The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved

Ep 10 - You Can’t Heal What You’re Still Hiding From Yourself There’s the version of you everyone sees. Smiling. Functioning. Saying you’re fine. And then there’s the version of you no one sees. Carrying the secret. Numb. Anxious. Afraid of what would happen if the truth ever got out. I know that version well — because I lived her. After my affair, I didn’t collapse on the outside. I became “bette...

Content note: This episode contains references to sexual assault, harassment, and STI. Please listen with care and take the space you need. I thought the hardest part was over when my marriage ended. I’d told my husband I cheated. We’d tried therapy. We’d separated with kindness. I moved into my own place and thought: I’ve survived the worst of it. But what came next was what I now call the year o...

You can love someone and still betray them. You can be strong, independent, the cool girl… and still find yourself in an affair. In this conversation with Australia’s leading anxiety therapist, Georgie Collinson, we go deep into the ways anxiety and self-betrayal shape our relationships: How high-functioning anxiety becomes the mask of the cool girl Why silence and “I don’t need you” energy always...

Episode 7: Why Cheating Is a Pattern, Not a Moral Failure This one’s for the woman asking herself: “What is wrong with me?” “Why didn’t I just leave?” “How did I do this again?” In this episode, I explore why cheating isn’t just a one-off mistake, it’s often part of a deeper survival pattern shaped by emotional disconnection, shutdown, and unmet needs. We look at: How your nervous system drives th...

You didn’t cheat because you’re a bad person. You cheated because something in you was trying to survive. Your chest tightens. Your stomach drops. The shame rushes in. And you think: “Why did I do that?” Most people miss this part: Cheating isn’t always a conscious choice. It can be a nervous system response. In this week’s episode of The Deeper Love Podcast , I break down: ✨ Why cheating can be...

We’re taught to see cheating as a simple equation: one person betrays, the other is betrayed. End of story. But the truth is never that clean. In this episode, I share why an affair is never just about the moment it happened or the person it happened with. It’s about everything that came before - the silences, the unspoken needs, the glass walls that build up between two people - long before a bou...

Most women think they know why they cheated. “I wasn’t seen. I felt lonely. I felt unwanted. I was bored. He didn’t love me.” And while those stories are true on the surface, they are not the root. In this episode, I take you deeper. We’ll look at the why beneath the why - the patterns of silencing, perfection, and strength-at-all-costs that began long before the affair. The truth is, the affair w...

What does it really take to rebuild after betrayal? In this episode, I’m joined by fellow love & relationship coach Jessica Hayes, who shares her raw and powerful story of discovering her partner’s infidelity and the journey they took to heal together. We talk about: The moment she found out and how it shattered her world Why “just leave” isn’t the right answer for everyone The messy, non-line...

When a betrayal hits the headlines, like the recent Coldplay cheating scandal, the internet rushes to judge. The memes, the moral high ground, the smug commentary. But what’s really going on beneath the noise? In this episode, I sit down with fellow love & relationship coach Jessica Hayes and Therapeutic Coach Lucy Maeve to talk about what’s missing from the public conversation around infideli...

I never thought I’d be the kind of woman who cheated on her husband, and I’m guessing neither did you. In this episode, I share my story through the lens of a woman who’s had an affair and broken her own heart in the process. Not the surface version, but the truth beneath it: the silence, disconnection, perfectionism, and old wounds that led me there - long before the infidelity happened. If you’v...

In this episode: Alex Croxford sits down with Nastassia Marie, a trauma-informed educator and practitioner specializing in narcissistic abuse recovery. Nastassia’s journey of healing from a history of challenging relationships and family trauma fuels her powerful work, as she brings compassion, humor, and depth to complex subjects. Together, they explore the importance of recognizing inherited tra...

In this episode: Alex Croxford hosts Cody Mathieson Packer, a men’s transformation guide, to discuss the complex dynamics between men and women in relationships. Cody shares his personal journey of overcoming challenges, including a tumultuous marriage and career setbacks, to rediscover himself and step into his role as a guide for men.  Together, they explore how men can confront deep-seated fear...

In this episode: Alex Croxford welcomes Amy White, a somatic sexual healing coach and founder of Temple of the Feminine, to explore sacred sexuality, feminine energy, and how women can reclaim their sexual power through self-awareness and emotional connection. Amy shares her personal journey of awakening and healing through kundalini tantra yoga and discusses how celibacy can be a powerful tool fo...

In this episode: In this episode, Alex Croxford interviews Persia Lawson, a top UK dating and relationship coach, to explore the journey of inner healing, and personal transformation in pursuit of meaningful romantic relationships. They dive into Persia’s personal evolution from her own tumultuous love life to coaching high-achieving women to find fulfilling relationships by working on themselves...

In this episode: In the very first episode of The Deeper Love podcast, Alex Croxford takes you on a raw, emotional journey through her personal story of heartbreak, inner transformation, and spiritual awakening.  From the outside, Alex had what many would call a perfect life: successful career, marriage, and all the external markers of achievement.  But beneath the surface, she was battling deep-s...