Behind the Citgo

In this powerful conversation, Josh sits down with Dr. Gary Nelson to explore self governance as a pathway to freedom — in families, communities, and in personal recovery. Drawing from decades of global work in community systems, Dr. Nelson breaks down why true self governance begins not with self‑interest, but with serving the aspirations of others. As he says in the episode, “Self governance rig...

🎙️ Episode 12: Honorably Discharged Into Addiction — with Jason Gaver Behind the Citgo Podcast In this powerful episode, we sit down with Navy veteran Jason Gaver for a raw, unfiltered conversation about what so many service members silently battle after coming home. Jason opens up about the emotional crash that follows honorable service — the loss of identity, the overwhelming shift from military...

Discover how communities are being reshaped, families strengthened, and individuals empowered at every stage of life. In this inspiring episode, human services leader Karen Calhoun—with more than 30 years of experience—shares how ASPIRE evolved into a breakthrough intervention for social services, marginalized youth, and people in recovery. From reducing foster care placements to helping young adu...

Mike Guzman breaks down the truth behind the “Club Fed” myth and opens up about the spiritual, moral, and psychological unraveling that led him into the federal justice system. In this raw and revealing conversation, Mike shares how prison—despite the pain it caused his family—became the adversity he needed to reset his life, return to his Christian foundations, and confront what he calls a deep “...

A night of partying. A traffic stop. An arrest that changed everything. In Episode 008 of Behind the Citgo, Jes White shares the powerful, unfiltered testimony of how hitting rock bottom became the doorway to recovery, faith, and a completely transformed life. When her mother made the heartbreaking decision to let police take her in, Jes had no idea that moment would lead her to the Anchor Initiat...

A First Responder’s Truth: Steve Barger on Trauma, Addiction, and the Alarming Shift in Our Schools Steve Barger has spent his life serving others—commanding first responders, answering crisis calls, and carrying the weight of moments most people never witness. In this deeply personal interview, Steve shares the story behind the uniform: years of trauma, a battle with alcoholism, and the struggle...

Host Josh Torbich sits down with Brunswick County Sheriff Brian Chism for a powerful, eye‑opening conversation about the real limits of handcuffs—both as a law‑enforcement tool and as a symbol of the deeper restraints people face in addiction, trauma, and recovery. From the front lines of policing to the human stories behind every call, this episode explores: The realities officers face when respo...

Episode 006 of Behind the Citgo takes a powerful look at one of the most important—and often most challenging—parts of the recovery journey: rebuilding family relationships. Joined by the insightful and compassionate Dwane Richardson, we explore how trust can be restored, how communication evolves, and how families can heal together after addiction has created distance or pain. This episode is for...

Anthony Grimaldi of Southeastern Integrated Care joins Josh Torbich and the Behind the Citgo podcast crew for Episode 005: MOUD - The Good, The Bad, The Ugly

Heath Cadell from Reach Community Church in Leland, NC joins Josh Torbich and the Behind the Citgo podcast team to discuss "The Church's Role in Recovery (Part 2)"

Jeremey Seamon of Coastal Horizons joins Josh Torbich and the Behind the Citgo crew to discuss "Therapy - Is It Working?  When Does it Stop?      

Lucas Grainger from Coastal Church in Shallotte, NC joins Josh Torbich and the Behind the Citgo crew for Episode 003: The Church's Role in Recovery (Part 1)   Reels Daily! Episodes Weekly!! Subscribe Now!!!

Tyler Smith joins the Behind the Citgo podcast for Episode 001 - Behind the Citgo - The Unseen World of Addiction

My Unforgettable Sponsor & Smoking Crack Behind Citgo is a raw and unfiltered reflection on addiction and recovery, contrasting the chaos and degradation of active drug use with the steady, often uncomfortable presence of a sponsor who refuses to give up. Through stark imagery and honest self-examination, it explores survival mode, denial, relapse, and shame, while highlighting how accountabil...

My Unforgettable Sponsor & Smoking Crack Behind Citgo is a raw and unfiltered reflection on addiction and recovery, contrasting the chaos and degradation of active drug use with the steady, often uncomfortable presence of a sponsor who refuses to give up. Through stark imagery and honest self-examination, it explores survival mode, denial, relapse, and shame, while highlighting how accountabil...