A Door of Hope

Trauma doesn’t just live in our thoughts. It can be stored in the body, showing up in confusing ways. Impulses, physical sensations, or reactions that feel out of proportion can sometimes be connected to experiences the body is still holding onto. In Episode 017 of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry talk about body memories and somatic trauma, what it means for trauma to be held in the body, and how to...

Traumatic memories can be complicated. Sometimes they surface slowly, and other times they come up in ways that feel overwhelming or confusing. It can be hard to know what’s safe, what’s real, and how to handle what you’re experiencing when something begins to come to the surface. In Episode 016 of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry talk about what it can feel like when a memory is ready to be processe...

Shame often grows in silence, especially when it’s tied to hidden trauma. The things we feel we can’t say out loud can quietly shape how we see ourselves and keep us stuck in cycles of fear, secrecy, and self-blame. In Episode 015 of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry talk about what happens when those hidden places are brought into the light. They explore how sharing your story in a safe and supportiv...

For many people, shame doesn’t just stay in our thoughts. It turns into a pattern of self-punishment. We carry the weight of what happened or what we believe we did wrong, and somewhere along the way, we begin to feel like we deserve to suffer for it. In Episode 014 of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry talk about how this cycle forms, how to recognize it in your own life, and why it can be so hard to...

After trauma, it’s easy for shame to take root and slowly shape the way we see ourselves. What starts as something that happened to us can begin to feel like something that defines us. In Episode 013 of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry talk about how to recognize a shame-based identity and the ways it can quietly influence our thoughts, beliefs, and sense of worth. They explore what it looks like to...

Shame has a voice, and for many people who have experienced trauma, it can become loud and relentless. In this episode of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry talk about how toxic shame can take root after painful or traumatizing experiences, shaping the way we see ourselves and the stories we begin to believe about our own worth. These internal messages often grow out of moments where something deeply p...

There are many rumors surrounding sexual abuse in the Catholic Church, but finding clear statistics about it can be surprisingly difficult. In Episode 011 of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry take a deep dive into the reality of sexual abuse within religious settings. They talk about the complicated position many survivors find themselves in when their abuse comes from someone who has spiritual author...

Trauma has a way of shaking the very foundation of our faith. When you’ve been deeply hurt, especially in ways that feel unjust or unanswered, trusting God can feel confusing, fragile, or even impossible. In Episode 10 of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry explore the idea that God does not demand blind trust from wounded hearts. Instead, He works to earn our trust by being loving, long-suffering, and...

Spiritual abuse is one of the most confusing and devastating forms of harm because it uses something sacred against the very people it claims to protect. In Episode 009 of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry step into the difficult but necessary conversation about what happens when faith is weaponized—when Scripture is twisted, manipulated, or used to control, silence, or shame. Many who have endured th...

Trauma in the church is not something we like to talk about, but it’s something we can’t afford to ignore. In Episode 008 of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry discuss how tempting it can be, even as Christians, to look away from painful situations or offer a quick Scripture instead of sitting with someone in their hurt. But showing up for one another isn’t optional. As those called to be the hands and...

Even when self-harm feels like your only outlet, there is a path toward healing and hope. In this episode of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry explore why self-harm happens and how the healing journey can begin by permitting yourself to be an imperfect, yet perfectly loved, child of the King. They share Biblical insights on overcoming self-contempt, managing intrusive thoughts, breaking free from the...

Trying to manage an inner world that feels chaotic, with warring alters and constant inner conflict, can make healing feel impossible. In Episode 006 of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry share their experience and insight on managing a complex DID system. They share what it’s like to live with alternate personalities (DID alters), how to bring order to the inner world, and how someone with Dissociativ...

Healing from hidden trauma and ritual abuse often begins quietly. In this episode of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry share about what those early stages of healing can look like, emphasizing the importance of prayer, support, and discernment when deciding who to trust with your story. They speak honestly about the reality that not everyone—even those closest to you—will be able to understand what yo...

Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) is more common than many people realize. In this episode of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry speak openly about what DID really is, why dissociation happens, and how it is often misunderstood or misdiagnosed as conditions like schizophrenia or bipolar disorder. Drawing from their own healing journeys, they share the hope-filled truth that healing is possible—that...

The signs of abuse can be confusing, hidden, and deeply misunderstood, especially when trauma has been buried for survival. In this episode of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry explore the signs and symptoms of ritual abuse, offering clarity for those who may be questioning their own experiences. The conversation also addresses what steps to take if you believe you may be a survivor of Satanic Ritual...

In this episode of A Door of Hope, Kay Tolman shares her deeply personal testimony of surviving ritual abuse, escaping the occult, and how she ultimately found healing, freedom, and restoration after enduring years of complex trauma. Kay speaks honestly about the long road toward healing, offering insight into life after Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA) and the journey of recovery. Kay’s testimony is no...

Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA) is a deeply misunderstood and often dismissed form of trauma involving systematic abuse designed to fracture the body, mind, and soul. In the premiere episode of A Door of Hope, hosts Kay and Kerry—both survivors of extensive SRA—define what SRA is, explore why it occurs, and shed light on the tactics used in the early 1990s to discredit legitimate cases by labeling them...