my solo show, Hyena, but for the uninitiated—Hyena is a combination of spoken word and music about alcoholism and recovery. Specifically, MY alcholism and recovery. On today's episode, I'll be discussing the various performances of the show (including the film version and how it has won awards from various film festivals). I'll...

It's super important to discuss kink and BDSM in the context of events, safety, and boundaries. Are you interested in exploring this exciting world, but don't know where to start? On today's episode, we're going to be talking about red flags in the context of kink and BDSM. My list? 🚩1. People who suggest that limits are not important 🚩2. People who craft a persona that might not be accurate 🚩3...

This is part 2 of my two-part review of the last couple of years—where I've been, what I've been doing, and what I've learned. In this episode, I discuss my experience of rehearsing for an opera, and my move to Bern, Switzerland. I share about how working with the director, Julia, and how I focused on character development, backstory and relationships. I also talk about the emotional process of de...

In this first part of two episodes, we're doing a year in review with my beloved Spouse Meister. I'm diving into my calendar to recall events and experiences such as RV trips in California, a trip to Vienna for an opera production, trying to get a certification in narrative therapy, and a sex party that didn’t go as planned. We discuss how the past year has been a learning experience for me and ho...

It's been weeks since I wrote that post about my mother not coming to see the opera my son-in-law wrote for me in Europe. I had offered to buy her a business class ticket with anti-anxiety medication, but never got a response. Reflecting on this made me think about other issues with my family. In our family, it's become expected that I don't share my feelings with others.  I'm still angry and...

I'm a night person. I love the peace and quiet of the late hours. During the winter months and my anniversary, it often ends up as a time of contemplation and introspection – which can be a challenge. On today's episode, I talk about how I had to overcome fear to be fully themselves and how I met my beloved spousemeister nine years ago. I also talk about my budding business, teaching people to be...

If you're a regular listener, you know that I've been absent for quite a while—with good reason! Today's episode gives you a sneak peek in where I've been, I discuss "The Woman King", and much, much more. Not set photos, but a trailer for Sycorax: https://youtu.be/dmOZqCGq1wM And a link with photos AND a bunch more information: https://buehnenbern.ch/spielplan/programm/sycorax/ *** A special, dire...

Something I haven't talked about before on this podcast is how I've got quite a long-term, on again/off again relationship with phones. Some people would certainly disagree with this, but I actually really enjoyed my time in phone-centered jobs. I've worked everywhere from a sex line (with a deskmate getting busy under her desk) to working at a bank and experiencing blatant racism. Join me on this...

Mollena and opera aren't exactly BFFs—we're more like casual acquaintences at this point. But when you get an opportunity to actually take part in an opera, you don't exactly say no! Join me in a conversation with my lovely spouse and owner about art (and the fear of putting something out there), theater vs. opera, and perfect pitch (and why I don't really understand it). *** A special, direct tha...

When one comes up in an alternative community, you find out quickly that there are people you look up to and people that you hope to never ever run across in your experience. In the kink and leather communities, here were plenty of people who were heroish and had ulterior motives that maybe were not pure. However, if you've heard me talk about kink at all, you've probably heard me talk about Vi Jo...

When one comes up in an alternative community, you find out quickly that there are people you look up to and people that you hope to never ever run across in your experience. In the kink and leather communities, here were plenty of people who were heroish and had ulterior motives that maybe were not pure. However, if you've heard me talk about kink at all, you've probably heard me talk about Vi Jo...

Whoops. Here I am. *** A special, direct thank you to Amy W, Victoria B, Susanna E G, James R P, Kathleen A, Marshall F, Elizabeth S, Jackie B, Haddayr C-W, Scott J K, Abigail P, Marty W, Meg B, JP R, aeric meredith-goujon, Sinclair Sexsmith, KillerB1973, Sara L E, The Adipositivity Project, Kathleen M, Andrea, DK Leather, Stephanie S, Michelle D, and Michael O'B. You are helping make this show po...

Very little gets under my skin like someone assuming they know everything about you—even though they are, in fact, not YOU. How some people think they can get in your head and tell you "no no, your feelings are wrong" will never fail to amaze me. Today I'm going to talk about social anxiety. Specifically, MY social anxiety, which may not look like the social anxiety you expect to see, but I can as...

How long should you be in control of your art? Should you have "final cut" on each performance, or is the performance itself a separate piece of art? Today, I discuss that and more with my lovely Spousemeister, Georg Friedrich Haas, composer extraordinaire. This came up as we were swept off to Germany—a trip which was not an instant "yes" from my dear husband (which we will get into). *** A specia...

In a quick mini-sode (a concept I lovingly ripped off from a YouTuber I watch) I discuss some tumultuous times my husband and I are enduring together, the impact of neurodivergence on a relationship, and how they might actually be your superpower. *** A special, direct thank you to Amy W, Victoria B, Susanna E G, James R P, Kathleen A, Marshall F, Elizabeth S, Jackie B, Haddayr C-W, Scott J K, Abi...

This week has felt particularly dark for some of us. How can it not? But through that, I want to give you a reminder that you (yes. YOU.) reading this? You are important. Not just important, you are significant. I really, truly mean that—and I hope if you don't believe that, you will someday. Also, find out about my strange week, which includes a lost passport, as well a previous story about a str...