The Tigerlili Podcast

Li Li reflects on her progress after a year of medication, expressing her goal of achieving stability and independence from medication through the power of daily activities. She shares her current work situation at the bookstore, acknowledging the positive impact it has had on her coping skills and problem-solving abilities. Li Li discusses her reduced reliance on psychiatric consultations and her...

Li Li describes her decision to seek part-time employment as a means of gaining financial independence and combating her loneliness. She shares her initial anxieties and self-doubt about her ability to work due to her depression and panic attacks. Li Li details her experience working at a bookstore, highlighting the therapeutic benefits of structure, routine, and a sense of control. She reflects o...

Li Li delves into her struggle to redefine success outside the academic context, highlighting the sense of loss and disorientation she felt after leaving university. She acknowledges the difficulty of accepting that reality often does not align with our expectations, particularly during periods of depression. Li Li emphasizes the importance of seeing things as they are, rather than clinging to unr...

Li Li explores the solace she found in visiting bookstores, describing the calming atmosphere and the joy of reconnecting with her love of reading. She shares her initial sadness upon realizing how much she had missed out on due to her focus on achievement. Li Li recounts the gradual shift from sadness to curiosity and the eventual return of her ability to concentrate and read, highlighting the in...

Li Li highlights the importance of small steps in recovery and encourages listeners to engage in simple activities outside their homes, such as visiting supermarkets. She describes how observing other people going about their lives helped her realize that her world was not ending and offered a sense of hope. Li Li emphasizes the healing power of connecting with the outside world, whether through f...

Li Li describes the gradual stabilization of her medication's side effects, particularly the improvement in her sleep patterns after two to three months. She details the debilitating impact of insomnia on her daily life and the loneliness she felt during this time. With improved sleep, Li Li experiences a reduction in anxiety and emotional distress, allowing her to engage in activities like re...

Li Li explores the emotional blunting she experienced as a side effect of antidepressants, leading to an identity crisis and feelings of shame and frustration. Despite her background in psychology, Li Li grapples with the stigma surrounding medication and the perception of weakness associated with taking it. She shares her personal struggle with self-blame and acknowledges that this stigma prevent...

Li Li describes the period of intense suicidal ideations she experienced after starting medication. She acknowledges the support of her boyfriend who came to her aid during this difficult time. Li Li emphasizes the importance of validating feelings of sadness and numbness, regardless of external circumstances. She reflects on the impact of her experiences, highlighting the universality of fragilit...

Li Li discusses the events that led her to seek psychiatric help, including the death of her grandfather, moving to a new state, and the suicide of a close friend. She details her symptoms, which included intense anxiety, nightmares, and difficulty leaving her room. Li Li recounts her initial experiences with antidepressants, including the underestimated side effects of Lexapro and subsequent tria...

In this episode, Li Li opens up about her journey with antidepressants during a challenging time of grief and anxiety. She shares the difficulties of navigating side effects, the trial-and-error process of finding the right medication, and the invaluable role of supportive relationships. With honesty and empathy, Li Li reminds listeners that recovery isn't linear and highlights the importance...

Is someone truly gone after they passed away? Or are they more alive in us after death?

My grandmother was schizophrenice, and here is my first ever guest, my dad.

23 hours after his last breath. Curated with tears and a broken heart, Li Li.