Mothering Anxiety

The time has finally come for me to say goodbye to Mothering Anxiety. It has been an amazing 3 1/2 years, 167 episodes, thousands and thousands of plays. Take a listen as I share why I have finally decided to say goodbye and what to expect from “Mothering Anxiety” in the near future.

I feel that I’ve tried it all. Supplements, Exercise, Breathing Techniques, Therapy. And all though all of this has helped, it’s only helped temporarily. The truth is, my Anxiety came back because I was repressing instead of feeling. I was putting aside things I thought I was “over.” If you don’t fix what’s inside of your head, no amount of anything is going to be a permanent solution. This time a...

I wish there was a nicer way to say this but it is a reality check I have needed for myself. Many times, it has been me & ONLY ME, digging my own grave. Many times, I made myself a victim in Motherhood. Yes, motherhood is hard but thinking negatively, being angry, allowing my own triggers dictate my mom, I was making it harder on myself. Take a listen as I talk about how the victimhood of motherho...

After not being able to breastfeed my first born for longer than 2 months, I was determined to do it with my second. I thought it would make things easier, save us money, & overall be better for both baby & I. And sure, all those things were true but I never realized what a toll it would take on my Mental Health. Take a listen as I talk about my decision to finally wean after 17 months of...

Now that I am in a better mental space, I can look back at the few months when my Anxiety was at its all time high and realize how I don’t remember much of it. There are so many moments that I feel were taken from me, moments that I need to grieve for mentally missing out on. Although, I am learning to give myself grace, I can't help but grieve the moments I lost because I was just trying to survi...

Postpartum Anxiety. Something I was ashamed to admit for so long that I was dealing with. "What do you mean you can't handle being a mom?" "What do you mean you can't keep up with your kids?," were all judgements my own head was telling me. My mind was telling me that because I couldn't handle the one thing I was called to do, I was failing my children as a Mother....

This season of life has not been a fun one to experience but, it has taught me a lot of new things about myself and about life in general. As I am currently battling Postpartum Anxiety, I have decided to take an entire season to focus on that and how I plan to overcome my Postpartum Anxiety. Take a listen as I talk about what you can expect from me this season and all the tips, triumphs, and failu...

This years Holidays are going to look a little bit different. Not only am I dealing with PPA/PPD but I am trying to set boundaries on what’s going to work best for me and my family. We’ve always done things a certain way and that just isn’t working out for us anymore. We are trying to teach our kid’s differently about what the Holidays mean and we hope that those around us could respect the tradit...

The days are shorter and the Holidays are quickly approaching. For many of us, this can be a reminder of family dysfunction and loneliness. Take a listen as I talk about what I plan to do to combat seasonal depression this year including daily sunshine and setting healthy holiday boundaries.

I never thought that I would be back here, dealing with Anxiety after working on healing from GAD for the last 3 years. I thought I was just burnt out, I thought it was just me not being able to handle being a Mom of 2, but something more was happening to my body. Something I couldn’t physiologically I couldn’t control. Take a listen as I talk about what’s truly been going on these last couple of...

I’ve always felt as if I have never fit in anywhere and with anyone. Call it past trauma or my social anxiety but fitting in with others has always been something I have struggled with. Take a listen as I talk about the revelation I had as to why I know I don’t feel good enough for anyone’s time and what I am doing to work towards accepting myself as I am.

For almost 3 decades of my life I was whoever everyone else wanted me to be. I stayed quiet to keep peace, I hid to not stand out, I molded myself to make sure that I stayed on everyone’s good side. I feel that this only added to my Social Anxiety and now on my healing journey, I have no idea who I am. What part of me was part of my trauma, what part of me is part of motherhood, what part of me is...

I feel as if I’m stuck. As if I’m having some sort of existential crisis at the moment. I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t know what direction I want to go in. For almost 3 decades my body has been in a fight or flight response and now that it’s time to relax and let peace in, I don’t know how and it’s making me feel stuck, as if what I’m doing isn’t good enough. Take a listen as I talk about my...

