My Unconscious Mind

      ✨ Fragments of Me ✨ “And when I can’t find words in my chest, I let them fall as poems. Fragments of me, stitched in rhythm, waiting to be heard.”   Today’s ritual drifts into memory, silence, and the weight of dreams. A reminder: even in searching, you are still whole.

Music. A poet returns to their own words, reading pieces born from silence, pain and unburied dreams—opening wounds that refuse to silence the soul. From late-night heartbreak and whiskey-sipped memories to the quiet reset of a newborn's cry, these poems trace a fragile journey from grief toward rebirth and small, persistent hope. Honest and intimate, the episode explores love, delusion, resilienc...

This episode explores the brain as a vast, uncharted space and imagines building a living bridge to recover memories and recall dreams—allowing moments and loved ones to be brought back into the present without replacing grief. Through ideas on kinder technology, intentional dreaming, and resilience, the host invites listeners to breathe, hold their dreams tighter, and honor the fragments that mak...

🌧️ Restless America 🌧️ Episode 22 – September 17, 2025   America is storming outside. It’s raining—anger, grief, memory. A young man found hanging in Mississippi. History repeats. The storm refuses to pass.   But even in the rain, we breathe. Even in the storm, we speak. Even in the weight of truth, we rise.   🎙️ My Unconscious Mind: Morning Rituals Now streaming — Episode 22.   #MyUnconsciousMind...

A short guided meditation that blends breathwork, memory, and imagination — urging listeners to balance their dreams with a steady reason rooted in history. The episode honors B.B. King and the four girls lost in the 1963 Birmingham church bombing while inviting quiet reflection and poetic renewal. Close your eyes, breathe with intention, and carry both your dream and your reason into the day: inh...

This episode explores the eyes as portals to the soul — intimate, revealing, and capable of connecting two people without words. It reflects on how our gaze carries memories, wounds, love, and truth. It also pays solemn tribute to history, remembering the four children killed in the 1963 16th Street Baptist Church bombing and the early gatherings of Black leaders, urging listeners to look deeply,...

Slow down and breathe: a short, calming reminder that you don't have to prove yourself to anyone. The episode encourages rest, authenticity, and the quiet strength found in the pause between life’s storms. It also reflects on the changing memory of 9/11, warning that forgetting lessons of the past weakens the future and urging us to carry truth forward. Inhale strength, exhale love — you are enoug...

This episode is a passionate plea to resist selective outrage and to honor the lives often overlooked—children and victims at home and abroad—by speaking their names and refusing silence. It argues that words hold power: naming keeps memory and justice alive, and true compassion and freedom require consistent outrage and justice for all.

Some mornings feel blank — heavy with fog and no spark to move you. This episode explores how emptiness can be a beginning, using historical moments like the Negro League all-star game in 1933 and desegregation struggles in 1963 to remind listeners that progress often meets resistance. The host encourages small steps, memory as accountability, and seeing blankness as possibility rather than defeat...

Start your day with a gentle reminder that rising late is still rising: breathe in new chances and exhale yesterday’s weight. This episode blends a calming morning ritual and poetry with powerful September 9th history — the Stono Rebellion (1739), Carter G. Woodson’s founding (1915), and Dr. Ossian Sweet’s stand (1925) — to remind listeners of resilience, courage, and the seeds we plant. Even when...

This episode explores a recurring childhood dream of being abandoned, and how those vivid experiences shape adult life. The speaker examines the unconscious memories that turn pain into patterns, and shares how creativity and reflection became tools for healing. Ultimately, the episode reframes the dream: it’s not only a wound but also proof of survival—an invitation to recognize resilience and ke...

In this episode, the narrator drifts into a moonlit void where silence and thoughts become visible. As clouds veil the moon and the unconscious unfolds, inner voices—restless, dreamy, cocky, doubtful—surface and are confronted. The void becomes a revealing space: a canvas and a wound that grants permission to be authentic rather than perfect. By the end, the narrator rises transformed, carrying a...

