recovered-ish with chloe cox

Episode Description I've been putting this episode off for months, honestly because I've been scared to record it. I'm about to have a daughter, and ending the cycle of eating disorders in my family is one of the most important things to me. In this one I'm sharing where my head is at — what I used to think I had to be for her, what I actually believe now, and the specific thin...

Episode Description Almost twelve years into recovery, and a lot of what I once held as non-negotiable has shifted. Some of it through my own healing, some of it through years of sitting across from clients. In this episode I'm walking through six things I used to believe about eating disorder recovery and now think differently about: exercise, being "recovered," harm reduction, int...

Episode Description We talk about eating disorders in labs and vitals and weight. But when I look back at mine, the physical stuff was never the thing that woke me up. What actually got me was everything else it took — the dinners I sat through without being there, the party I ran away from, the year in New York where I never once let myself have a bagel, the photo of my nana and my sisters that I...

Episode Description Almost twelve years into recovery and body image is still hard for me sometimes. Pregnancy has made it harder. In this episode I'm getting honest about where I actually am with it — and why "just be grateful for your body" has never been the thing that helps. I walk through a session of my own EMDR therapy, tracing my body image back to a memory from when I was a...

Episode Description Part three — the final installment of the listener Q&A before I head out on maternity leave. This one covers the long game of recovery: whether it's possible after decades, whether you'll always live with it in some capacity, relapse guilt, missing the control the eating disorder gave you, the physical side effects nobody warns you about, and how you actually know...

Episode Description Part two of the listener Q&A. You sent in your questions and I'm answering them honestly. This one covers body image and worth, food guilt, figuring out whether a decision is coming from you or the eating disorder, navigating friends who say triggering things, opening up to people you've hidden this from, and what to do if a treatment team isn't accessible to...

Episode Description This is a replay of one of the most-listened-to episodes of recovered-ish. I'm taking the week off to prep for maternity leave, so no new episode this week — but this one is worth revisiting, especially if you're new here. One of the most common questions I get — from clients, from Instagram, from people deep in the trenches of recovery — is this: does the eating diso...

Episode Description You sent in your questions and I'm answering them — honestly.  This is part one of a two-part listener Q&A covering some of the most common and most loaded questions I get about eating disorder recovery. We're getting into ambivalence, finding your why, the "not sick enough" myth, comparison, extreme hunger, lost hunger cues, and how to sit with the pani...

Episode Description If you've been doing all the things — therapy, dietician, meal plan — and still feel like you're spinning your wheels, this episode is for you. In this episode I'm sharing a practical, honest list of things to try when eating disorder recovery feels stuck. These are the gaps I've seen in standard treatment models, the things that have made the biggest differ...

Episode Description Nobody talks about this part. But it's real, it's common, and it doesn't mean you're doing recovery wrong. In this episode I'm getting into what it actually means when you miss your eating disorder — why it happens, why it makes complete sense, and what to do with that feeling when it shows up. In This Episode: Why missing your eating disorder doesn&apo...

Episode Description This is the episode I've been asked for since the beginning of this podcast — and the one I never thought I'd actually record. Dating in eating disorder recovery is complicated in ways nobody really talks about. The body image stuff. The intimacy stuff. The validation-seeking that can look a lot like the disorder wearing a different mask. And eventually finding someon...

Episode Description This one was unplanned. My son was in the hospital, life threw a curveball, and I had twenty minutes between sessions to record something real. So that's what this is. In this episode I'm sharing something I've never talked about on the podcast before — and getting honest about what life after recovery actually looks like. Not the highlight reel. The real version...

Episode Description If you've ever thought "I can't do this anymore" or "I just want my life to stop being about recovery" — this episode is for you. In this episode I'm breaking down the difference between recovery burnout and actually outgrowing your eating disorder, because they can feel almost identical from the inside — and they require completely different...

Episode Description You sent in your questions and I'm answering them — honestly, not clinically. This is the real-life picture, not the textbook one. In this episode I'm getting into some of the most common and most loaded questions I receive from people in eating disorder recovery — from whether to look at the scale in treatment, to what to say when someone comments on your weight, to...

Episode Description It feels strange to say, but it's true: my eating disorder taught me things that have actually added to my life. Not the behaviors. Not the rules. But real, paradoxical lessons that I've carried with me into recovery and into the rest of my life. In this episode I'm sharing a casual list of the unexpected things I learned through my eating disorder — about my bod...

Episode Description I used to think pregnancy would give me a break from my eating disorder. That the permission to gain weight, to nourish my baby, would make it all feel easy. That's not quite how it went. In this episode I'm getting honest about what body changes in pregnancy actually feel like when you have an eating disorder history — the first trimester appetite chaos, the body dys...

Episode Description Travel is one of the hardest things you can do in eating disorder recovery. New foods, broken routines, different meal times, swimsuits, pictures — it's a lot. And nobody really talks about how to actually get through it. In this episode I'm sharing my honest survival guide for traveling in ED recovery — from what it looked like when I was deep in my disorder on a fam...

One of the biggest blocks in fully recovering from an eating disorder isn't the food. It's identity. In this episode I'm getting into something I've been circling around for a while but never done a full deep dive into — the way an eating disorder becomes a mask, a persona, a way of being seen in the world. And why letting go of it can feel terrifying even when you desperately...

Episode Description Short answer: yes. Long answer: it's complicated, it takes time, and it definitely doesn't happen the way most people think it does. In this episode I'm getting into my own journey from restriction, to meal plan, to eventually finding something that actually feels like food freedom — and what every stage of that actually looked like. Including the messy middle, t...

You asked, I answered. I get so many DMs and comments with really good recovery questions that deserve more than a quick reply — so this week I'm doing a rapid fire Q&A covering some of the most common and most important ones I've received. We're getting into comparison, quasi-recovery, fear of weight gain, social eating, family dynamics, book recommendations, and more. This one...

Back by popular demand — we're back in the journals. In this episode I'm reading more entries from my eating disorder treatment diaries. These are unfiltered, verbatim entries from residential, PHP, and IOP — the rawest, most honest documentation of what recovery actually looked like from the inside. This one goes to some dark places. There are entries about missing the disorder, about f...

Episode Description Last week's episode sparked a lot of conversation online. I posted a clip about eating disorder recovery in the ozempic era and the comments absolutely exploded — and it got me thinking about something I've been wanting to talk about for a while. The thoughts I had in my eating disorder that I'm not proud of. The ones that would probably get me canceled if I post...

One of the most common questions I get — from clients, from my own lived experience, from people who have spent years wondering — is this: why me? Why did I get an eating disorder when the people around me didn't? In this episode I'm getting into the real answer. Not the oversimplified version. The actual, nuanced, deeply personal answer — using my own story, my clinical experience, and...

Episode Description First things first — I have some news. Big news. News that explains a lot of the cryptic, tired, off-kilter energy you've been picking up on these last few weeks. I'm pregnant. Baby number two is on the way and she is a girl. But after that announcement, we're getting into something I've been genuinely fired up about — because right now, in 2026, I believe t...

Honest confession: my body image has been pretty rough lately. And yes, I know — I'm a recovered eating disorder therapist who just last week talked about how quiet my ED voice has gotten. So what gives? In this episode I'm getting real about what bad body image actually looks like for me now, 11 years into recovery. How it's different from the eating disorder voice. What body dysmo...