Journey to Change

Too often we say the words I love you yet do everything that proves otherwise. Idk if you can love someone yet intentionally hurt them. And do we love ourselves or not, since we allow ourselves to be done so badly by others? This world needs help, just too much ugly in it.

I think that I feel too much sometimes and definitely can allow it to linger for longer than it should.

Sometimes it’s a conversation, a video I see, a random person on the street etc.. I just get to thinking about a lot of things in life. One word, one move, a hello or a smile can change everything for someone.

We all have them, but sometimes ignore them.

What does any of it mean anymore?? Who are they? What is it? What if you found out none of what you believed was true? What if it is? When it comes to our spiritual needs, is it our responsibility, the church’s, our circle’s? I’d say it’s a combination of all of these things.

Don’t you? Or do you continue on and on and on the same way until you die? You start saying no, you stop living dollar to dollar, you change your habits. Some people won’t understand this way of life… it can go on for generations if allowed to.

Just keeping it real, should be all grown folks here. It was sex for me first unwillingly but still. Early activation led to a life full of misconceptions about what love is. It is hard to reprogram your mind at such a late stage in life. I know that I want to be able to do love without feeling like it has to be physical to be meaningful. Doing love can consist of soooo many things. I know a lot o...

Experienced something this morning that had me realizing I’ve made more progress on my journey. There’s been a couple of other things, but today almost had me go backwards a bit. Then I was like why freak out? There’s always a solution to a problem, and it’ll either be solved or something within us will be changed so that we view things differently and react accordingly. I had to laugh at myself b...

Haha I was out doing something that I should have done a long time ago, and I thought why did I wait so long? Why put off something that will be a weight off of my shoulders? There are some things that will be ok to leave for a bit, but when it comes to your goals you gotta go on and do it! No excuses. If you’re broke I get that, but if there’s really no reason not to do it, then just do it.

How is your delivery of speech? Do people feel attacked when you speak to them? I’ve been told that about myself, and it’s still something I’m working on. I don’t ever want to come across as self righteous or hateful. I’m not trying to talk as if I’m better than anyone. With that being said, there may still be people who say this about me no matter what. I have to learn not to allow it to affect m...

What will you do differently this year?

I was listening to one of my favorite artists and heard her song about not being ready and I thought to myself it resonates now like it did before. The only thing is that before I knew I wasn’t ready and I did things anyway, so here I am a year later ready. there will be people who will try to push you into being ready because it serves their purpose but make sure that when you’re walking into som...

The work we must do on ourselves to get to where we want/need to be.. Is it really that hard? We can be sooo impatient. But the wait is with it, the reward is bigger.

What do you allow in that influences what you do? What you say? Everything we watch, and everything we listen to matters. One thing I heard in a song is that the lie is often the loudest.

What do we do in the midst of trial? Do we ask God to remove it? Change it? Or do we ask Him to change us, to help us see or learn what we need to from the trial?

You know, God, the creator of all. The one who knows us inside and out. Someone said that it could be luck when good things happen for us. I don’t believe in luck, I believe in blessings. And when we’re brought out of things that we KNOW we didn’t have the strength to do on our own, it had to be God.

Too often we put ourselves on the back burner for EVERYONE and EVERYTHING else. How do we show up for ourselves? Because if we’re not good, we can’t take care of anyone else. Our entire being needs to be taken care of; mental health, spiritual health, emotional health. In what way are you doing this?

Why do we allow other people to affect the way that we view ourselves? They stop doing what they used to do, we feel them getting distant, they change up, then we instantly start doubting ourselves. Maybe it’s us, depending on what we’ve been doing, if we haven’t been doing right, or, perhaps they have their own issues and we’re on the receiving end of their coping mechanisms. Healthy people know...

We all do not believe the same, and it’s not my place to convince you of anything. However, my belief is that we ALL will have a judgment day at the end of this life. It won’t matter what color you are, what profession you worked, or what you acquired while here on earth. At the end of the day, we’re all human, and none of us are perfect, not even close. We all have some type of flaw, issue, wound...

What we wear, or that bumper sticker on our car is not a true representation of our walk with Christ. The transformation from within, of our hearts, our minds, our spirit will be reflected in the way we live. Our speech, our treatment of others, and our attitudes are an example of what others will look at if we claim a relationship with the Lord. (I could not stop the recording at the end! 😆)

(Excuse the noise, the dogs want to do their own thing right in the middle of what I’m trying to do) Whew! Last year I planned to do things differently than the year before and I did! Not of my own doing though, it was a forced thing. This year, I am choosing of my own accord to do this next year different, better, applying what I know so that it is used and not just sitting within me. We all have...

I have recently been struggling a little with my beliefs and faith. But yesterday I had a moment that reminded me of how good God is. And I decided that I’m done allowing things to create doubt in my mind. At the end of my life, if what I believe turns out to be untrue, what did I lose? But oh man, if it turns out to be true, I will have gained more than I could ever imagine.

Sometimes we’re too early and sometimes we’re too late. Sometimes we speak just to be heard and not because we have something to say. Silence is best until you have the latter. This is what I am learning and hope that I continue to get better with it. The world will try to keep you oppressed, suppressed, and depressed until you fit what they want. Do it afraid, step outside of the box.

I am often inspired by others podcasts and it leads me to look at things in my life. When it comes to our time, we can waste a lot of it in all of the wrong places. Depending on how old you are, you may look at time differently. I’m older so for me it’s like I’ve already done my dumb stuff, wasted time and I haven’t really done anything worthwhile, so what do I want to do with the time that I have...

To turn the other cheek… ok so I am human and I get frustrated by other drivers/people. I’m sure they get frustrated by me when I drive like the grandma I am haha.