Manalizing

Today we’re talking to Paul Gehring — author of Scars You Can’t See — about the kind of pain men carry quietly. Paul is the guy everyone calls “the rock.” Husband. Father of four. Caregiver to a wife who has endured multiple open-heart surgeries and a life-altering stroke. From the outside, he looks steady. Inside? Anxiety. Panic attacks. Depression. Suicidal thoughts. Burnout. Shame. Self-medicat...

Adrain Brodeur’s story is one of faith forged in fire. From an abusive childhood to the edge of suicide at eight years old, he found redemption in the belief that his life still mattered — and in time, built a family rooted in love, trust, and faith. In this conversation, Adrain opens up about what it means to raise strong kids, stay married through every storm, and heal the past by choosing grace...

Description: In this unfiltered episode of Manalizing, Nate Shepardson lays bare the battle with pornography addiction and the deeper story beneath it—childhood shame, lost years, financial collapse, and the desperate search for connection. From blowing his net worth on a failed business to staring down unemployment and debt, Nate doesn’t flinch from the “hard.” But what emerges is not defeat—it’s...

He lost a home, broke his body, and nearly ended his life — but somewhere in the wreckage, he found God, purpose, and a new definition of being a man. Glenn Loveless has lived a life most men couldn’t survive. He’s a husband of 21 years, father of seven, former bodybuilder, and founder of Your Wingman Coaching. He’s also a man who has known pain — from losing a home in a lawsuit, to surviving a mo...

He’s a soldier, survivor, and straight shooter. But behind the humor and grit is a man who’s been choked, stabbed, and nearly took his own life — and lived to talk about it. 🎧 Episode Description Wyatt Black is the kind of man who’s seen both sides of the line — the uniformed world of order and the private world of chaos. A U.S. Army veteran and tech entrepreneur, Wyatt opens up about the night h...

He was a linebacker for the University of Utah — strong, driven, and unstoppable. But the real story started after the lights went out and life got quiet. 🎧 Episode Description Boo Anderson is a man who’s lived both power and pain. A former University of Utah linebacker and now a successful financial planner, husband, and father, Boo opens up about what happens when life doesn’t go according to t...

He’s buried six friends to suicide, lost his dad, his marriage, and nearly himself — but learned how to turn pain into peace and struggle into strength. Adam Sharp knows loss. In the past eight years, he’s buried six people to suicide, lost his dad unexpectedly, and watched his marriage of seventeen years dissolve. Yet somehow, he’s not bitter — he’s grounded, grateful, and wiser than most men you...

He looks like he has it all — talent, brains, creativity — but inside, he fights the same voices every man does: lazy, useless, not enough. Jeff Beck is the kind of guy who seems to have it all figured out. Brilliant, creative, successful — a photographer, game designer, podcast host, and comedian. But what happens when the man everyone admires starts wondering if any of it matters? In this honest...

He was homeless, drunk, and ready to end it all — until he learned that real freedom isn’t doing whatever you want. It’s becoming who you’re meant to be. At twenty-six, Sean Van Brent has already lived a lifetime. Marine veteran, roofer, and entrepreneur, he’s been homeless, addicted, and suicidal. He’s also been sober, successful, and at peace — and the gap between those two worlds came down to o...

Adam is an unassuming veteran who is both a regular guy and the salt of the earth. Here is a man with great wisdom and great humility. This is a very impressive man. Here's his interview

Her husband collapsed beside her while cutting a tree. In minutes, the life she loved was gone — and she had to learn what to do when the world stops. 🎧 Episode Description Chaco Fairbanks isn’t a man, but her story speaks to every man who’s ever loved deeply and lost hard. Nine months ago, her husband Cody died suddenly while they were remodeling a house in the Smoky Mountains. In this conversat...

A former helicopter pilot turned home inspector opens up about his near-suicide moment in Hawaii, rebuilding his marriage, and learning that real strength means letting others help. Beau Brown was living the dream—flying helicopters in Hawaii, a career most men would envy. But behind the views and the paycheck was a man quietly breaking down. His marriage was falling apart, his family was slipping...

A former Army combat medic fights nightmares, family court, and the silence at home—and finds purpose in fatherhood and helping other vets. Mark Bartholomew spent 13 months in Iraq’s Sadr City and the Triangle of Death as a combat medic. He came home with blood still caked on his boots—and a brain and nervous system rewired by war. In this raw conversation, Mark opens up about treating civilians a...

