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Welcome back episode - Covering the topic of evangelical canvasing and dissecting an indoctrination letter left in my mailbox by a Jehovah's Witness. We dissect the content together and talk about the spiritual red flags to be on guard for from spiritually predatory communities. Material - Watch Tower Bible and Tract Society of Pennsylvania, 2014. Streams are recorded: Monday/Wed, 3 PM MST at: twi...

Cleaning up the "Paintenance Tunnels" in Viscera Cleanup Detail with some ex-vangelical commentary on processing cutting contact with family after leaving your church, as well as content creator life things.

Another late night session of cleaning up grisly merder in order to destress. Something to play in the background if you need some body doubling noise while I chat about my day and things I am processing in my life. Subject matter includes: exvangelical, family, personal boundary setting and religious trauma.

Bringing back some Podcast esc content to help myself sleep while we play cleanup detail and verbally ramble about whatever is on my mind; which tonight was apparently the internal emotional experience of being an ex-vangelical. This is basically trash girl hours to listen in as background noise, body doubling, make time go faster, etc.

I guess someone must've "redeemed a rant", but I was definitely in the mood to delve deeper into the emotional experience of being on the receiving end of someone's desire to save you from your "sinful lifestyle" when you are considered to be in some of society's "lowest of the low" demographics, such as sex work. From one side of the spectrum, Christian, now to the other side in adulthood, it is...

It's been a few months, but House of Quartz is back with more glitter, spite, caffeine, and chaos to discuss a pretty big topic. How fear based theology can impact childhood development.   While we run through Stray, we'll talk a little bit about my own personal experience with End Times theology, symptoms of developmental trauma, and discuss target areas for healing. Our resource for th...

Is Sex Work actually correlated to a form of self-destructive behavior as a result of insecure attachments with a parental stemming from years of childhood trauma and rebellion?  Let's talk myths regarding attention and coping versus conscious, informed adult decisions to engage in sex work and how social biases can infantilize and invalidate sex workers, while also jeopardizing their safety....

Hewwo again! We're back with episode 3 of DIY Sugar Baby to talk about changes in "smexual desire" in dynamics. This covers a range throughout the discussion that includes deconstruction of faith, and how religion can influence our sense of worth in relationships. We also cover how kink dynamics can offer us ways to get creative and adapt to changes in desire, the validity of asexuality, and vario...

Digital Discrimination has been escalating against sex workers for the past few years. Let's talk about daily life for an online sex worker, getting started, and realistic impact of socialized stigma on a sex worker's mental/physical/emotional health versus popular cognitive biases.  As a rebel pastor's daughter now working online as a pro-kinkster, it is very important to me that we start co...

Based on last month's episode, a listener sent in a question regarding balancing a dynamic between a Caregiver and a Service Sub. This episode also covers some of the links between religious trauma and kink, caregiver burnout, and tips for Subs on being specific about the type of care they would like to negotiate for.  Supplemental Resources: The Heart of Dominance / The New Topping Book

Many of of my TikTok viewers enjoy and follow my content for my  POV Caregiver Domme headspace videos, so I receive numerous questions or interest in the topic of negotiating for and receiving care. Often, people are surprised that caregiver headspace was helpful for them. While this video is within the context of Kink/power exchange dynamics, the 4 fundamentals I go over for negotiating for...

We're back with another interview episode featuring ThatChrisWilson and FiercePufferFish from TikTok to highlight some relevant topics regarding religious trauma, oppressive social systems, and the physical impact trauma can have on your voice. We begin the episode talking about how being neurodivergent can impact your experience within oppressive social systems, and then we also discuss for our a...

A special very first interview episode for the DIY Sugar Baby Podcast with #kinktok's very own Primal Empress to talk about Psychology and Kink!  Some topics covered include:   - How might a 24/7 dynamic impact your mental health, executive functioning, and sense of identity?  - Can safewords be abused?  - How can we safely an appropriately interact with minors on social media...

Leaving a strict, Fundamentalist family environment can be super scary and lonely! It can also have you feeling stuck or frozen in place, unsure where the next safe direction is to go. So your "local" online rebellious Pastor's Kid is gonna talk about the psychological processes and conditioning walls that are often socialized into us from childhood onward intended to keep us on the straight and n...

Answering some questions about how trauma may intersect with hypersexuality, and what trauma response research is now showing us about high frequency, high risk sexual behavior. We also cover subject matter pertaining to how cognitive bias in activism can hurt the ethical "accountant" community and how recent TOS proposed changes and their recall with OnlyFans impacted sex workers. 

This episode we'll be diving into the impact socialization of Christian values can have on childhood cognitive development, and long-term consequences to identity and sense of self into adulthood. This is a great episode to tune into for those who are in a process of deconstruction in adulthood and have been struggling with establishing a sense of self after being raised to "die to self in Christ"...

This episode we're going to be going into some of my background as not just a content creator, but also as a *spicy* content creator.   We'll be talking about how I got started with "accountancy" through OnlyFans, including cosplay, networking, and the actual lived experience of making pay-to-view NSFW entertainment. We'll also be talking some religious deconstruction and tackling the st...

Since I've started to talk more openly about "accountancy", religious trauma, psychology, and being a content creator, alot of my viewers have been encouraging me to start releasing content as a Podcast! So for our first episode, let's get right into some of the heavier, more in-depth side of religious de-construction and of making "spicy content"(T.W. mental health, religious trauma). You'll get...