The Suffering Podcast

Send us Fan Mail Stefanie Shellhamer is a 32-year-old born and raised in New Jersey. She is a daughter, sister, aunt and friend. Stefanie is the daughter of retired police captain Peter Shellhamer, whom she adored very much. She has a unique understanding and perspective of law enforcement because of this relationship. Unfortunately, her father passed away suddenly in September of 2021 at 59, due...

Send us Fan Mail Taylor Cavanaugh went from jail, to Navy SEAL, back to jail, suicidal, to French Foreign Legionnaire. Learning to self-actualize his divine design via a correct system of life disciplines. Now he is on a mission to show others how to re-align their lives to experience peace and clarity by training the mind deliberately as well as the body. Showing others how to get their fire for...

Send us Fan Mail On May 9th, 2024, Mike Failace sadly took his own life.  A man who impacted so many was put to rest and those that are left behind have to witness the fallout and the carnage by this permanent solution.  Mike Depalma and Bobby Crudele have been life long friends of Mike Failace and we all sit down to talk about the good and the bad that was my partner, brother, and best friend.  J...

Send us Fan Mail #2 FREDDIE MITCHELL has endured pain and suffering from multiple angles that would break most people.  Serving his country honorably in United StatesArmy, Freddie chose a life of service but found quickly. It was a calling. After leaving military service, FREDDIE applied and was hired by the Roseland Police Department to continue this civic lifestyle. His personal life began to un...

Send us Fan Mail #1 FREDDIE MITCHELL has endured pain and suffering from multiple angles that would break most people.  Serving his country honorably in United StatesArmy, Freddie chose a life of service but found quickly. It was a calling. After leaving military service, FREDDIE applied and was hired by the Roseland Police Department to continue this civic lifestyle. His personal life began to un...

Send us Fan Mail Gustavo Gutierrez was born in North Bergen, New Jersey to Cuban immigrant parents. As a child he was raised mostly by his grandparents while his parents were working, living the “American dream.” Cuban culture, strong beliefs, and food was always the center of his everything. He grew up in and around the kitchen, wether it was helping his abuela or making his own dinner, food was...

Send us Fan Mail Suzanne is both a Registered Professional Nurse and Licensed Marriage & Family Therapist actively working in the health field for the past 20 + years. Suzanne's experience in both nursing and counseling has informed her framework as a holistic mental health provider. Over the years, she has worked at a variety of milieus including outpatient community clinics, inpatient psychiatry...

Send us Fan Mail Seth Gehle is a multifaceted individual whose journey embodies resilience, determination, and triumph. An accomplished ultra marathon runner, BJJ athlete, and overall fitness enthusiast, Seth's dedication to physical excellence is matched only by his unwavering commitment to personal growth. In addition to his athletic pursuits, Seth has earned national recognition in the construc...

Send us Fan Mail Part 2 Lexi Knight is a 46 year old trans woman,and former drug addict, who lives in South Carolina. She moved there 8 years ago when she was living in her car with her little dog Taco, who is a chihuahua, and a loyal friend to her. She is a social media influencer on Twitch & TikTok, known as Justagirllexi on all of her social media platforms. Lexi is a strong and passionate advo...

Send us Fan Mail Part 1 Lexi Knight is a 46 year old trans woman,and former drug addict, who lives in South Carolina. She moved there 8 years ago when she was living in her car with her little dog Taco, who is a chihuahua, and a loyal friend to her. She is a social media influencer on Twitch & TikTok, known as Justagirllexi on all of her social media platforms. Lexi is a strong and passionate advo...

Send us Fan Mail Mike Faria was born and raised in New Jersey and as a teenager experimenting with drugs and alcohol to deal with his childhood traumas. In October 2019, Mike went into a major depression and began drinking more than he ever had in his life. Mike had to take leave from his job to try and function through the drunken hours. He thought he was going to be able to stop, but he was wron...

Send us Fan Mail From the tender age of four, Ken Teets was confronted with the challenge of a speech impediment, marked by severe stuttering. Initially, his parents brushed it off as a phase he would outgrow. However, as years unfolded, Ken's struggle intensified, that hampered his ability to communicate but also unfairly branded him as intellectually sluggish among his peers, teachers, and loved...

Send us Fan Mail Danny was born to Puerto Rican parents in Jersey City New Jersey. At the age of 10 he, his mom, sister, and father moved to Bayonne New Jersey. Danny biological father was not present, although Danny knew who he was. Danny did not grow up with alot of love and attention. During this time he found his love for rap music and began to write his own rap lyrics. This was a way for Dann...