Lauren Bush has lived through what most of us can’t even imagine — and come out the other side with fire, grace, and truth that men need to hear. In this raw and powerful conversation, we talk about what it means to heal after sexual abuse, how trauma passes through generations, why hurt people hurt people, and how a man can love and protect a woman who’s been through hell. Lauren doesn’t hold bac...

When grief detonates, the blast doesn’t stop at one life. Former Utah County deputy Dennis Harris sits down with Garth Haslem to tell the story he’s spent decades learning to say out loud: his 15-year-old daughter died by suicide with his duty weapon. What followed was shock, isolation, a family blown into survival-mode “islands,” years of therapy, and a long crawl back toward each other. Dennis s...

When the courts, the silence, and the empty house all close in, what does a man do? Chris Rexwell —a father, veteran, and Alaskan native—talks with Garth Haslem about what it’s like to lose your child for eight months, to come home to nothing but echoes, and to somehow find your footing again. From court battles and controlling partners to rediscovering purpose through service, Chris’s story is ab...

What happens when a man decides he’s done living alone—and starts building a brotherhood instead? In this heartfelt conversation, Jade Mollendorf , founder of Spherical Man , joins Garth Haslem to talk about the loneliness, silence, and strength that shape modern men. From divorce and fatherhood to personal growth and purpose, Jade’s story is about choosing connection over isolation and courage ov...

Some men swing a hammer. Some build websites. Buck Hedges does both—then saddles a horse, rides into the hills, and thinks deeply about what it means to be a man. In this grounded, heartfelt conversation, Buck and Garth talk about hard things : loneliness, bullying, anger, marriage, faith, and the slow work of learning how to communicate when no one ever taught you how. From ranch life to IT work,...

Joe DeVito shouldn’t be here. After childhood trauma, an intentional overdose, and years lost to addiction, he walked five miles to detox and rebuilt his life from the inside out. Today he coaches men through shadow work, boundaries, initiation, and conscious fatherhood. We talk: the “golden shadow,” why assertiveness prevents rage, how absence (not just physical) wounds kids, and why purpose is b...

You think you know what it means to be a man—until you meet Jason Christensen. He’s the kind of dad who teaches his sons to fight him, to think for themselves, and to tell women they’re beautiful. He’s also a divorced father who walked through heartbreak, failure, and faith—and came out knowing exactly who he is. In this raw, hilarious, and deeply honest episode, Garth and Jason dive into everythi...

Sometimes you meet someone who changes the way you see strength. Braden Lawson is a Utah realtor, a gay man, and a survivor who’s lived through addiction, rebellion, and rediscovery. In this conversation, Garth and Braden talk about what it means to own your life—your choices, your identity, and your mindset—without apology or self-pity. From growing up in a blue-collar home to battling stereotype...

What happens when a man wakes up and realizes he’s been living on autopilot—running the same patterns, reacting the same way, and never truly steering his own life? In this episode, Wes Earls joins Garth Haslem for a raw, winding conversation about loneliness, control, and the patterns that keep men stuck. From childhood abuse to school bullying, from suicidal thoughts to spiritual awakening, Wes...

As I write this, I'm looking for words. This is one of the most powerful interviews you'll hear. Not just on Manalizing - anywhere. Enrique appears to have it all - the looks, the health, the cars and toys, the intelligence, the money, the athleticism - all of it. But his demons are dark. They know him and how to get to the inner core of him - just like the rest of us. This is one of the m...

What happens when a man walks through war, loss, and darkness—and decides to build instead of break? In this powerful episode, Air Force veteran and real estate broker TJ McClellan shares how losing his bunk mate to self inflicted termination in Afghanistan shattered his world—and how that pain became the turning point for living fully, loving deeply, and creating connection wherever he goes. TJ a...

He’s a mechanic. He’s got the truck, the tools, the house, the wife, and the kid. From the outside, Devin Westover looks like every man’s definition of “doing it right.” But inside? He was a trash compactor. Stuffing down pain from miscarriages, exhaustion, a broken family, and a near-suicide no one knew about. Until one day, the bag split open. In this episode, Garth sits down with Devin Westover...