At 4 a.m., restless thoughts and quiet determination meet. This episode reflects on moments of courage from history—Elizabeth Eckford, the 1875 voters in Clinton, Louis Latimer—and connects them to the present-day struggle to rise above silence and lack of support. It’s a meditation on resilience: walking alone, inventing light, refusing to be boxed in by others’ expectations. A short, inspiring r...

Before the sunrise, breathe and let go of yesterday. This episode explores the indestructible truth of our history, reminding listeners that memory and legacy live within us—unchangeable by politics or time. Through the story of Frederick Douglass' escape and a call to reclaim ancestral truth, the host invites you to dig deep into your unconscious and honor the truths that cannot be erased.

Before the sounds of traffic and the deadlines of the day, this episode guides you inward to the vastness of your unconscious. Drawing on ancient sky wisdom and quiet ritual, it invites you to breathe, imagine your thoughts as stars, and remember the intimate connection between your soul and the cosmos. Through gentle reflection and poetic imagery, you are encouraged to dig deep, name your inner c...

Before the rush, this episode guides you to breathe, release the weight of yesterday, and remember that your worth is not defined by labor. It blends a calm morning ritual with James Baldwin’s call to create your own place and step into who you are becoming. Rooted in history — from Bob Moses to the Bedford Hills uprising — the episode reminds us that rest is resistance, joy is necessary, and coll...

Host DeMarcus Holder blends music, personal reflection, and historical moments from August 28 — including Emmett Till, MLK’s "I Have a Dream," Jackie Robinson, and Civil War memories — to invite listeners into the unconscious mind and reclaim purpose. Through short historical vignettes and a gentle call to rediscover childlike curiosity, this episode remembers the past, honors sacrifice, and encou...

“Blood and Blossom” is a poetic reflection that ties history, grief, and resilience together, showing how pain and beauty coexist in the Black American experience. The episode centers on the 1955 murder of Emmett Till and his mother’s decision to leave his casket open, tracing how that grief transformed into protest and asking what we will plant today—story, promise, vote, or breath.

Today’s episode reflects on the 1920 certification of the 19th Amendment and the continuing barriers that stole voting rights from Black women, contrasted with the life of Katherine Johnson, a Black mathematician whose brilliance reshaped space exploration. The host shares a haunting dream of a slave ship and asks listeners to notice the internal echoes of history — the broken chains that still ra...

In this Monday morning episode "The Dreamer's Compass," the host reflects on dreams as guiding maps, weaving personal ritual with references to Martin Luther King Jr. and Langston Hughes to ask what direction your heart is pulling you. Through story and encouragement, the episode urges steady, step-by-step progress, reminding listeners to speak truth, follow their own compass, and keep moving forw...

In this Free Flow Friday episode the host blends a morning ritual with reflections on dreams, poetry, and the power of speaking out — anchored by Fannie Lou Hamer's August 27, 1964 testimony about being jailed and beaten for voting. The episode invites listeners to listen to their inner voices, honor personal and collective memory, and refuse silence in the face of injustice. Join the loose, heali...

Episode 4: Fate & Freedom On this day in 1831, Nat Turner rose against the impossible. In this episode, DeMarcus reflects on fate, dreams of endless doors, and the voices of Baldwin, Hughes, and Ethelbert Miller. Freedom isn’t given—it’s chosen. Step through your door.

A slow, guided morning ritual that invites listeners to pause the rush and face the inner battle within — through breath, honest reflection, and naming what’s hidden. Mixing personal reflection and historical context, the episode encourages small acts of survival each day: breathe, speak, and take one step forward.

In this episode of My Unconscious Mind the host explores how love and loss shape our mornings, dreams, and memories, blending a personal dream with reflections on legacy. Alongside a historical note about the August 19, 1991 Soviet coup attempt, the episode ties intimate ritual, vivid dreams, and the refusal of love to disappear even after loss.

  In the first episode of My Unconscious Mind: Morning Ritual, DeMarcus Holder explores what it means to awaken—individually and collectively. Honoring Marcus Garvey’s birthday and his call to self-determination, this episode blends history, dream imagery, reflections on today’s world, and futuristic visions of homes that breathe with us. Through poetry and ritual, “The Awakening” reminds us: the...