ALIVE with Tenji

The title of this epi says it all. The goal of “living up to my potential” has terrorised me. Terrorised me. From my parents, teachers, schools and companies expecting or predicting “great things” to my own insecurities and needing desperately to create what I thought would be a “worthy life”. The concept of “achieving greatness” has had me in a chokehold. But I got diagnosed with endo and it’s se...

As a child of trauma, my suicidal teen mind believed that I couldn’t survive on my own and that if I just made enough money, or was rescued by God, or found a nice man to love me, or figured out how to stop being sad, THEN I would be safe, I would survive, I would make it, I would be good enough. My life has been a slow and very painful unraveling of that survival premise. And this year, another d...

Ciao peeps, welcome to season 3!! And episode 50! Wowsers. I can’t believe we’ve made it to 50 episodes! I’m a beast. This is a quickie letting you know what you’re in for this season. We’re talking about devotion as the theme of my year as a Personal Year 6 in numerology this year. In theme with the frequency of the 6 here’s what I’ve been chewing on: I’ve learned about what it means to be devote...

Death is tricky business. Especially when you’re not ready to go. My father died during Covid and it had a profound impact on me, my understanding of the spiritual role I play for mankind and the evolution of my spiritual path. My dad told me, through a medium, that I had helped him find his way home to soul world/ life after death when he died. The crazy thing is I had no idea the significance of...

What happens when we leave Earth? Where do our souls go? What does what happens next tell us about the purpose of our lives today? And how does knowing what’s on the other side influence how we live today - our choices, our relationship with life and ourselves, our understanding of our life path? And is it better to know what’s next or live in blissful unawareness? Join me as I share my perspectiv...

Today, I reflect on how the sudden death of my favourite cousin devastated me but changed my relationship with death in unexpected ways. Death is something that terrifies most of us. We’ve made it a taboo topic and something we spend our whole lives trying to avoid. How do we come to peace with the fact that we all die? What do we need to believe about our capacity to survive our own deaths and th...

2026 is here, guys, and it’s giving us the chance to start again. This numerological cycle is a Year 1 and it’s offering us supportive energy for new beginnings, planting new seeds, being sovereign and charting our own path with assertiveness and self-trust. Let’s explore this energy in greater depth and discuss how 2025’s Year 9 energy of attainment, closure, and humanitarian leadership also push...

Hi lovers, I’m back after a little break from the pod. I’m experimenting with recording in seasons - dropping a few juicy episodes for you to binge to in meaningful chunks. Tell me what you think about this new model - I’m excited to give it a try. To kick off, let’s talk about my move back to Zimbabwe, where I’m from. Let’s chat about mushroom ceremonies and the clarity and wisdom they bring, eve...

What a fun episode! I felt like keeping things lighthearted today so I asked ChatGPT - I call her Illuma - to ask me 5 fun spiritual questions it would ask me if it were a fellow mystic meeting me for the first time. What a delight. We talk about favourite tools and practices, secrets I haven’t told anyone before, messages from my future self, the soundtrack to my spiritual journey (this was a har...

Today’s episode started as a life update and evolved into a deep-dive into how my experience exploring and experimenting with my sidereal Human Design chart is teaching me so much about my hidden soul lessons, my secret soul longings and the difference between my personality and psyche vs my soul’s truth. I share where I think Tropical human design fits in our personal development work (showing us...

Virgo season is winding down! Virgo governs the 6th house in astrology which governs healing, service, work life and routines. So this time of year will offer us opportunities to strengthen and support these areas of our life. I’ve been learning a lot about psychosomatic symptoms, the link between trauma, the nervous system and physical illness, and how healing our emotional wounds and addressing...

I realised recently that I’ve been living my life like it’s a job in which I have no rights and no benefits. Always saying yes to every growth opportunity - even when I don’t have mental, physical or emotional capacity for more. Life isn’t a job, an obligation and a game of endurance that you get an A for if you struggle hard enough. We get to be happy, joyful, safe, and to know when we’ve reached...

