Don't Step on the Bluebells

I locked myself away for four days to find out if I could actually write a book. The first morning, I did everything but write. I needed coffee. Then a walk. Then a pen, then a new notebook. And then, finally, I could sit down and write for hours. By the end of my mini retreat I had completed 70,000 words, and something I hadn’t expected: proof that I could trust myself to show up. That’s the kind...

Amanda left a room full of women she admires and called her husband in a rage. It made no sense. She'd chosen to be there. She'd paid for the ticket. Every woman who had stood on that stage that day was doing something she genuinely admired. And she spent the whole afternoon getting angrier and angrier, until she ended up outside a hotel in Shoreditch on the phone, shaking. It took her a...

Someone I admired once told me I was going to win a lot of awards. She meant it as a gift. And for years afterward, every award season that passed without my name in it, some part of me quietly registered it as a shortfall. Even though winning awards had never been my dream to begin with. It was hers, transposed onto me. This is what happens when other people dream big things for us. On the surfac...

What if the thing you've been chasing your whole life — the promotion, the book deal, the perfectly executed healing journey — was never going to make you feel enough? Dr. Mandy Lehto spent most of her forties crashed out in burnout, forced into a reckoning with everything she'd been trying to outrun. In this profound and often funny conversation, she shares what she found on the other s...

What if the very drive that makes you capable of achieving almost anything is also the thing keeping you from ever feeling like it's enough? In this deeply personal solo episode, Amanda opens her diary and lets you see the shadow side of being a high achiever — the part nobody brags about. She names something many driven people quietly live with: the moment you complete the big thing — the MB...

What if the business you're building isn't just a way to make money — but the very vehicle through which you heal? In this episode, Amanda sits down with Jacob Peggs, the solopreneur behind Modern Maker, known for shipping businesses "like a mother flower" and his signature one offer, one post, one email a day method. But beneath the impressive track record is a far more tender...

You can't think your way out of grief. It lives in the body — and no amount of rationalising, staying busy, or being "so strong" will move it through you. In this deeply tender conversation, Amanda sits down with Lou Hynes, The Grief Guide, to explore the part of grief we almost never talk about: what's actually happening in your nervous system when the worst has happened, and...

What if the reason all that personal growth work "isn't working" has nothing to do with the courses, the books, or the teachers — and everything to do with the step you keep skipping? In this solo episode, Amanda Parker gets refreshingly honest about the trap so many seekers fall into: collecting wisdom faster than we can live it. After years of coach training, psychic development,...

If you're honest — do you actually like yourself, or are you waiting until after the promotion, the launch, the relationship? In this episode, Amanda turns the microphone on her own coach, Matt Chavlovich — the man who has seen her at her most stuck and most doubtful — and asks him everything. What unfolds is a conversation about the one thing hiding underneath every goal you've ever cha...

What if the rage you've spent your whole life trying to suppress is actually one of your greatest gifts? In this extraordinary conversation, somatic trauma therapist and tantra practitioner Erika Tourell takes us deep into the territory most of us have been taught to fear — our anger, our grief, and the raw, electric charge of our own life force. This isn't a conversation about becoming...

What if the thing standing between you and real success — is the success you've already built? Amanda had the contracts, the clients, the credibility. A leadership development business that ticked every box she'd been handed. And she walked away from all of it. Not because it was falling apart — but because it was working perfectly, and she still felt nothing. What followed was three yea...

What if the most powerful tool for self-awareness wasn't a therapy couch or a meditation app — but a deck of 78 cards? In this episode, Amanda sits down with Hannah Joy Graves, known to her devoted following as Cult Mother Tarot, for a conversation that is equal parts hilarious, deeply moving, and genuinely transformative. Hannah didn't come to tarot through a mystical lineage or a spiri...

Join the Inner Authority Lab --> https://www.amandaparker.co/inner-authority-lab What if the chronic pain you can't shake, the injury that keeps returning, or the patterns that derail your life aren't random — but are actually the unlived parts of you, desperately trying to be heard? That's the radical and deeply compassionate lens that Liz Letchford brings to her work. A rehabil...

