ICUE&MESH

It's my third day out of the IOP and out of their informal aversion therapy. They're still calling me they're still trying to pick me up in the van. And I am ignoring them.

The antidote to low self-esteem and grandiosity.

Why I believe we must have gratitude.

Join me in prayer as my struggle with my crush continues and I attempt to turn it over to my higher power. This is my own experience strength and hope.

Most people change their phone numbers or shut down their voicemails or their phones to keep active phone harassment out. But there is a new kind of harassment going on and it's called soft ghosting and in my opinion it isn't so soft because the feeling that it evokes is not a soft feeling at all. It's a very hurtful burning feeling: it makes the second guess ourselves and question our self worth...

Struggling to end an interaction that never should have been. (Religion mentioned) You can look up my other podcast if you want hopefully there's more information there about what's been going on. https://open.spotify.com/show/...

Repeatedly people use the argument about Sodom and Gomorrah to condemn lgbtq+ people. And it is for that reason that I and many others feel like we have to be silent about being lgbtq+. It's still permeating in our society and it's still leaking into my therapy program that I go to. At least two clients openly in group have said that they "don't want to be around those people; they're amoral..." ....

I'm grateful to the 12th step programs in the United States and around the world, especially Alcoholics Anonymous. I truly believe that I cannot deal with my problem alone. I need a power greater than myself. I need other people going through this. I need shared experience strength and hope right now. Would you like that? This is my idea for a 12-step program. With the help of AI, and the inspirat...

They may have hugged you, they may have told you they loved you, they may have told you that you brightened their day, the meet and greet may have been wonderful and starry, the phone date may have promised to follow up phone call. In my case none of that happened. There was a meet and greet. There was a phone date. There were hugs and positive regards. But they always fell apart. I'm still left w...

It's too late now to save this friendship. Here's why. (I describe a synopsis of 9 months of my struggle to try, in vain, to make a friendship work) I believe that it's one of those things where we're both right and both wrong.

For the millionth time I've attempted to detach from her and she still got in yesterday and today ignored me again. I share some more of my struggle and keep hoping that I find my way out. For more information please refer to the videos before this one. Turquoise

Kamala Harris may divert votes back to Democrats support. I'm voting for Green. Beware --- both candidates sound good against Trump dictatorship, but one is noncorporate. Guess who?

I did another episode this morning and I'm going to call it part 1. Please refer to that one before you watch this one. This is part 2. "Seeing them as they are", not seeing them with a limerent idea of them.

I walk myself and anyone interested through a meditation to deal with recovery from limerence. This is my own personal walkthrough.

Two weeks ago I thought I had said goodbye to Olga for good with one last text. But since she's still there every day, and since one of the counselors set us up, as I had discovered he had been doing for months with us, for those weeks past I've had to run into her and deal with more up and down. I talked about how I felt, what I experienced during those past couple weeks, and what I am now planni...

I'm struggling with the boundary between my mental illness and reality right now. Because I'm living in a world full of mental illness too. I talk about my current issues, past and present diagnoses, more experience as a peer with mental illness.

You are perfectly welcome to go on my old podcast (s). It looks like I will be on here from now on because one of the podcast platforms is not user friendly and the other one is limiting me to only one episode a month for free. Peace everyone.

I share my own experience with the situation where I have to bow to the absurd. Please refer to other episodes about how I am handling things at my IOP. I am being covertly mistreated there. But I need the program right now I'm not ready to leave..

The result was the loss of a friendship. By the time I got the information necessary to understand someone, I had had to end the friendship.

I talk about the concept of hitting a "restore button" in our brains. I think about going back to February 10th when Olga, my limerent interest, asked if she could call me again after our initial phone date that day. Her not calling me the next day spoke volumes and I should have listened.

Closure is exactly what it is. It's closure. It's not wishful thinking. I sent Olga one last text and walked away. I may have to run into her when I'm checking the group posts at IOP because the posting is in the patio where she sometimes still sits for her lunch. But I am making a very big effort to do no contact from now on because of the way she acted last Thursday. That was the deal-breaker th...

Falling over and over again with Olga. When this time I thought she reached out to me. So I reached back and fell again.

I practice five modules of mental wellness and I'm careful to avoid the shadow sides of each module. This episode is about how I explained that. Is our mental wellness process authentic or are we practicing the shadow modules: extremism, perfectionism, entitlement, spiritual bypass, health anxiety or health extremism? Let's be sure that we are practicing authentic modules of mental wellness: purpo...