Engineering Love

Most people treat resentment like something to push away or white-knuckle through. But before you can release it, you need to know what you're actually holding — because not all resentment is the same, and the way you work with each type is completely different. In this episode, we break down six distinct types of resentment, why one of them is actually a loving emotion, why chronic resentment has...

Avoidant attachment isn't one category. Dismissive and fearful avoidant patterns respond very differently in conflict, and using the wrong repair strategy can make things worse. If one of you demands calm and the other escalates to be heard, this episode is for you. Kim covers the real issue beneath tone, intensity, and shutdown: distress tolerance. Timestamps: 00:00 When Only One Emotional Tone I...

More than half of U.S. adults are now using AI to manage stress, anxiety, or emotional overwhelm. Among people who already use AI for mental health, nearly half say it's the first place they turn when something feels wrong. So the real question isn't whether AI is good or bad. It's this: Can AI actually support mental health in a meaningful way? Or does it accidentally reinforce the very patterns...

In this episode, Kim sits down with eating disorder specialist Sarah Burney to unpack what's really going on beneath "food noise," body dissatisfaction, and chronic struggles with eating. This conversation moves beyond surface-level advice and into the deeper emotional, neurological, and relational drivers of disordered eating. They explore why food is rarely the actual problem, how shame quietly...

In this episode, I'm joined by Alex Beattie, founder of The Divorce Planner, to talk about what actually helps in the earliest stages of separation and divorce. Alex is a divorce prep coach who works with people before they hire attorneys or mediators, helping them get grounded emotionally and prepared practically before big, irreversible decisions are made. We talk about the grief, shame, and ide...

You understand why you avoid. You see the pattern. And you're still doing it. In this episode, Kim Polinder explores the frustrating gap between self-awareness and actual change — and why insight alone rarely leads to different behavior. Rather than framing change as a decision or a motivation problem, this conversation breaks down procrastination as a capacity issue. Kim walks through four common...

In Episode 10, Kim opens Season Two by breaking down procrastination in a way most people have never heard it explained before. This episode isn't about productivity, discipline, or time management. It's about emotional risk, fragile self-esteem, and the identities we built in childhood to survive. Kim explains why procrastination shows up around the things that matter most. Big conversations. Cre...

In Episode 9, Kim answers listener questions about anxious–avoidant dynamics, communicating with partners who shut down, chronic self-doubt and perfectionism, and navigating a relationship when one or both partners are struggling with depression. This episode explores what it actually means to move toward secure attachment, why avoidant partners disengage during future-oriented conversations, and...

In Episode 8, Kim answers listener questions about trauma bonds, abusive relationship cycles, repeated infidelity, and navigating boundaries with family members after postpartum harm. This episode looks closely at why "sudden change" can feel untrustworthy, how remorse differs from temporary improvement, and why love alone is not enough to repair long-standing harm. Kim also breaks down trauma bon...

Episode 7 dives deep into attachment dynamics, shutdown, commitment anxiety, and the hidden costs of people-pleasing. Kim answers listener questions about anxious–avoidant relationships, silent treatment, marriage timelines, and the martyr complex, with a focus on responsibility, boundaries, and realistic decision-making. This episode is for anyone who feels stuck chasing clarity, carrying more th...

In Episode 6, Kim is joined by relationship coach Mason O'Sullivan to answer listener questions about empathy, emotional support, grief, and long-standing self-sabotage patterns. This episode focuses on one of the most common breakdowns in relationships: trying to fix emotions instead of understanding them. Kim and Mason unpack why empathy is not agreement, why problem-solving too fast makes partn...

In Episode 5, Kim answers listener questions about boundaries in family and romantic relationships, people-pleasing, guilt, and the emotional fallout of avoiding conflict. This episode breaks down why boundaries feel so threatening for people pleasers, how guilt gets wired into saying no, and why resentment is often the first signal that a boundary is needed. Kim walks through boundaries not as ru...

In Episode 4, Kim answers listener questions about self-esteem, identity, people-pleasing, and how to build a sense of self without losing connection to others. This episode explores how self-esteem is formed early in life, why people-pleasing and conflict avoidance feel safer than honesty, and how avoiding discomfort slowly erodes integrity, intimacy, and identity. Kim breaks down impostor syndro...

In Episode 3, Kim breaks down resentment: what it is, why it lingers, and how to work with it without letting it harden you. This episode introduces a key distinction between toxic resentment and healthy resentment, especially in the context of abandonment, infidelity, and long-standing friendships that no longer feel safe or reciprocal. Kim walks through how resentment often signals ungrieved los...

In Episode 2, Kim revisits the concept of love languages and expands it beyond Gary Chapman's framework to include what she calls childhood love languages: the ways love, attention, neglect, and reassurance were first experienced and internalized early in life. This episode explores why mismatches around texting, reassurance, effort, and commitment are often less about preference and more about at...

In Episode 1 of Engineering Love, Kim introduces the core philosophy behind the podcast: that love isn't something that magically happens, it's something that can be learned, built, and repaired with the right tools. Drawing from her background as both a relationship coach and former IT systems engineer, Kim explains her root-cause approach to relationships and emotional pain. She responds to list...