Unmasked - Becoming Who I Am

There’s a version of divorce people understand. The dramatic one. The explosive one. The one where everyone agrees it makes sense. That wasn’t mine. From the outside, my life looked stable. Married. House. Kids. No chaos. No scandal. And that almost made it harder. Because sometimes resentment isn’t loud anger. Sometimes it’s grief. Grief for the life that looks right, but doesn’t fit. In this epi...

I joined a gym because I was desperate, not to lose weight, but to feel like a person again. It had childcare. Classes. Structure. And walking through those doors felt bigger than it should have, because it wasn’t for my kids. It was for me. As part of onboarding, I was paired with a trainer. What I didn’t expect was how quickly I would start talking…About my marriage, my anxiety, my identity loss...

When I said I wanted a divorce, I expected relief. Instead, the world shut down. I chose myself… and then the pandemic hit. Schools closed. Gyms shut down. The future evaporated. Nothing changed, except everything changed. In this episode, I talk about what it actually feels like to choose yourself without a safety net. Living together while separating. Grieving a marriage while raising kids. Gett...

After the year everything collapsed, I didn’t feel empowered. I felt empty. And I think that matters, because choosing yourself doesn’t start with confidence. It starts with not being able to live the way you’ve been living anymore. When the hospital stays were over and the emergencies stopped, everyone else moved on. But I didn’t. I felt like a married single mom, carrying everything. Feeling uns...

This episode might make some people uncomfortable. Because it’s about anger. Not explosive anger. Quiet anger. The kind you swallow to stay safe. I learned early how to be “good.” Responsible. Easy. Low-maintenance. Manageable. When you’re not allowed to express anger outwardly, it turns inward. It causes anxiety. Perfectionism. Control. Self-blame. In this episode, I talk about: Staying in relati...

This was the year everything quietly fell apart. Not in one dramatic moment. But in layers. My son’s emergency surgery. Two months of isolation before the pandemic ever happened. A cancer scare with the same oncologist who treated my mom. My Daughter's Hospitalization. Borderline sepsis. And doing it mostly alone. From the outside, I was “handling it.” From the inside, my nervous system was un...

Motherhood didn't soften my anxiety, it exposed it. I share my experiences with birth trauma, postpartum anxiety, and identity loss, and how becoming a mother amplified everything I hadn't healed yet.

After addiction and loss, I built a life that looked stable on the outside. In this episode, I talk about recovery, responsibility, and trying to become someone "better" without fully processing what I'd lived through.

Grief doesn't always arrive loudly. Sometimes it settles in quietly and changes how you move through the world. In this episode, I talk about loss, the death of my grandmother, and how unresolved grief stacked instead of healing. This is where survival became my default.

In this episode, I talk aboutmy first serious relationship and how love, chaos, and addiction became intertwined. This isn't about blame, it's about how self-abandonment can look like devotion, and how being yourself often happens slowly, not all at once.

This episode is a pause placed intentionally. I step back from the timeline to name the patterns that were already forming beneath everything: anxiety, control, attachment, fear, and survival. These patterns didn't come from nowhere, they were learned early and carried forward quietly.

This episode explores how I followed the script: stability, partnership, family, and responsibility, even when it didn't feel right. I talk about choosing the "right" life over the aligned one, and how ignoring my internal signals slowly cost me my sense of self.

Relief can feel like understanding, but it isn't the same thing. In this episode, I talk about early coping mechanisms, moments of calm that didn't last, and how surviving without healing quietly shaped my nervous system and relationships.

This episode introduces the mask, the one I learned to wear early in life to survive. I talk about performing, people-pleasing, and building an identity around being "fine". This is the beginning of understanding how masking kept me functional, but disconnected from myself.

This podcast isn't about fixing yourself. It's about understanding how you became who you are. In this short intro episode, I share why I'm telling my story now, what Unmasked is meant to hold — and what it's not. This isn't trauma dumping. It's not self-help in a pretty package. And it's definitely not for everyone. If you've ever felt like you were performing your...