I realized spelling it with an “I” is business. Anyways, we are BUSY. And not only busy physically with needing to do so many things, I feel that I’m also busy mentally. Having my daughter in school and having to mentally carry that load of homework, lunches, drop off/pick ups, afterschool activities have just added to my daily mental load. My brain is on overdrive BUT I am finding ways to cope an...

Did you know your body traps all of your trauma? I didn’t, not until I was recently diagnosed with TMJD and researched where and why this comes from. Sure, the reasons are plain and clear but when you dig a little deeper you start to see how your trauma was what caused these reasons to begin with. Take a listen as I talk about my new journey of having to heal my physical body as I learn more and m...

We’ve all heard about “Self Care” but what is “Soul Care?” What feeds your soul? What are things that you do for not just your physical being but your inner being? For me, that’s spending time with God. For me, that’s laying it all out for him. My worries, my other thinking, my anxieties. It’s making myself vulnerable and just letting him take the reigns. Take a listen as I talk about the 3 differ...

Lately, I’ve been having doubts about my ability to speak up on Mental Illness. I have been hearing in the back of my head “You’re Not Good Enough, Who Do You Think You Are?” Take a listen as I try to tackle my thoughts of insecurity and what I plan to do with my Podcast.

My biggest apologies but honestly, after recording an episode titled “I Burned Out” & then going hiatus for 2 weeks. . . not so surprising right? I am in a rough season of life right now. My Anxiety has been at its all time highest, I’m extremely stressed out, and quite frankly, haven’t been doing well emotionally, physically, & mentally. It feels that all the things have piled up and I somehow fo...

This season of life is where I have been learning to let go of my perfectionism, to let go of my social anxiety. Let me tell you, it’s been ROUGH. I think I cry almost every day. Take a listen as I talk about the events of life that lead to my burnout that how now left me on autopilot and what I have learned so far during this time.

I give the new Barbie movie 10/10 but let’s talk about some points I got from it. This movie made me laugh and cry and by cry I mean bawl my eyes out uncontrollably which is not like me. This movie tugged on my existential anxiety, mom anxiety, and deeply rooted mommy issues. Take a listen as I talk about how my Anxiety made me interpret the Barbie movie and what I got out of it.

Today marks my 3 year anniversary of Podcasting and honestly what a wild ride it’s been. I feel that there are many things I need to apologize for since. There were many things that were said that I honestly wish I could take back. I feel that with my lack of presence, I have also abandoned all of us who embarked on this healing journey together. But mainly, I wanted to apologize for this 3 year j...

This week, my baby boy turns 1 & boy oh boy, what a difference he has been from my daughter. I don’t know if it’s a boy thing or a second child thing but things are wild to say the least. Take a listen as I talk about my first year as a boy mom and all the things that give me Anxiety because there are a few.

I apologize in advance for what I’m about to say in this episode. If this is your first time tuning in, I suggest listening to the first 142 episodes so you can see how I got to this point. (No, but really.) There was a point when I was going to therapy where I was simply repeating myself over & over again until my therapist said, “Okay, but you’re an adult now, what are you going to do about it?”...

It’s now been one full week since my Kitchen has been remodeled and BOY, did I think I wouldn’t survive the remodel. That was BRUTAL and honestly felt like I couldn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. But that’s life right? When we’re in the middle of a difficult time, it feels like it’s never ending but once it’s done it’s like “okay, I’m glad that’s over, never want to do that again.” Take...

Honestly, vacations have never been relaxing for me. It’s always the Anxiety of packing, figuring out what you’re going to do, traveling anxiety, then add kids to the mix and it’s just a no fun zone. But I’ve come to a place where Ive learned to manage my Anxiety and honestly, how to just not let it bother me anymore. My Husband had a few days off and we decided to take advantage and head out of t...