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im pretty sure if i sat in a room with joel and moriah they wouldnt say anything. 

i dont really have the "bandwith" for the joel and moriah reconciliation or church discipline thing

it looks like to me they went into hiding for 12 years and  trolled me or something  

to be honest with you what i was thinking about most that day was participating in the industry. and i was thinking about what that girl said. 

i dont really believe in different timelines. i didnt check for many years. but the last time i checked, smallbone and peters did not have children. i just read they had a child in 2016 and 2019. but im pretty sure that info was not online.   so maybe there is nothing real online.      

i do consider all the people i mentioned a curse. i didnt really find the word for it until today. 

if they had children in 2016, im pretty sure they were trolling me after having children. 

i dont think smallbone is who he says he is. i think he is like carrie underwood and is dangerous toward me. 

everyone is acting like this stuff happened yesterday. but it has been 11 , 12 years.    why are you acting like these things happened yesterday

i actually think this is joel smallbone.   he seemed angry. https://youtube.com/shorts/cGWZkLADyjE?si=DN2yCtqtxMYdijHf

you dont have the right to triangulate me  for church discipline, joel.  like, you guys are confused.   https://youtube.com/shorts/cGWZkLADyjE?si=tHAeaIvPYiCmwini

you and moriah are the ones that thought i was flirting with you first.  i was just present. there was even some girl that joked with me to not take her career.  but you remind me of the evil glare in this video.  https://youtube.com/shorts/cGWZkLADyjE?si=pp08nj0cEvMVJIpz

  its all on the other account but i talked about how it seemed like you all stole something from me that day.

you have no idea how mad i am that i am stuck in some thing with joel smallbone and moriah peters. he did a movie talking about how he cant raise some girl above her social status. but that is exactly what he did with moriah peters.  i do not  know anything about joel smallbone. i dont know if he is normal or not.   like his cursing me or people with moriah   it sets people back decades or somethi...

this says it is a comprehensive list. i dont think it is comprehensive. but toward the end of the page there is a picture of different noses by ethnicity.    i unfortunately think social media has punished folks with a wider nose since the 2010s.  i didnt spend too much time on the theory. https://cosmeticium.com/nose-shape-ethnicity/ it does seem like it doesnt matter what your skin color is curr...

how am i supposed to compete with someone who is in the movies like this?  she kind of looks like a upper scale like a telenovela actress here.  i said a long time ago she has a petite body structure compared to me. also i said she had had a very successful career.  https://youtube.com/shorts/EQfEEcP7Azs?si=tbckvIt0kmDKfvY2 but being stuck in someones life like that    she was still interested in...

doesnt look good https://youtube.com/shorts/TPPIMZ_bgcA?si=QaJ_4Nat7achjH3d

but i dont really see myself in selena gomezs corner. either good or bad. ive never met this person. so i am tired of spending time getting these folks to back off.  including spending time trying to get selena to back off.  you did all of that for your career.  but if there is proof , i am going to ask someone to send the texts or messages they have of your looking for me.  

im sorry you and I got caught in the n word scandal. but there is nothing anyone can do to erase what happened.  i would like to say you should just move on.     i was dealing with mental illness. but also that day i was dealing with a bad situation at the place i was in. and i think all the hectic things that were happening got to my head.  it seemed like i was imagining the situation.  but there...

im not interested in being locked in a fight with selena. i never was interested in that.  i sent a compliment online several years ago. then it turned in to the industry blah whatever.  its an  atrocity disgrace horror obscenity outrage curse torment evil crime monstrosity violation bugbear anathema bane bête noire detestation loathing hatred aversion antipathy revulsion repugnance abhorrence odi...

i realize my nose puts me in a different social class.  but it wasnt really like that before the 2010s.  maybe that also has something to do with social media.  not sure.  i was interested in the entertainment industry before even though i looked the way i look. never really was treated differently for my nose.  you guys really have treated me badly and different.  but that is not the way i was tr...

it goes for any of them. selena gomez, etc. if anyone gets proof of their texts or messages about me. that amounts to bothering me in real life, i would pay someone for proof of it.    i am real concerned.  i didnt say anything to these people in person. i just briefly mentoned them several years ago.  when i look at selenas gomez face it just looks kind of blank. like she is trying to strike.  th...

currently the way i see the internet is it is dead probably because of social media. but there are people that built a career on social media. and they are using their money to protect their image at all costs.  so if you type a celebrities name on the internet, they will find it, then like make you pay. and that most likely will involve a physical confrontation. first they will send people that w...

currently the way i see the internet is it is dead probably because of social media. but there are people that built a career on social media. and they are using their money to protect their image at all costs.  so if you type a celebrities name on the internet, they will find it, then like make you pay. and that most likely will involve a physical confrontation. first they will send people that w...

if someone were to type my name on the internet somewhere. i would not be able to find it.   thats the difference i think.