Send us Fan Mail Keith Shibley is a twenty-year veteran of law enforcement. He is currently a K-9 handler at Metropolitan Washington Airports Keith started his law enforcement career in 2002, graduating from the Northern Virginia Criminal Justice Academy as a patrol officer for the Metropolitan Washington Airports Authority Police Department. In 2003 Keith left the Airport police and moved to Rich...

Send us Fan Mail Richard Kaufman originally hails from Belleville, NJ. He proudly served in the United States Army from 1986-1988. Richard had a temporary break in service, he continued to serve in the Army National Guard from 1991-2012 in the following states, New Jersey, Pennsylvania, and South Carolina. One of the missions of his unit was to support Operation Enduring Freedom. Richard was medic...

Send us Fan Mail From the campus of Montclair State University, Matthew Isler witnessed the tragic events of September 11th, 2001. It eventually inspired him to pursue a career in law enforcement. For over a decade he took police exams. After graduating from college, Matt had a desk job in publishing for seven years and was eventually laid off. A week later, he finally received his police test cer...

Send us Fan Mail Bobby Crudele is back! A very magnetic and energetic personality who happens to be one of the best Law Enforcement Officers in North Jersey.  Outwardly he appeared to be the life of the party.  On the inside, Bobby was fighting a battle that he was losing slowly, the fight with the bottle.  After chasing Alcohol down a very dangerous path, Bobby surrendered and asked for help, som...

Send us Fan Mail Ryan grew up in western Wi and is from a family of cops on his mother’s side, farmers, trades people and laborers on his fathers side. Ryan initially followed in his father’s footsteps in the trades as an electrician, but while working on new home construction of sever police officers, he did some ride a longs and was hooked. Ryan worked as an electrician at night so he could atte...

Send us Fan Mail Kenneth Strange Jr. is a former FBI Special Agent and DOJ Special Agent-In-Charge, Private Investigator and Award-Winning author.  A Spanish-speaker, Arabist and member of the FBI’s Joint Terrorism Task Force (JTTF), he has recently published a Best-Selling true crime memoir, “A Cop’s Son: One G-Man’s Fight Against Jihad, Global Fraud and the Cartels.” Strange served with three di...

Send us Fan Mail Angel joined the NYPD in June 1992 and worked patrol and anti-crime until 2004, eventually being moved to the 48 Detective Squad, Burglary Robbery Apprehension Module In 2005 Angel was Promoted to Detective and began a specialized detail in the Joint Terrorism Task Force (JTTF) in 2007.  Throughout is time in the JTTF Angel was the case Detective for Operation Rapid Return finding...

Send us Fan Mail  ​Michael Anthony  Palazzo was  born and raised in  Quuens. He was raised in a small neighborhood called Maspeth,a predominantly Italian neighboorhood. it was a neighborhood that if your family didn't own a business you became cop or fireman  or a gangster or somewhere in between. Michael was heavily involved in athletics  growing up and never really wanted to be a cop. His father...

Send us Fan Mail Sherrie Allsup is an international speaker, educator, and subject matter expert with lived experience. She speaks on topics such as sexual assault, sexual abuse, trauma, and suicide. Sherrie is a survivor of long-term sexual abuse, trauma, and suicide attempts. After much hard work and healing she became the founder and CEO of Courage Starts With You. For victims, Courage means te...

Send us Fan Mail Dom is the only child to immigrant parents from Italy, all about the ideas and practice of morals. He started his career in Law Enforcement in 1997 as a juvenile detention officer then became a Hudson county Corrections Officer. In 2000 he graduated from Essex County police Academy, as a Hudson County Sheriff Officer, the following year in 2001 took his oath as a  Bayonne Police O...

Send us Fan Mail George T. Drost, a distinguished attorney and curator of art, has a life story that mirrors the resilience and triumph of the human spirit. Born in former Czechoslovakia during one of the darkest periods in history, George's early years were marred by the harsh realities of World War II. His parents were compelled to divorce, and his father faced the brutal fate of being forced in...

Send us Fan Mail Michael Martyn can be summed up in a handful of words. He is a father, a husband, a veteran, a brother to 5, and a former foster child. While these words may be accurate, they give no justice to the many difficult situations and circumstances that Mike had faced throughout his life. At four years old, Mike lost his father to a car accident and continued living with his mother, who...