Ciao tutti! I’m on the cusp of launching a new venture in my business and so much fear is coming up as I gear up to do it. So, today I’m chatting about risk - something I’ve had to think a lot about as I take this step - and how hard it is to take a big, bright, bold step towards what we most desire to experience in our lives. Life is as abundant as we choose for it to be, but how do we believe th...

Gemini is here and bringing the energy of self-expression, playfulness, evolution without the pressure to define oneself, and trusting your voice.  Today I share my experience learning how to let go of old identities and rigid philosophies and expectations of myself, and how to embrace curiosity, an adaptable sense of identity, and self-definition instead of being defined by the beliefs held by my...

Hi hi! I’ve realised that when my tank is beyond empty and I’m teetering close to shut down, more intense - and less conventional - self- methods are needed to truly regulate my system and nourish me back to life. I realised that so many of us limit self care to physical practices hoping they will automatically replenish our hearts and minds as well.  But what we need to do is take a targeted appr...

I have endometriosis and it’s been the single biggest challenge I’ve experienced in my life. But it’s taught me how to stop trying to control and change my body, and how to be in healthier relationship with it. It’s also brought me into deeper spiritual reverence for the wonder that is the human body’s ability to survive and be steadfastly committed to the soul’s purpose. And most recently, it’s r...

In this episode I’m waxing lyrical about the nature of truth and whether it serves us to try make truth absolute. I believe that this is something we do to try cope with reality and to try to feel safe. But the need for right and wrong, black and white, truth and lies, and absolute knowing and certainty limits us. It only separates us from others, makes us struggle to accept reality, makes us make...

In today’s conversation I share the culmination of 5 years of discovering and beginning to overcome my unconscious emotional avoidance one failed relationship at a time. I explore the origins of emotional avoidance, including parentification, unhealed childhood wounds, good-girl conditioning and attachment styles. I discuss unravelling repeating dating patterns and mistakes, deciding enough was en...

A little update on my life turned into a reflection on recent platonic relationship endings that have rocked my world and made my world the last few months. I achieved something I never would have been able to had I not stood for myself and found my voice in some of my closest relationships. But it took time for things to unwind and for me to accept the relationships had to end, so of course they...

How do you move on from the loss you never thought you could survive? How do you make sense of it? When your very foundation is obliterated, how do you find new ground? How do you believe that love is safe and become willing to let joy in again when it feels like it is that very love that caused you so much pain?  Not having the answers to these questions and the fear that extreme loss will destro...

Say it with me: Oracle cards and tarot are not evil. Lol!  For real though, when I was a Christian and for a long time after, I was convinced they were a tool of the Devil used to derail and cast spells of misfortune over my life! It was terrifying.  I have since learned through research and my own experience that they are not – they are merely a tool for receiving guidance and wisdom from whateve...

Do you believe you live in a hostile universe or a benevolent one?  Trusting life is so hard when you’ve experienced a lot of loss, pain, insecurity and disappointment. But I’ve discovered that repairing our life wound is essential in our spiritual and personal development journeys if we are to become who our souls came here to become, or if we finally want to experience peace and a holding, sense...

Guys, I’m a hun who has experienced a lot of pain in life. Death, sorrow, suicidality. Heartbreak, burnout, bullying as a teen. Chronic illness, financial loss, loss of purpose. SO many things. And it all made me generally run sad, pessimistic, and anxious. But I’ve done A LOT of healing work on myself and I feel capable of facing anything life throws my way. I feel secure in my heart and spirit....

So, what do you do when you’ve built the wrong life? So much happens to us in life that changes who we are – we heal our hearts and past trauma, our values change, we settle into more of ourselves – truer versions of ourselves, we grow up, life happens to us and changes our priorities, and suddenly the life we built, that was once perfect, just no longer serves us anymore.  And we suddenly feel st...

I’ve had to learn to let go of the illusion of perfection that I spent my whole life chasing. Forgiving myself for not always getting it right and not being amazing. Forgiving life for not being amazing to me and what I always dreamed it would be. And forgiving other people for just being human and colliding into me in ways that really hurt me. We’re all doing our best and life is what it is. I ju...