Vanessa’s Lack Thereof

A conversation for myself by myself (as the majority of these audios are) about re-teaching my brain to see in pictures. Learning to play with imagination to hack my reality for the better 👌🏾🖼️🥳

A passionate conversation about what makes people successful and it has a wee bit to do with race but mostly not at all so don’t get it twisted 🤡

I’m shit. Everything is shit. Nothing fucking even matters!!!!!!!!! 👺🖕🏾🙎🏽‍♀️

Ugh, this one was rough. Feeling very inadequate but fuck it.

I have been struggling to speak the past few days and this is the best I can do right now. I’m dissatisfied and insecure with my audios, and truly all aspects of my life, lately. Still, I am here persisting even when (especially when) it feels all hope is lost… okay okay, I am being a bit dramatic about shit but I feel what I feel and try not to judge myself too harshly while taking 100% accountab...

Sort of cuts off at the end but fuck it — it is what it is

Dear (female) bitches: Stop trying to capture a high value (by societal terms) man if you cannot deal with the sacrifices it takes. Because there are sooooo many. Most of us get to choose the men we want and we do a fucking terrible job at that. Women make horrendous decisions and also get to shirk responsibility time after time after fucking time. And I’m just over here yelling and screaming at y...

Using Rod Stewart’s song “Young Turks” to illustrate a healthy ebb and flow of submission within men and women romantic relationships. Okay wow I really sound dumb as hell not knowing that 10% of 600,000 is 60,000 🙄😑 Classic lady brain/Vanessa move 🙆🏽‍♀️

Comparing humans to ants in a way that, hopefully, illustrates why different perspectives are beneficial and uplifting. As well as why it’s better to trust yourself fully then pretend to be some lame ass version of you just because you’re too afraid, unaware, unsure, etc. to discover the truth of who you are. Then again, maybe you shouldn’t listen to me. It’s YOUR life. Control what you can and le...

“Happy times together we’d be spending. Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true. Baby then there wouldn’t be a single thing we couldn’t do” — Beach Boys

Scary revelations to be aware of but no paranoia needed 🫵🏾👹

Reflecting on my childhood/teenage years. Although I’ve certainly been this type of villain (and far worse) I’m sharing stories of my villains. And I get a bit carried away which is expected because I am dramatic as fuck 🦹🏽‍♀️⚛️

Giving some fun marketing options and reminding myself and all that being honorable can be a HUGE pain in the ass but it’ll (hopefully 🤞🏾) be worth it 💁🏽‍♀️

Just me going ape shit on these dumb hoes in the hopes that the rare breed of rational, coherent, critical thinking ladies can organize with me to create some form of code of ethics a majority of us could follow and enforce (even though I know it’ll take time). Plus, to be fair I’m mostly just cursing & yelling 🧠🗣️🫦👩🏽

If it doesn’t concern you personally why waste your energy and time reacting to it? And I get it — it’s hard to hear and accept the truth as well as admit your faults — and every day is a new opportunity to try. Maybe not ALL women find fulfillment with marriage and kids but a huge number of them do so if it’s not for you who cares. The more anger and emotion you output only proves this “hurtful”...

Just me reminding myself of my weight loss goals and to stay on top of my shit overall. You make failure and progress look sexy bitch keep gooooooiiiinnnng 🫵🏾💁🏽‍♀️💋

Join me ladies as we venture into the minds of potential men through our imagination

Me rambling about the dreams I have for myself and learning to actualize them

I am too good for this bullshit. Fack!

An episode where I attempt to encourage women to see all sides of situations as well as encourage them to be of quality character. Baby steps🪜👼🏽

Here I go again ranting about some of the modern members of the letter community and their disgusting entitlement as well as us moron women who have encouraged and allowed this dumb shit to get to this point 😡🤬

Some profound insights as I take a journey through my mind and its step by step thought process.

Just showing up as best as I can right now

Are you a dumb bitch taking advantage of people for material gain? Well, you don’t have to be plus it may lead you to a far happier and fulfilling existence if you chose to understand, apply, and respect money as well as its high earners & principles 🤑🤑🤑

If he’s making you orgasm consistently there really isn’t much to do but stay fucking loyal ride or die til the bitter end bitch. Get your priorities together before he realizes you’re garbage & goes off to find better (which he GENUINELY FUCKING DESERVES!!)