Uncensored Self with Ryann Gillen

Who are you when you strip away every role you carry? Not what would you do. Who would you be? This episode is for the woman who has built a life around being the reliable one, the responsible one, the strong one, and has no idea who she is underneath all of it. Today Ryann goes into the identity conversation that changes everything. Not the surface level version. The real one. You are a soul livi...

You did everything right. The business is moving. The calendar is full. The people around you are proud of you. And somewhere between the coffee and the first meeting you had a thought you did not say out loud. Is this it. This episode is for the woman who has built something real and still feels like something is fundamentally off. Today Ryann breaks down what is actually happening, why it is not...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. Today's episode is one I have been sitting with for a while because I keep seeing the same theme show up everywhere. In my clients, in conversations, in my own story. We are breaking down the identity crisis that no one is talking about. The one that happens not when you fail, but when you succeed at being someone you are not. You did everything rig...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. If you have been hearing the menopause narrative online and feeling like it sounds dark, limiting, and kind of hopeless, this episode is for you. Ryann sits down with Amy Gernaat, the Midlife Architect, to talk about the lies women have been sold about their bodies and why midlife is not a decline, it is a turning point. In this episode, we cover: Why m...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. Today’s episode is a doozy. We’re breaking down the real difference between the 95% of people who try really hard to win… and the 5% who actually do. If you’re a high-achieving woman who has executed, achieved, and still feels dissatisfied, this conversation will resonate. This is not about working harder. It’s about understanding why the system you’ve...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. In this episode, Ryann sits down with Toni Will, a powerhouse woman leading in one of the most male-dominated industries in professional sports while building a deeply intentional, multi-dimensional life outside of it. Toni is the General Manager of the Kalamazoo Wings men’s professional hockey team, a TEDx speaker, leadership coach, and the host of the...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. Today we’re talking about something that high-achieving women don’t say out loud: What if nothing is working… because you don’t actually want what you built anymore? This isn’t a conversation about laziness or lack of discipline. It’s about the woman who always does the work. The one who hits the goals, carries the weight, executes the strategy—and stil...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. You’re not stuck because you don’t have enough information. You’re stuck because changing requires you to confront safety, identity, and comfort. In this episode, we break down why change feels so hard — even when you’re smart, capable, self-aware, and “know what to do.” If you’ve ever thought: “If I’m so competent, why can’t I figure this out?” This on...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. In this episode, I am teaching on the difference between reacting to your life and responding to it, because the quality of your life is directly tied to whether you live in reaction or response. Reaction keeps you stuck in the past. Response creates your future. In this episode, we cover: Why reaction is not a personality flaw, it is a conditioned surv...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. In this episode, I’m joined by Ryan Thompson for a real conversation about success, trauma, masculinity, femininity, and what it actually takes to change your patterns instead of just understanding them. We talk about what happens when your life is built on survival, why “protecting your peace” can be ego in disguise, and how nervous system regulation i...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. This episode is personal. Vulnerable. And uncomfortable on purpose. I’m asking a question most high-achieving women never stop to ask themselves: Are you addicted to money? Not in a greedy way. In a compulsive way. In a nervous system way. In the way where you feel calm when the money is good and panicked when it’s not. In the way where no matter how mu...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. This episode was inspired by a powerful moment on the Closer Cruise, where a wildly successful woman asked the question so many high-achievers are quietly carrying: When is enough… enough? After spending a week surrounded by people who are winning on paper but still feeling anxious, pressured, and unable to slow down, this episode became a real-time coa...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. What if what you’ve been chasing this whole time is happiness? Not in a cheesy, settle for less kind of way. In a real way. A life you’re obsessed with. A life that actually feels good to live in. Because if you’re being honest… you’ve probably been chasing enoughness, love, freedom, safety, peace, and joy through the world’s version of success. Money....

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. In this episode, we’re talking about money goals and why I’m not setting a single one for 2026. Not because money doesn’t matter, but because I am done letting money be the thing that decides how I feel, how I lead, and how I experience my life. This is a conversation about decentering money, removing pressure, and shifting from chasing a number to beco...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. It is the first episode of 2026, and we are starting the year with a conversation that will change the tone of your entire life. This episode is about radical fucking ownership. Not goal-setting. Not a reset button. Ownership. In this episode, we cover: Why the new year can feel inspiring or completely wrong depending on how you relate to winter, nature...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. This is the last episode of 2025, and today’s conversation is more of a chat than a teaching. Woman to woman. High achiever to high achiever. Because there is something I keep noticing right now as we head into a new year, and I want to put words to it. So many women are trying to get back to somewhere. Back to the year it felt easy. Back to the season...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. In today’s episode, we’re talking about changing your relationship with hard work and productivity, because so many high-achieving women are obsessed with being productive, addicted to “hard,” and secretly terrified of slowing down. This episode was sparked by Derek’s company gala, where presenter after presenter justified awards by highlighting how har...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. Today’s episode is a real, honest, behind-the-scenes conversation with my partner, Derek Sobek. We talk about what makes our relationship work, what surprised him about me early on, and how trust, receiving, and intention have changed everything for both of us. In this episode, we cover: What most people would never guess about our relationship and our...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. This episode is a celebration of the first 12 months of The Uncensored Self and the woman you’ve become alongside it. I’m taking you behind the scenes of year one: the pivots, the surprises, the momentum, the moments that didn’t “look successful” on paper but changed everything, and the quiet ways my life became something I’m truly obsessed with. In thi...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. This episode is a wake-up call for every woman who quietly writes off December and promises herself she’ll “start in January.” We’re talking about the stories you’ve absorbed about Q4, why you feel the urge to slow down, and how that pattern is actually self-abandonment disguised as “logic” and “being realistic.” In this episode, we cover: Why “Q4 is sl...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. In this episode, we’re talking about what it really means to be addicted to overwhelm – addicted to stress, chaos, and drama – and why so many high-achieving women think it’s just “part of the deal.” You’ll see how this isn’t just a bad habit or personality quirk. It’s an identity and a frequency you’ve been matching without even realizing it. In this e...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. Today I’m sharing some real, end-of-year reflections: on time, on failure, on bankruptcy and divorce, on building an entirely new brand in 12 months, and on why none of it is a tragedy. This episode is a reclamation of my story and an invitation for you to rewrite yours, too. We look at how every challenge becomes a tool, how manifestation is really abo...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. Today we’re unpacking Power Leaks—the subtle, “totally normal” places you hand your energy, attention, and emotion to things that don’t serve you. If energy is your creative force, every leak dilutes your ability to become an energetic match for what you want. We define power, locate the most common leaks, and show you how to reclaim your focus so you c...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. Today we’re talking about energetic standards—what you’re available for in business and life. This episode came through right after my Kansas City workshop, Stop Running Your Business Like a Man, and a powerful conversation inside a membership I’m part of. I’m sharing how I’m setting my own standards in real time and how that’s changing my clients, my s...

Welcome back to The Uncensored Self Podcast. I had zero plans to record this episode today… but when God says “talk about money,” you hit record. So here we are — completely unfiltered, mid-breakthrough, talking about money, identity, overflow, and what actually happens when your results outgrow your capacity to hold them. In this episode, I share how I went from a $1.2M year to rebuilding from sc...