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After falling into a co-dependent relationship, a woman’s boyfriend begins a bewildering decline, but after losing his battle, she awakens to a deeper understanding of grief, death and generational patterns of trauma and silence. Today’s episode featured Amanda Coggin. If you’d like to reach out, you can email her at spiritualinthebay@gmail.com . Amanda has also compiled a list of resources for me...

Growing up with a controlling and mentally abusive mother, a woman suffers from a severe eating disorder that leaves her hopeless, until she discovers Medical Assistance in Dying, a program in Canada whereby people can receive assistance from a medical practitioner to voluntarily end their life. Today’s episode featured Agata. If you’d like to reach out to her, you can email at amgawron@shaw.ca Ag...

Navigating a chaotic upbringing, a man finds his path through sports, military and grueling police work, but as the scars from Iraq, the domestic violence unit, and corrupt police politics mount, he pursues a dark reckoning to try to recover his humanity.   Today’s guest requested to remain anonymous, but if you’d like to contact him, you can email at T21439@proton.me Producers:  Whit Mi...

Finally emerging from her critical and violent home life, a teenager suffers a freak electrocution from a downed power line, sending unexpected shockwaves through her and her family.  Today’s episode featured Ann Kronlage. You can find out more about Ann on Instagram @annclairekronlage, or you can contact her over email at annclairekronlage@gmail.com . Ann also wrote a memoir about her experi...

Bullied from a young age, a woman’s insecurities lead her to a highly toxic relationship she can’t shake, but when she moves into a new life, an even greater threat lurks. Producers:  Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits, Aviva Lipkowitz Content/Trigger Warnings:  bullying, stalking, domestic violence, graphic bodily injury, PTSD, explicit language   Social Media:  Instagram: @actuall...

Growing up in a very strict Persian-Indian-American family with an abusive father, a woman vows never to get married and repeat her parents cycle, but after her father arranges for her to meet her future husband, everything changes.   Today’s episode featured Mev Chubet. You can find out more about Mev on Instagram @mevchubet, you can also reach out to her over email at mchubet@gmail.com . Me...

Escaping a world of gangs and drugs, a man joins the military and becomes a veteran of Iraq, but the scars from his past, PTSD and a TBI haunt him until a fateful day when he faces the ultimate demons.  Today's episode featured Daniel Norwood. If you'd like to reach out to Daniel, or make donations to his family, you can email at  Danielnorwood281@gmail.com . Daniel's story came to us by...

A chaotic upbringing leaves a woman with chronic depression, but after the birth of her first child, she enters a new level of chaos from which she struggles to return.   Today's episode featured Olivia Armond. You can find her on Instagram @the_redheaded_alaskan and on Facebook at  facebook.com/olivia.boldt.12 .  Olivia also wanted to share some links to resources for those needing...

A woman with a severe eating disorder and addiction finds inspiration in the strength of a religious community and a woman who has beaten the odds, but when the illusions begin to crumble, a deeper source of strength emerges.  Today's episode featured Lindsey Wilder. To contact Lindsey, you can reach out over email at actuallylindsey@yahoo.com . To find out more about Amanda C. Riley, he...

Growing up in poverty, a man finds an outlet in a racist metal band, when one day fate transforms him and he pursues an unlikely marriage, but when his wife begins to switch, new identities emerge that stretch the limits of love.  Today’s episode featured Matthew Fanning. If you’d like to reach out to him, you can email at fanning77120@gmail.com , or you can find him on Facebook at facebook.c...

A woman leaves behind the wounds of her alcoholic father, only to find out that her husband’s addiction is threatening to ruin their family; but when he goes to find healing through a plant medicine ceremony, a shocking, darker truth is revealed. Today's guest requested to remain anonymous, but if you'd like to reach out to her, can can email at: stilltallnlucky@gmail.com Producers:  Whit Mis...

After facing abuse at a young age, a man develops a festering, unseen sense of emptiness that finds expression in an act of violence that would haunt him forever. Today’s episode featured Jon Romano. You can find out more about Jon by following him on TikTok, YouTube, Instagram, Threads and Snapchat all with the same handle: @JonSeekingPeace. If you’d like to reach out to him directly, you can als...

