I feel your pain

A Fond Farewell to Solo Stories: Closing This Chapter, Not the Book In this special and significant episode, I bring the solo storytelling journey of I Feel Your Pain to a close. After three seasons of mapping the Foundations of loss, Wrestling with raw anger, and Turning toward integrated peace, this chapter of my voice alone, sharing my story each week, comes to a natural end. I share why this p...

Forgiveness can feel impossible when the wound comes with a laugh. This episode confronts the deepest cut: betrayal by those closest to you. I share the painful journey of forgiving not just a silent church, but close relatives and friends I had supported for years, people who, when FND forced me to close my business, did not just vanish. Some called to ask what they could now get from me; others...

What happens when "getting back to normal" is no longer possible because the old normal is gone forever? This episode is about the slow, intentional work of building a new life from the ground up, not on the ashes of the old, but on the sacred ground where the old life once stood. I will share what my life looks like now, not as a return, but as a reinvention. Through the promise of Isaiah 43, I w...

What happens when the path to healing is not offered to you, but has to be forged by you? This episode moves beyond the simple choice to seek therapy, into the raw reality of being told there was "nothing to be done" for my trauma-induced neurological condition. I share the isolating experience of being discharged from NHS care with only a vague hope that my brain might "decide" to heal, and the d...

Can the very wounds that  break us become the place from which we serve others? In this episode, I share the “burning bush” moment that transformed my deepest pain into a clear calling, the moment I knew I had to start this podcast. It was not a voice from the clouds, but a quiet, undeniable knowing that rose from the scar tissue of loss, illness, and grief. Through the lens of 2 Corinthians, we w...

Season 3: The Turning-Integration, Purpose and Peace  This season focuses on the gradual shift from surviving to integrating grief, finding purpose in the pain, and defining a new kind of peace. What does resilience look like after years of loss? It often appears not as a sudden victory, but as a quiet moment of unexpected beauty that your heart is finally ready to receive. In this first episode o...

In our deepest pain, we often turn to our spiritual family, expecting the hands and feet of Christ to hold us up. But what happens when that community fails to show up, or worse, causes more pain with well-meaning but hurtful words? This is my story of feeling abandoned by my church in the aftermath of loss, and the deep sting of platitudes like "God needed another angel." I will share how the sto...

There is a quiet, lonely space in grief that comes long after the initial shock has faded. It is the wilderness, a place where the expected healing has not arrived, and the timeline you anticipated has crumbled. This is my story of that place, a journey made more complex by a body that had also become a wilderness. While grappling with emotional loss, I was also fighting to heal from FND, a neurol...

In the landscape of loss, I found myself playing a cruel, silent game: comparing my pain to the pain of others. "Your husband had a stroke, but at least he survived." "You lost your sister, but others lose their family ." This is the story of how I struggled to grant myself the right to grieve, constantly minimising my own suffering because it felt like others had it worse. I will share how a simp...

What happens when your rock solid faith meets a reality that doesn't bend to it?  This is the story of my husband’s deep depression after his amputation and the crisis of faith it triggered in us both. We were the quintessential devoted Christians, praying, tithing, serving and he truly believed his leg would grow back by a miracle of God. When it did not, his grief turned into a deep depression m...

Season 2: The Wrestling  What happens when the grief you refuse to feel, your body decides to feel for you? In this raw and revealing Season 2 premiere, I share the story of waking up completely paralysed, on the exact one year anniversary of my husband’s death. This was the terrifying onset of Functional Neurological Disorder (FND), a condition where the body screams what the soul cannot say. We...

 I have a quick and exciting announcement for you. Thank you so much for making this first season of I Feel Your Pain a sacred space for all of us. Your messages and support have meant the world to me.  I am thrilled to let you know that Season 2 will begin next Saturday. We are moving into a powerful new phase we are  calling “The Wrestling,” where we give voice to the raw, holy, and often unspok...

Holidays and celebrations can sharpen the pain of loss, turning days of joy into profound reminders of absence.  In this episode, we move beyond birthdays to the complex terrain of cultural and family milestones. We will use the example of Mother's Day, a day that can be agonising for a mother who has lost a child, a child who has lost a mother, or a woman who longed to be a mother. (Story)  To ex...

What happens when a person becomes a living, breathing link to a parent you have already lost? Today, we explore the profound and unique grief of losing my uncle, my mother's twin who was more than a beloved uncle. He was like a surrogate mother in a male form, my champion, and the person in whom I could still see my mother's spirit. For 22 years after her passing  he was a mirror, reflecting my m...

What do you grieve when the person who dies is not your child, but felt like your own?  This is the story of a sacred friendship, two boys raised like twins, and an eight-year battle with cancer that tested everything. We explore the concept of "compound grief", when losses pile up in the same year and the unique pain of "secondary loss," where you are mourning not just a person, but a shared futu...

Sibling loss is often a disenfranchised grief, overlooked by a world that does not understand the unique bond.  Today, we talk about the earth-shattering pain of losing a sister, the keeper of your secrets, your shared history, and a part of your own identity. This is the story of a sudden, tragic car accident that took my sister's life, leaving me to navigate a world that feels permanently altere...

What happens when "for better or worse, in sickness and in health" becomes your devastating reality? Today, we enter the fire of a marriage tested by catastrophic illness, countless surgeries, and the loss of a dreamed-for future. This is the story of how grief and unimaginable stress turned inward, creating a chasm between two people who loved God and each other deeply. We will hold onto the scri...

On what should be a day of pure celebration, we hold space for a more complex truth. This special episode, recorded on my daughter's 18th birthday, journeys back through the "womb darkness" of multiple miscarriages and the terrifying moment of her fall as a 4 and a half year old, a event that became an unexpected sign of grace.  We will navigate the lonely landscape of pregnancy loss, discover a s...

The 2nd of August 

Introducing the Purpose and Vision of I Feel Your Pain Podcast