Wild Obedience Man

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 33d Title: Full weird for Jesus. Amen the end. Description: It’s launch day. I'm in the truck, driving through fog, fired up on the Spirit (and a little Adderall), flipping the switch for good. This one isn’t for my wife or parents—this is for the Lamb of God. I’m talking out loud, revving myself up, pressing go on CRUMB the way I always meant to. I fast. I pray. I...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 33c Title: Today is my poop day Description: It’s the day. The one where I get everything ready to launch CRUMB. I’m at the edge of the cliff, speaking this out loud to hold myself accountable—because my wife doesn’t believe me. I’ve got PDFs to upload, domains to fix, routines to lock in, and an entire CRUMB system to birth before dinner. Then we go serve the homel...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 33b Title: I'm Being Called to Become a Man Description: It’s a bonus drop today. I hit record to confess something that’s been burning in my spirit—this tension between my old childish ways and the maturity God’s calling me into. I talk about a quote from Five Marks of a Man , what it means to hold spiritual weight, and how I’ve used progress as a cover for partial...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 33a Title: I think God has me locked in the basement right now Description: It’s early—5:54 a.m.—and I’m locked in my in-laws’ basement, afraid to trip the alarm. But spiritually, I think God has me locked down here too. I read the final judgment passage from Matthew 25 and wrestle with its meaning. I question whether I’ve been ignoring the “least of these” out of c...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 32 Title: Maybe we’re going to the zoo Description: It’s June 10th. I start recording with the kids chattering in the background. There’s not much of a plan—just a note that I still need to upload yesterday’s episodes and today’s mostly about being with the family. We might go to the zoo. Maybe. I talk about: • Starting the day with the kids • Uploading old episodes...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 29 Title: Julian found me Description: It’s early on June 9th, and I’m sitting in the UDF parking lot about to hit the coffee shop. Last night something happened that I can only describe as God-orchestrated. A man I met nearly a decade ago, Julian Mendoza, reconnected out of nowhere and poured water on a dry sponge. I walk through the history of Foundation 513, the...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Godwink Bonus Episode Title: Thank you, Jesus, for the USB cord Description: It’s not Episode 30. It’s something different. Something special. I’m calling this a Godwink Bonus Episode —a story that unfolded in real time and felt like divine timing at every turn. I talk about a moment where I tuned into the Holy Spirit, changed my work location, ran into a problem (dead head...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 30 Title: I don’t want my life to be a platform—I want it to be an altar Description: This one came just a few hours after Episode 29. I was walking the trail I used to walk back when I lived here, not far from the house I sold. Something stirred. It felt like a moment to confess a deep sense of nearing breakthrough. I talk about what it feels like when the visions...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 31 Title: I feel peace in every part of my life for the first time ever Description: It’s still June 9, still raining in Cincinnati, and I’m still in my truck. After a phone call with my old friend Andrew, something shifted. I didn’t feel judged or misunderstood. I felt seen. Then, a wave of peace swept in—deep, abiding, and unfamiliar. I talk about how God has heal...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 28 Title: I’m Relearning Manual So I Can Drive My Family in Freetown Description: It’s June 8th, 3:08 PM, and I’m on my way to my Uncle Greg’s house in Cincinnati for a manual driving lesson. I’m physically tired, mentally tired, spiritually okay but drained from a bit of drama. I learned stick half a life ago detailing cars at my uncle’s Ford dealership—but now I n...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 27 Title: Lose Yourself… or Let God Use You 🧩 Today’s Crumb (Question): If God handed you 90 minutes to change everything… Would you get to work, or waste it waiting for permission? 📍 Description: It’s June 7th, 3:58 AM . I'm hyped. I tried to play Eminem’s Lose Yourself while recording this and blew up my phone. Classic. But this episode is all about the gap betw...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 26 Title: The Hotel Room, the Funeral, and the Forest 📍 Description: This one's a full confessional ping-pong match. Tragedy. Laughter. Conviction. Physics. Pill bugs. We lost a 24-year-old member of the Mercy Ships community to malaria. It’s shaken a lot of us. I wrestle with the limits of healing, faith, and the reality of risk when you're living on mission with...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 25 Title: Time, Eternity, and Cracked Heels Description: It’s 5:37 AM. I’m walking in sandals today—my cracked heels couldn’t handle the blacktop barefoot. But even with aging feet, my spirit’s on fire. In this episode, I wrestle with time : How fast it flies. How sacred it is. And how most of us waste it like we’ll live forever. You’ll hear about a summer memory fr...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 24 Title: Cover-Ups, Catechism & the Cost of Truth Description: It’s 4:30 AM. I’m barefoot, walking through a quiet Cincinnati suburb, and something’s burning in my chest. This wasn’t supposed to be an episode. But it became one. What started as a peaceful morning walk turned into a full-blown firestorm—about institutional lies, religious trust, the Catholic Chu...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 23 Title: Is That the Holy Spirit or Just Me? Description: It’s 5:56 AM. I’m driving an F-150 down River Road toward Fernbank Park with no plan—just a whisper. This episode wasn’t scheduled. I wasn’t trying to be productive. I wasn’t even looking for my phone. But then God asked me: “Will you walk with Me without it?” I said yes. And guess what? He gave it back anyw...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 22 Title: Cold Toes, Old Temptations, and a Sloppy Kind of Sanctification Description: It’s 6:15 AM on June 2nd. I’m barefoot in my dad’s thong sandals, walking through wet, freezing grass behind my parents’ house—half awake, totally unfiltered, and fully in need of God. This episode started as nothing. I didn’t plan it. I hit record. And then the Holy Spirit did wh...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 21 Title: Split Churches, Sleds Up a Mountain, and a Sabbath That Won’t Sit Still Description: It’s Sunday morning. I’m driving through Cincinnati from my parents’ house to Love City Church—alone, a little anxious, and carrying more than just the steering wheel. This episode feels like a tangle of open threads: Old churches. New systems. Family tensions. Crumb delay...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 20 Title: Snails, Skyline, and the Shift Into Build Mode Description: It’s 4:57am. I’m laid out on my parents’ living room couch, the verse of the day still fresh on my phone: “For God is sheer beauty, all generous in love, loyal always and ever.” — Psalm 105 (MSG) Yesterday was a gift. A deep joy. A shift from brainstorming to building. A long hike in the rain. An...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 19 Title: Trees Got Bigger. So Did My Trust. Description: It’s 5:52am. I’m on my parents’ back porch, legs wrapped in a blanket like some old lady, watching the rain hit the trees I grew up with—now towering over me like time itself. This one’s about trust. Not the shiny kind. The kind that gets tested in real meetings, real nerves, real dreams you didn’t plan for....

