The Innermost Ramblings of Fiona

Poetry weaves into and through every aspect of my life! I write, to make sense of the world for myself. I seek to use words for the things that I feel! One of the lines of my poems — ‘I don’t care about poetry but I can’t live without all it gives me!’ In February I was honoured to share a set of Poetry at Soeak Hear! I recorded the set, and this is IT! To listen to poetry only — JUMP TO — 9:13min...

It’s been a while since I’ve Podcasted — in complete honesty I’ve felt like me, who I am, as I am has been too much, too weird, not how others around me are…and I’ve shrunk. And that’s shifting — so here we are! I do not promise anything more regular than every 6 months, haha, but today feels like something I wanna take up space with and share!! In the true essence of this being voice memos of my...

I was a completely different human when I started The Innermost Ramblings of Fiona. This podcast has always, and only ever been me speaking about the experience I’m having in any given moment. Which means it changed- as I change. As I evolve. This podcast is me my inner ramblings, the way that I process my current experience. I listen to past episodes and do not recognise parts of myself. I and a...

Let the rambling begin (**— if you wanna skip past the announcements…head to about 16minutes in!) A whole bunch of reflecting on connection, balance, and creating a life that allows me to experience community and connection that doesn’t overwhelm my body! How healing it is to start feeling— as an embodied sense — what it feels like IN MY BODY as myself, without effort if! Just as I am! As I am! Co...

This episode is brought to you by my niece WITH a big ol’ shoutout to Dancing Room and my DR homies! This episode is FOR YOU! Between the two of you (niece and DR Crew) I am, without a doubt, changed AND more fully myself! I’ve been clowning for many many years. I just clowned for the local Christmas Pageant — and felt pretty disconnected! But from this disconnection all of these ramblings have fl...

Episode 30 — Touch as Connection Blood. Touch. Self Exploration. Embodiment. Firstly — 30 EPISODES This is worthy of acknowledgment- thirty! Aaaaannnd secondly — heads up that this episode explores subjects that are considered explicit! My own blood and the healing I’ve experienced And am still exploring and wanting to embody! My body, her desires and how I’m experiencing the deep desire to connec...

Some raw reflections on how photography shoots can be such healing things. Seriously…every photoshoot I’ve been a part of— especially the ones where I’ve been on the side of the camera where I’m the subject— not my usual position but one I’m coming to enjoy and embody more and more- has healed me deeply, changed me, allowed me to witness and see myself so differently! More deeply! More fully! Offe...

It’s happening in real time; REAL TIME y’all — as in a recorded this yesterday and im releasing it…today! (Lately it’s taken about a month from record time to release time!) If you do hear this between now and tomorrow…I talk about @the_embodied_space (aka meeeee!) hosting a New Moon Cacao Ceremony, and you’re invited! Yeww! — check the event details here! https://events.humanitix.com/new-moon-cac...

I’m doing — or was beginning a business course when I recorded this way back in September! This has been a gift, a container helping me believe in the gifts that I have to offer the world AND giving me the actual structure and container to help me actually make it a thing in the real world with awareness of finances! Check me out — The Embodied Space Things are moving and shaking! Listen on for th...

Whaaaat!? I have a backlog of episodes to release! Listening back to this episode that I recorded BAKC IN AUGUST…has been such an invitation of reflection and realising I have changed and come so far, grown in so many ways! Offt!! Touching on new housemates who I love; finding boundaries and generosity; the definition of virginity AND pain and how I experience pain in my body! (Among other rambles...

A pondering check in about show notes and how I create these for this here podcast! Do people even read them!? — and are they something I want to keep creating or can I be more concise with them!? My time management and the stories and voices I have in my head around and about what I ACHIEVE in a day! - value and validating myself as a human seperate to what I achieve… So often I need a hug. And t...

I’m trialing a new format and amount of episode notes! Less, basically. Less is more right!? Let the title invite and entice you to follow your curiosity, if of course it does! Haha! Find me — @the_innermost_ramblings @the_embodied_space @iamfiona__

Y’all, so much gratitude for the space and places I’ve walked, for the things I’ve been experiencing. I recorded this voice memo way back in June, so it’s been a while between recording and releasing! But it’s so relevant! And I love getting to reflect on where I’ve come from. To feel the gratitude all over again. So much gratitude! For the inspiring, beautiful people in my life. For the amazing s...

