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In this bonus episode, Emmy sits down with John Hill to discuss his journey of recovery and how living a double life often reflects a refusal to acknowledge a problem with consumption. John also shares his coming-out story and reflects on how the opinions of others should not define our sense of self. Through this deep, heartfelt, and at times lighthearted conversation, we are all reminded that ma...

Things seem to be improving for Emmy—she attends her 12-step meetings and helps others through acts of service. While supporting a newcomer on her road to recovery, Emmy faces one of her biggest challenges yet. After eight years of sobriety, will Emmy be able to stay steady on her own journey?   CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You...

As Emmy recovers from surgery and gains clarity through sobriety, she realizes that her true self is calling. After taking small steps, she discovers herself and decides to transition to fully embrace who she has always been.   CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence,...

After a new heartbreak, Emmy decides to pursue her dream and move to L.A. On her road to recovery, she finds a skeleton in the closet: her relationship with her body. In a culture where society constantly tells us that being overweight is wrong, she makes a life-changing decision.   CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some...

Emmy finally talks to someone she hurt. In this special episode, Emmy has a conversation with her close friend Cynthia, who shares why she was deeply hurt by Emmy on one of her birthdays and how she realized Emmy had a serious problem with alcohol. After drifting apart for a long time, could this esteemable act help heal their friendship?   CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may n...

As part of her recovery process, Emmy is required to perform esteemable acts. This means helping others with small things, but most importantly, working to heal past relationships. She learns to understand that people who hurt her, like her mother, deserve compassion, while also recognizing that she must be accountable for the harm she has caused.   CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content t...

Little by little, Emmy starts to gain confidence in her recovery—until someone new appears in her life, only to break her heart. This results in a new stumble in the process. But not everything is lost; this time, she has a strong community willing to help her heal from the heartbreak without falling into relapse.   CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate f...

After literally driving through a fire, Emmy is ready to fully commit to her journey to sobriety. She attends 12-step meetings, begins making friends, and learns to rely on people who genuinely want to help her. Doing the work is hard, but Emmy is finally ready to take it on.   CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some diff...

Emmy relapses. A fight with someone very close pushes her to the edge, and she starts drinking again. Emmy wants to regain control, but it's harder this time. Until she receives a message from the universe, renewing her hope for recovery.   CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domest...

Emmy ends up in rehab almost by accident. She was looking for a place to escape her problems rather than face them head-on. And while she isn't making bad decisions, the harsh reality is that Emmy is not yet ready to fully commit to the steps needed to improve her life.   CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult...

Emmy finally recognizes her problem with alcohol and begins a long journey toward recovery. The biggest challenge? Accepting that she needs to truly believe in the process. And most importantly, Emmy needs to start trusting herself. After spending many years in the dark, is she ready to begin this journey?   CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audienc...

Emmy is in denial: she's consuming more, and conflicts with friends and coworkers are starting to surface. Still, Emmy is convinced that people are just overreacting—until she can no longer hold everything together and loses control of it all.   CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug ab...

After 16 years of sobriety, Emmy Olea is ready to retrace the winding road that led her to become the person she is today. Her journey with alcohol began at a young age. Caught between the conflicting desires ands demands of adolescence, she starts living a double life. Eventually, it all began to unravel as she realizes that maintaining this facade is unsustainable.   CONTENT WARNING: This p...

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In this bonus episode, Emmy answers questions from listeners. She shares her thoughts about identity, her transition, and the latest in her love life. CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised. RESOURCES: ...

Monica and Emmy have been friends since high school. And Monica was the first person Emmy told about her transition. In this bonus episode, they'll discuss Emmy's life and family. CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discr...

Emmy was a sibling and then a parent to Andrea, her younger sister. In this bonus episode, Emmy sits down with Andrea to reflect on their mom, Emmy's time as a parent, her addiction, and their family. CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual as...

Emmy decides to reach back out to Hilda. She doesn't expect her to get clean. But a sudden death in the family is the catalyst that drives Hilda to change. CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised. RESOUR...

Emmy is under a lot of pressure, and she starts partying to let off steam. Then she starts partying more - and more. Soon, she realizes she has a lot more in common with her mom than she'd care to admit. CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual...

Things have gotten really bad with Emmy's family. She's trying to stay away, but now, her siblings are at risk. So she decides to get involved again - to save her family. CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is...

Having spent all the family's money, Hilda ends up with her kids in a roach-filled motel. Emmy is tired of the chaos, and she starts to distance herself from the family. CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is a...

Hilda's addiction really takes off. With Emmy along for the ride, she's frequenting a Mexican restaurant along the border that's home to junkies and hustlers like her. There, she meets the love of her life. CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sex...

Freshly divorced, Hilda begins a string of relationships - including one that brings her and Emmy to a Mormon farm in rural Utah. CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised. RESOURCES: There’s a lot of diff...

Emmy briefly disappeared as a kid. In trying to figure out what happened, she uncovers something else: the ongoing battle between the two women that raised her. CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised. R...

Young love feels like it'll last forever - until it doesn't. Emmy and Hilda unpack the end of her marriage to Neto, and the beginning of a new love. CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised. RESOURCES: Th...