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 18 Title: Lied to My Wife, Told the Truth to God Date: Wednesday, May 29, 2025 Location: Backyard chaos, morning mayhem with kids and conviction Description: Zach records with his hands full and his heart cracked open. Between chasing kids, dodging dogs, and managing meltdowns, he drops a real-time confession: He lied to his wife. And the weight of unrepented sin cr...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 17 Title: Barefoot in Suburbia, Broken in Spirit Date: Wednesday, May 28, 2025 Location: Delhi, Ohio — 4:55am walk near Zach’s childhood home Description: This one’s a triple-layered soul excavation. Three confessions. One aching heart. No filter. No polish. Just Zach and God in the suburbs where it all began. 💥 Confession 1: I don’t know how to slow down. I say I...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 16 Title: Barefoot in Delhi: We Made It Home Date: Tuesday, May 27, 2025 Location: Delhi Township, Ohio Description: Fresh off the plane, barefoot on gravel, voice note rolling. This is what post-obedience feels like. You’ll hear: My 5:30am barefoot prayer walk across from my childhood home Reflections on the 36-hour journey from Sierra Leone to Cincinnati Why authe...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 15 Title: 36 Hours of Obedience: From Sierra Leone to Cincinnati Date: May 23–25, 2025 Location: Freetown → Ghana → Washington, D.C. → Cincinnati Description: This isn’t a podcast. It’s a war journal. No script. No polish. Just real-time obedience on three hours of sleep and three kids under five. You’ll hear: Our 2:30am wake-up call Boat rides, bus rides, and airpo...

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 13 Title: Risking It for the Beauty of God's Will Date: May 22, 2025 Location: Deck 8, Global Mercy Ship, Freetown, Sierra Leone Description: Today’s confessional hits different. It’s not about strategy, theology, or cultural critique. It’s about a hug. A small, sacred moment between my 3-year-old son and a Mercy Ships crew member named John—9 months in the making....

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 14 (Bonus Drop) Title: Risking It for the Hug: A Live Shipboard Devotional Date: May 22, 2025 Location: Starboard Lounge, Global Mercy, Freetown, Sierra Leone Description: Today’s episode is a live devotional I gave to the Hospitality and Housekeeping teams on Mercy Ships—right before we pack up and fly back to the U.S. This wasn’t recorded in my usual 5AM prayer bo...