What does it actually look like to develop your psychic abilities — from scratch, with no roadmap, and no guarantee you're doing it right? In this candid solo episode, Amanda Parker takes us on an intimate tour of her personal journey through psychic development, from her first Reiki training that cracked open her awareness, to immersive retreats in Sweden that finally made everything click....

You can hit the revenue target, land the dream clients, and still wonder why it doesn’t feel better. I’m Amanda Parker, and I’m pulling the curtain back on the “success hangover” so many entrepreneurs and high achievers carry in silence: that unsettling emptiness that shows up right after you check all the boxes you thought would finally make you happy. I walk through why this happens and how ofte...

Waiting for clarity can feel responsible, but it often becomes a quiet way to stay stuck. When the dream feels big and the path feels foggy, the real skill is learning how to “see” your next level from where you are and take steps before you feel ready. I’m Amanda Parker, and I’m sharing the exact practices I use to bridge that gap in my life and business, especially when I’m overwhelmed, second-g...

What if the reason you keep stalling on new habits isn’t a lack of willpower, but a lack of the right conditions? Amanda shares a candid, step-by-step look at how she completed an eight-day Ayurvedic detox after years of stopping at day three, and what changed to make follow-through non-negotiable. From the toll of doomscrolling and constant crisis headlines to the quiet power of clear limits and...

Restlessness can be a compass. When the job drains your spirit, the milestones feel empty, and your plans stop fitting your life, something wiser is trying to get your attention. Amanda shares a clear, compassionate roadmap for that moment—her Awakening Framework—built from the real edges of burnout, a broken engagement, and the courage to start again. We walk through four stages that make spiritu...

What if the clearest guidance is the voice you’ve been ignoring? We open up about how oracle readings shifted from a curiosity to a practical, daily compass—starting with a single card and an unexpected visit from a crow. That moment of resonance turned skepticism into a simple ritual that invites honest reflection, sharper decisions, and a sense of being supported, even on the hard days. I walk t...

A steady drumbeat can change your state—and your life. We sit down with Dr. Marta Nikolai to explore how core shamanism uses simple, time-tested methods to enter theta consciousness, meet compassionate spirit allies, and bring back practical guidance for daily challenges. No psychedelics required, just sonic driving, intention, and a safe container that lets the ego rest so truth can rise. We brea...

If you've ever found yourself setting the same goals year after year without understanding why they don't stick, this episode offers a different approach. Amanda Parker gets honest about her own journey from living on autopilot—jumping from job to job, saying yes to everything, and feeling like life was happening to her—to learning how to intentionally design her life. The shift didn&apo...

What if the key to your success isn't about becoming someone new, but reclaiming who you've always been? In this transformative conversation, Amanda sits down with personal brand strategist Beth Hocking to explore how building your personal brand is actually a profound healing journey. Beth shares her powerful story of leaving a 20-year corporate career—complete with director titles, glo...

What if everything you've been told about spiritual awakening is wrong? Forget the Instagram posts about divine downloads and blissful enlightenment—the real story of awakening is far messier, more isolating, and infinitely more human than anyone wants to admit. And if you're in the thick of it right now, wondering why your entire life suddenly feels intolerable while everyone around you...

Ever notice how your body tenses before opening an email from your boss, or how your heart races before sharing your work? That activation you've been trying to suppress might not be the problem. What if you're meant to move through those states, not eliminate them? In this episode, Amanda speaks with Amyee Oen, whose perspective on nervous system healing was forged in the wild waters of...

What if heartbreak isn't something to rush through, but an invitation to transform? Saguna Budhiraja, a crystal energy guide and founder of Ektara Heart in Amsterdam, challenges the cultural messaging that tells us to "just get over it." Instead, she reveals how a shattered heart literally freezes your nervous system, why your relationships mirror your self-worth, and why the real w...