ayawithin

What does self-sabotage look like to you? How are you currently self-sabotaging in your life? What reoccuring patterns do you see happening within your life? Is this self-sabotaging behavior generational? The way I ruin my life due to this deep fear of rejection is pretty fucking frustrating tbh. This fear plays a role in all my relationships an now I'm really experiencing it at a different le...

Are you a planner? Aya dives into the topic about planning and how it creates energetic blocks in her life. She loves to plan but is realizing maybe it's because she's trying to gain control where there actually is no control. "Do we try and plan our lives to find some type of footing when in reality we have no control?" Let's chat about how I'm trying not to plan but lov...

Do you struggle trusting others or do you just struggle trusting within yourself? I'm still trying to figure out which one holds more truth but I will say as I enter the dating world I've realized that it might be deeper than simply blaming others for my trust issues. JOIN US SEPTEMBER 1st - 6th 2023 for the second Divine Self Retreat   https://www.soshelbs.com/retreat-sign-up Instagram: ...

I love the saying - "nothing ever goes away until it taught us the lesson we need to learn". Right now, I am starting to notice recurring patterns & cycles in my life that keep showing up in different scenarios, names, places, and people. It has gotten to the point that I am aware of this pattern. But once you’re aware of that behavioral cycle what do you do next to disrupt that cycl...

After solo traveling abroad for 6 months I finally had to come back to my old life. I thought I was ready but little did I know I was about to befriend the darkest part of my mind. I created a life that really fulfilled all my needs in Portgual so coming back I left that life behind and all the major external protective factors that was helping me process what I was going through. I was also highl...

The moment I woke the fuck up and hit rock bottom was the moment I truly connected with the deepest part of myself. Rock bottom for me... was when I had to identify who was speaking - my intuition or my truama. Learning how to choose me and lean into my bigggest fear aka losing the person I loved most and ultimatly learning how to be alone. I truly believe everyone we meet plays a crucial role in...

It was my time to do a deep dive into my life. I wanted to give a better idea of who I am, where I come from, and my own specific challenges I face. This is part 1 where I talked about my childhood, schooling, and how there has always been this common theme in my life that I am trying to process.   Love to hear your thoughts and let me know if you're excited for pt 2!

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