Dancing with Bipolar Redux

hey getting my ducks in row as I prepare to publish the truth from December. my truth. therapidcitysentinel.com STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey. I know it's been a minute. Things are ok, not perfect or great, but look at the world. I'm upright, and maintaining the very best I know how. check out www.therapidcitysentinel.com STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey I'm not going to lie I had about a month I could not upload anything and now it seems to be fixed so hi hi hi I missed you all so much I hope you've been keeping up with me on Instagram and my other socials to see that I didn't like just drop off the face of the earth cuz I didn't . I've been busy doing other stuff you know like starting to write a book and starting a newspaper because why not...

hey. I've been trying to download a real show but the gods of WiFi aren't having it today. just know I'm thinking about you on this holiday . that way neither of us is alone. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey . So yeah it's been too long again. just want to let you all know that you are the show. Without you all I am literally talking to air. Hit me up at : dancingwithbipolarredux@gmail.com STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey. There will nearly always come a point in time where you have to evaluate if the reward is worth the effort. As Chris Reck says Is the juice worth the squeeze? In this case it's really not. I do not like being humiliated so it's Go Rogue Time. Find me on NewsBreak to read about the Rapid City Rush dancingwithbipolarredux@gmail.com

Hey. I know it's been a minute. Things are good, I'm well and there's only positive vibes coming from me at the moment. I'm so grateful for everything for real. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER dancingwithbipolarredux@gmail.com

Hey. it's been a weird few days here and doing a show didn't feel right. The 5 year anniversary of Christophers suicide was Sept 11th. And I still have to remember him publicly because he was all that and more. Some infinities are bigger than others . dancingwithbipolarredux@gmail.com STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey kind of a messy show but I just wanted to let you all know that I'm all right . Been busy writing and doing some shadow work with that which is always fun. dancingwithbipolarredux@gmail.com STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey... still in a pretty excessive shut down mode since the Landon Steele incident(s). Triggering a trauma in someone else to feel powerful over someone else is sociopathic. you know? otherwise Did Not win a Darwin award while indoor camping. It's funny because I'm not dead dancingwithbipolarredux@gmail.com STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey. so yeah if I wasn't living it I wouldn't believe it either. How celebrity veteran Steele is in RC is miraculous, but how he has tried to manipulate me after just being stalked in Flagstaff seems predictable. Would also go against all his medical shenanigans to create more trauma on a fellow vet. Honestly more worried about this drunk dude with a loaded guns. Fortunately I feel well trained fo...

Hey, reality is this is a tough little spell of time. I'm super grateful that I went through worse before so I'm wise enough to know I don't have to do this again. Painful emotions and fear shouldn't be normalized parts of a relationship ever. it's time to just go back in hermit, write for Medium and wait for October when hockey starts dancingwithbipolarredux@gmail.com STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey yes it's been a true cluster today. Be careful what you ask for you might just get it . dancingwithbipolarredux@gmail.com STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey. thought it was only a weekend visit but it seems to be unpacking its bags and staying for a minute. There's a few reasons why but sleep disruptions due to my shitty upstairs neighbors is not helping at all. I'm not sure what the best solution is , but I won't be doing anything permanent. I promise. 988 is my friend too. 😎 dancingwithbipolarredux@gmail.com STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey. I'm gonna say I'm good but truthfully i might not be good. physically I'm healthy but starting to get that underlying exhaustion that appears before the ultimate crash. Perfection is a tough standard to live up to everyday. yup. I need to be mindful and careful of what I'm doing. dancingwithbipolarredux@gmail.com STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey. been a busy week of nothing but good things happening for me. I haven't lost sight of how blessed I am to have made it this far since leaving Flagstaff in April. For me to think I made it this far by myself is ludicrous and I can't forget all the prayers I am having answered at this time and who is answering them. so shout-out to God. Hope you all are well. you can hit me up at dancingwithbip...

hey. so there's been some things happening that are pretty upsetting to me. yet unclarified situations are prone to misunderstanding. Am I just being played by people. IDK. At least I can't be accused of plagerism or breaking boundaries, but nonetheless a Reevaluation of what I'm doing can't hurt. dancingwithbipolarredux@gmail.com STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey... So everything is good. Had an experience this past weekend that triggered the hell out of me and was a stark reminder of how bad it really was in Flagstaff. I'm in no danger here as long as I don't create it. As hard as it is for me to believe it's been only 2 months since I left Flagstaff and a month since the trauma from Horse Shit Resort. idk why I think I'd be all better so quickly. 988...

Hey. it's been a long time since I considered dating and after this experience it will be a lot longer before I ever do this again. I think AI and porn have ruined a large majority of the population in regards to real human interactions. Otherwise I'm good. 988 is your friend without judgements. Call if you need help in a crisis situation. Love each of you. dancingwithbipolarredux@gmail.com STAY A...

Hey. I can't complain about anything so I won't. Things are really good right now and I'm happy again. I moved in, writing about hockey for the Rapid City Post and feeling settled. Plus the Canes won in a shutout tonight. I couldn't ask for more. I hope you all are doing well. If you're not Asking for help is brave. 988 is your friend or text help to 741 741. you can contact me at dancingwithbipol...

hey. just a quick check in. therapy went well today but it's still triggering. Guess I'm going to have to go through it to get through it to closure. At least the stalking didn't kill me. A few thoughts on being a Rapid City Rush season ticket holder and also creating my own position with the Rapid City Post in order to write about hockey. lol. diabolical. And a few thoughts on what happened to th...

So being hotel bound for weeks is playing games with my mind. mania is better than depression but not by much. ultimately I'm safe though and I guess that was the goal in leaving Flagstaff. I sought help for my bipolar through Brightside online because time is of the essence when it comes to mental health and waiting for a callback from the VA wasn't happening. All in all texting 988 and asking fo...

So after a disasterous start in South Dakota at Horse Shit Resort I reached out for help. 988 is a literal life line. The people that I've met on my path, the VA and military personnel have rallied around me in a way I never knew existed. I am beyond humbled and grateful for how well I have been treated since literally being left homeless on the street by the plastic "princess" of horse shit resor...

Hey so today has been awful. Being called deceitful and being put on "probation" is not what I'm about at all. Having people jump to all the wrong conclusions says more about them than me. I don't have a problem walking away from being a liability. Also Sir chimes in a bit which is very cool. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey. so I made it to South Dakota. I talk about shitty the trip was. NEVER RIDE GREYHOUND!!! How Sir almost didn't make it, but did and how this transition is going. yeah it's not easy. but I'm not a quitter. This is the last show about the stalking unless I get updates regarding the civil rights case. Met someone on Reddit who's been pulling my head out of the shit. appreciate you Matt B. STAY AL...