Keep Calm and Trauma Dump

In this episode, I talk about the Devaluation phase in the narcissistic abuse cycle. During this episode, you will learn about what the Devaluation phase is, how it happens, and the signs you are being devalued in a narcissitically abusive relationship. I talk about the extreme emotional abuse tactics, and why a narcissist's brain is biologically different.

This episode, we discuss the “Love Bomb” phase of a narcissistic abusive relationship. Using real examples, I tell you about the Love Bomb phase I experienced with my late husband, why narcissists do it, and how to know if you’re being love bombed in your relationship.

This new series of this podcast covers Narcissistic Abuse. In this episode, I introduce the topic of Narcissistic Personality Disorder, and talk briefly about the moment I realized I was in an abusive relationship. I share my personal experience with being married to someone with Narcissistic Personality Disorder. This is the introduction episode, and I plan on sharing all of my knowledge regardin...

*Content Warning* This episode is Part II of Mommy Dearest. No, not the horror movie- my podcast episode. Ya'll Gen X'ers really gawked at my episode title choice ;) In this episode, I talk a little bit about narcissistic abuse and how that has added to my already complicated suicide loss grief. My mom and I talk about the Day of his death, and a little bit about the aftermath of what foll...

*Content Warning- This episode contains content regarding suicide, domestic violence, and situations that could cause some unease with some listeners. Listener discretion is advised This episode I'm chatting with my mom, Lisa. She shares what I was like as a child on the spectrum, and her point of view with being my mother while I go through some traumatic shit.

This episode, I take you through the drama of ~the funeral~. Enjoy listening as I talk about the drama surrounding what happened when someone I loved died of suicide, and trying to coordinate a funeral while being grief stricken. If you or someone you love are having thoughts of suicide, please reach out to the National Suicide Hotline 988. If you are experiencing a psychiatric emergency, please c...

*Content Warning: This episode talks about suicide, suicide methods, and a personal story and descriptions regarding a suicide loss. Listener Discretion is Advised* This episode I share audio with my current partner as he shares his story with suicide loss. In part II of this episode, we talk about suicide stigmas and talk about how we met. If you are struggling with thoughts of suicide, please ca...

*Content Warning: This episode talks about suicide, suicide methods, and a personal story and descriptions regarding a suicide loss. Listener Discretion is Advised* This episode I share audio with my current partner as he shares his story with suicide loss. If you are struggling with thoughts of suicide, please call 911 if it is an emergency. If you are needing to speak to a crisis interventionist...

**CONTENT WARNING- This episode might be triggering for some listeners, discussion of suicide and details surrounding the event are mentioned. Listener discretion is advised This is part two of my EMDR deep dive. This is only my personal experience and not the experience, views, or opinions of others. I am not a licensed mental health care professional. The intent and purpose of this episode is to...

**Content Warning: This episode contains graphic material that may not be suitable for some listeners. Episode includes graphic details surrounding my late husbands suicide that can be unsettling or disturbing. Before I talk about certain content, I will let you know beforehand- so you can fast forward if needed I'm baaaaaaack!!! I'm so excited to be back recording and share my mental heal...

The first episode of Season 2, all about my drug addiction. The beginning of my story, and a glimpse of "Pat's Plate."

This episode is wrapping up some thoughts and reflections from my first three episodes on the topic of Suicide Awareness.  Some thoughts I had on my heart to share- and a sneak peak in my next months episodes regarding Substance Abuse Awareness Month. Diving into my addiction, the stigmas, stories from friends and family members. Talking about the pathways to recovery and how I have managed t...

Content Warning for audio regarding suicidal ideation. Please use listener discretion- this episode contains audio clips regarding suicide. Sharing the perspective of being married to someone who completed suicide that involved every risk factor and warning sign. If you, or someone you love is suicidal, please reach out to the National Suicide Crisis Line by calling or texting- 988. Sources: Risks...

**CONTENT WARNING- Possible disturbing topics involving suicide with detailed events. Includes real audio of myself and my daughter, that might be upsetting for some listeners. Discretion is advised. This episode continues from Episode 1- "The Call" where I recall events a week after my late husband's death- If you or someone you know is having thoughts of suicide please reach out to the National...

Welcome to my Podcast!  I am so excited to share my stories and my mental health journey with you. Topics range from mental health, addiction, domestic violence, sobriety and more! Introduction Episode: Suicide Hotline: 988 If you or anyone you care about is having suicidal thoughts- please reach out by texting or calling the National Suicide and Crisis Lifeline; Hours available 24/7.