Khimaira

In this episode of Khimaira, V speaks with singer, artist, and composer Nika Danilova (Zola Jesus) about voice, performance, alienation, discipline, noise, opera, and the unstable process of becoming visible through sound. Together they move through questions of self-expression as a process shaped by fear, training, contradiction, embodiment, and transformation. The conversation lingers in the ten...

Is Love Badness? An experiment in form: a work of sound composed through field recordings, voice messages, and an essay written from lived experience. Fragments of speech, ambient noise, and lived memory move together here. Composed from lived experience, the piece turns toward harm, desire, rage, and repair as forces felt in the body. Voices, weather, static, and thought sit beside each other as...

In this episode, Noah and I speak from inside desire as it moves across fraternity, finance, philosophy, and painting—without attempting to reconcile or redeem the worlds it passes through. The conversation unfolds through Noah’s experience of hazing as formative conditions of belonging, where masochism functions not as pathology but as a mechanism through which coherence, loyalty, and libidinal c...

In today’s episode, Cara and I begin by asking: How does the body teach us to listen when sensation overwhelms, when it surprises, when it transforms? Through our conversation Cara shares how past struggles with sensory stimulation and neurodivergence became doorways into practices of embodiment. By attending to sensation in all its intensities, she has learned to inhabit states of power—moving th...

In this episode, Jessica and I begin with a question: How does one stay rooted in beauty without being consumed by it? Our conversation traces the slow emergence of Babalon—the archetypal force of erotic creativity, sovereignty, and sacred presence—as she rises from beneath perception and into felt experience. We explore how this creative power nourishes when embodied, but also how it can distort...

In Khimaira’s premiere episode, Nancy joins V to talk about names, birds, friendship, and the quiet ways we learn from each other. It’s a conversation about staying open — to language, to love, and to the surprising knowledge that comes from other people when we allow ourselves to be vulnerable. This episode is an offering, a shared moment of reflection on how we learn from those we love and what...