Going from a highly privileged family to college at Princeton to a career as the first male supermodel, Hoyt Richards was truly living the dream, but as he fell deeper under the influence of magnetic mentor, he started living a secret life that threatened to consume him. Today’s episode featured Hoyt Richards. If you want to dive deeper into many of the elements Hoyt touched on in this episode, an...

Growing up with undiagnosed autism and confronting her mother’s death at a young age, a woman struggles to understand herself and her family, but when her father commits an incomprehensible act, she is left tragically bewildered. Today’s episode featured Andrea Schwam. If you’d like to contact her, you can email at andreaschwam@gmail.com. Producers:  Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits, Sara Marine...

Being born without his right hand, man’s resentment and monstrous self-image deepen as family and doctors intervene to fix his condition, leading him to question what would truly make him whole.  Today’s episode featured Ryan. If you’d like to reach out to him you can email at ryan.a.20918@gmail.com Producers:  Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits Content/Trigger Warnings:  medical trauma,...

After growing up with a father she could never fully please and a trauma she couldn’t share, a woman is slowly groomed into an underworld of sex work beyond what she bargained for.  Today’s guest requested to remain anonymous, but if you’d like to reach out to her, you can email at xoxoskye00@gmail.com Producers:  Whit Missildine, Aviva Lipkowitz, Andrew Waits Content/Trigger Warnings:&n...

Growing up Muslim in the Middle East, a woman juggles the chaotic expectations of a severely abusive mother with her desire for self-expression; but when she comes into a sexual awakening, a secret world opens where a deeper healing waits.  Producers:  Whit Missildine, Aviva Lipkowitz, Andrew Waits Content/Trigger Warnings:  domestic violence, domestic abuse of a minor, sexual fetis...

Grappling with a lifetime of looming abuse from his father and a mother suffering from paralysis, a man decides to cut ties with his parents, only to set in motion a new set of horrors that threaten to decimate his entire family.  Today’s episode featured Jesse. If you’d like to reach out to him, you can contact at jessefromtiah@gmail.com .  Producers:  Whit Missildine, Aviva Lipkow...

After escaping a childhood of bewildering traumas, a woman gives herself fully to a charming man with dark secrets, but when justice comes, she awakens to new self-insights and a unique superpower.  Today’s guest requested to remain anonymous, but if you’d like to reach out to her, you can email at stickandsand60.3@gmail.com Producers:  Whit Missildine, Jason Blalock, Andrew Waits Conten...

Escaping the tumult and abuses of his childhood through music, a young man lands a dream gig at a premiere nightclub in Mexico, but when the party’s over, he finds himself inside the underbelly that lurks beneath the glamour.  Today's episode featured Gladden Rangel. You can find out more about him on Instagram @gladden_sane or on Facebook at Eddie IZM. You can also contact him over email at&...

Growing up in a family of ex-Scientologists, a person finds solace in relationships, when they suddenly fall in love with someone calling everything in their life into question while descending into mental illness. Today's episode featured Cass Donish. Cass is a poet, writer, and educator from the West Coast. They write about queer desire, grief and loss, and ecology. They live in Missouri. Websit...

After being subjected to horrific abuses from his schizophrenic father as a child, a man later descends into his own mental illness, but as he struggles to recover, a freak accident unexpectedly awakens him into a new life. Today’s episode featured Alex. You can find out more about Alex and his drag performances on Instagram @ellum_ayo.   Producers:  Whit Missildine, Sara Marinelli, Andr...

In the wake of her uncle’s untimely death, a woman bears the brunt of her mother’s long mental health decline, struggling to keep her safe from herself, and in the wake of tragedy, finds a way to help thousands of others like her.  Today’s episode featured Katrina Brees. You can find Katrina on Instagram @katrinabrees, and if you’d like to find out more about her legislation and donate or sup...

From an idyllic childhood in communist Yugoslavia, as a teenager, Mirsad’s world becomes a living nightmare as the Bosnian War brings shelling, torture, murder and ethnic cleansing to his village, leaving deep scars that haunt and transform his life.  Today's episode featured Mirsad Solakovic. If you would like to contribute to help the Solak Gym (a charitable organization) that Mirsad helped...

A woman buries a series of childhood traumas and falls into a chaotic world of drugs and abuse, but when things turn from darkness to horror, she must make split second, life or death decisions that ultimately bring everything to the surface Today's episode featured Kathy Robertson. You can find out more about her on Instagram @kathyrobertson.homefire. You can also reach out to her over email at&n...