What is it to feel a full bodied yes, or a no in my body and the idiosyncrasies that each of these experiences feel like! Forcing a yes, when it’s actually a no, DRAINS me. The ‘pendulum’ of experience, and the ambivalent attachment style. Leaning out or leaning in. My sense of self actually lives in the middle! I need people to help know who I am, but I also need the balance of knowing who I am b...

Well, here I am being the most raw I have ever been to date! When I recorded this episode I was a waif, a gypsy floating around on the floor of friends! And, surprisingly, this has been what I needed, so I could be around community, and being in community has meant I’ve been held and seen in ways that have allowed me to begin to birth more of myself! My niece’s 2nd birthday party — F*ck this girl...

Episode 20 — A Ramble of Celebration Twenty episodes! Like what!? Can we just take a minute to c e l e b r a t e that I have been rambling for 20 (at least cause I haven’t released all the things I’ve recorded!) episodes! Whaaatt!? Celebration is a bit of a theme in this episode! The edge of leaning into celebration myself and my achievements, without dipping into conceit or arrogance. And I’m, 20...

Landing more and more in my own self expression, my own truth, my own taking up space! My own permission to just. be. me. And the joy that brings me, the freedom! Finding more and more of my edges…AND going there, leaning in, letting myself go there and ask questions, to ask for my wants and needs to be met! I went to town for the first time EVER…and this is me rambling about all the things before...

I recorded this over a month ago! It’s nice to check in and really realise the way in which I’ve experienced these edges and expanded, continue to expand! That these thoughts and explorations and parts of myself have been the FOUNDATION for launching me into the here and now! Join me in the car as I ponder… What it is to be seen, witnessed as I am AND simultaneously called higher into my greatness...

How do I stay on the edges of my comfort zone!? — cause WHERE and HOW how I wanna live more and more! And I think, connection builds on itself! Ad I lean into places of connection, I learn what is possible, through the experiencing it! Intimacy is an energy. An energy of Connection. One of the expressions of connection. Touch in a place of being held emotionally and energetically is empowering, I...

I forget myself, who I am to myself, when I’m not in tribe. Which makes it hard for me to know what I want or need… I don’t realise how disconnected I am from my truth when I am disconnected from people; community; tribe! Don’t realise how disconnected I am FROM myself without the mirror of others. When entering back into community I have so much resistance to being welcomed with a hug! And the mo...

What is rest!? Is it really any different to living in my body and following the flow and direction that the energy is already moving in everyday life!? This is the gift of Covid, to be checking in and really listening to what my body wants and needs. Heads up— I cough a bit in this episode and it’s a bit LOUD in the ol’ ears! Desire is a body thing! — not a head thing, but my body knows and is al...

It has been a hot minute since my last podcast…I’ve been deep in process and integration mode. Last episode I was about to head off to HUMANITY IMMERSION, now I’m back; — the retreat left me cracked open and feeling so different…and I haven’t had words… Some gems I talk on in this episode— Goodbyes are not the world is coming to an end, just the world as I know it is ending, and that’s a portal to...

I’m about to head off on a 7 day Immersion/Retreat…and I am witnessing myself panic. And as I sit with this sense of panic…I realise this is old, the way I’ve lived for most of my life…and the way home to come home is through the panic. This is an exploration of all the parts of me coming up…wondering how to stay with what feels hard to be with. Mentioned in this episode- Humanity Retreat hosted b...

I’ve been doing these fear inventories (as found in Existential Kink) and discovering that the thing I think I’m afraid of, isn’t really ever the thing I’m actually afraid of. So that’s today’s ramble, my fear inventory on why I’m afraid to have fun! Mentioned in this episode- Fear Inventories as detailed in Existential Kink by Carolyn Elliott Find me — @the_innermost_ramblings @iamfiona__

Getting back to the way of my voice memo-ing — to honestly check in with myself and unpack what’s going on for me! With less need for answers and more space for exploration! I’ve been witnessing a feedback loop of busyness and wanting stillness, so this is me unpacking it, wondering at its protection, my terror and my authentic magic self and where she wants to come in and play! Oh and breath! Bre...