The Journals Of MJ Unleashed

it's about to get messy, y'all. in this episode, I investigate why I don't feel like creating, neither my book nor music, & reflect on the last time I felt this way. maybe the 'not wanting to create' is a part of the process? part of the mess? also, what can I change or in what ways can I pivot in my routine? of course, perfectionism, fear & productivity-beliefs rear their beautiful heads....

procrastination is so present for me at the moment. in this episode I share how it's showing up, why it's there (hint: has something to do with protecting us, just like aaalll the other egoic voices) & what I do to counteract it. I'm beginning to entertain the thought that I might already have everthing it takes. that I'm actually already enough. despite the fear of what taking action could br...

in this episode I go deeeep into my perfectionism. I explore in what ways it's showing up these days, how it's trying to protect me. I get into its links to over-preparing, procrastination (!!!), people pleasing & how it affects my mental health (hint; it's exhaaaaausting AF!) I also share which 'rules' I've implemented to override perfectionism, so I am able to actually create e.g. on IG &amp...

self-doubt, perfectionism, trusting your gut & intuition--in this episode I finally share my insights from my conversation with Amie Mcnee . I get into the daunting next steps of my creative recovery; finishing my 'on hold for a year now' EP. I share how self-doubt & perfectionism have kept me from finishing, how intuition & gut are absolutely legitimate & necessary, & how it's...

this episode goes deeper into the realm of receiving. I share the aftermath of my first coaching session with Amie McNee; how because of it my platform has grown & along with it the pressure to perform (hello procrastination & perfectionism); & how I'm struggling receiving the amazing support from Amie. these are issues with trust in self & trust in others. these are issues with believing that I a...

this episode is aaaalll about receiving. what has that got to do with creativity, you ask? well, in this episode I talk about how hustling & struggling  has led me to burn-out time & time again. about why it doesn't work to give, give give. in order to -live- sustainably, it's becoming clear to me that I need support. & to let inspiration meet me halfway. listen in to learn why th...

welcome back after a short break! brace yourself for an episode all about the heartbreak surrounding failure. I rarely talk about it, but in this episode I go deep into how my music career has felt like utter failure up until my burnout in 2020. I talk about how the hustle & hardship still haunts me, how it's now is keeping me from finishing my next EP, & why heartbreak is the word that co...

wuuuh! proud of this milestone <3 in this episode I celebrate the ease I've learned to accompany my creativity, as opposed to the hard, exhausting hustle I've relied on for so many years. I also talk about rest & share a story (or revelation, I might say) about anxiety & trauma. AND at the end I reveal a special GIVEAWAY that YOU can win! YAY! GIVEAWAY: submit your name to a random draw...

y'all, brace yourselves for some shameless marveling! closing on a milestone that is episode 50 of this podcast, I recap everything I've gone through, achieved & transformed these last 3 months. I talk about how consistent small goals have changed by process completely. I talk about how I've gone from not even knowing IF I wanted to compose to now finishing song no. 5, how I've somehow written...

in this episode I wrap up some of the lessons from the last episode on loneliness. I talk about this platform as a place for honesty & creating space for us to accept ALL the emotions, all the ups & downs. also, I share how I've just started song no. 6, I'm almost done with my book's first draft (!!!) & how I got mindfucked by perfectionism while making a reel ABOUT perfectionism.  thank you for l...

y'all, this is a vulnerable one. in this episode I share my feelings of loneliness from both living in lock-down land, but also the undercurrent of loneliness that has followed my creative path for several years now. I talk about receiving support, about how the isolation in the feeling leaves me disconnected & unable to reach out. oh, aaaand of course shame stops in to say hi. this is for all...

being in some heavy energy, I try to articulate how I'm beginning to really fathom that I am responsible for creating my life. I notice how this could be the (hopefully) final frontier to accept before I can finally take myself to the next level. but it's daunting as shit. my body/mind (read: ego) are screaming at me that it's dangerous, but my heart & soul have places to go & art to creat...

y'all, I am procrastinating on sharing my shitty songwriting. in this episode, I investigate WHY the fuck that is. I get into everything that's holding me back; que shame, fear of being exposed in all my vulnerability, fear of being too good, insecurities around my body--it's aaaall there, y'all. if you've ever procrastinated sharing your art, this is the episode for you. I'm sure you'll feel ridi...

I walk you through today's creative session with my songwriting, bookwriting & instagramming. I talk about how I am regaining hope to some day be able to write music I love again. & also, wouldn't you know it -- today, writing my book & writing an IG caption had one common denominator; judgment! yay! I tell you how I recognize judgment all over the place & how it's a first class ti...

I start this episode with a follow up & cool down after the last, groundbreaking episode--life is both the breakthrough days & the drowsy days, which episode really exemplifies. I also share exciting news about a new podcast-project I'm starting. despite the fact that I still need to take some major decisions about the project, I talk about why I am taking ACTION already & finally just...

y'all.... THIS IS A BIG ONE. for the first time ever, I share publicly how a PTSD-diagnosis has been & still is a huge part of my creative recovery. I've been hesitant to share this though, because of fear of judgment & backlash, but I am a point where I CAN'T let my mental health hold me back any longer. I am done resisting the future I dream of because I think my health can't handle it....

Coming off of a three-hour spiritual retreat, I go full out on all my spiritual freakiness. I talk about what spirituality means to me & my creativity, how I’ve felt ashamed to call myself spiritual (openly) & how I’m currently struggling with a narrative of feeling unworthy of the universe's support. I really let my unashamed self out in this one, y'all. uh, and I also reveal the original...

a little update on how it's been returning to my daily creating after the short break. how my shitty song #4's coming about, the book writing is starting to flow & perfectionism showing up with my IG posting. also, I talk about the test I'm being put through by the municipal systems to stand in my power, speak my truth & respect my boundaries--even when I'm not believed or supported in doi...

longer update episode ahead! after a week off, I allow myself a little more time in this episode to uncover how I've been feeling while resting & playing a prestigious gig backing my girl GRETA (more links below) on national TV. I reflect on how I can feel a shift in how I relate to the industry, how I am embodying all the progress I've made this last year. & I witness some 'new' narrative...

dealing with perfectionism from different perspectives in this one. I give an update on how shitty song #4 suddenly has me mindfucked, cause the chords + lyrics are too good?! like, how am I supposed to allow a shitty melody on top of that? & I share how creating my first IGTV also triggered old perfectionistic stories & of course some lovely procrastination. enjoy! thank you for listening, love....

in this entry, I share with you how I use social media to practice being myself & cultivating courage. I talk about how I started my account to be create a safe space to show up authentically. & how I now deliberately use it to step, mindfully, out of my comfort zone, e.g. I did my first reel yesterday & have an IGTV coming up. it's both scary & fun, and that's just the juicy sweet...

I'm on shitty song #3 and friggin just shared some of it PUBLICALLY today! I talk about how I am getting enough routine (read: safety) to be able speed up the process, how it was sharing & how the allowance of creating shitty art doesn't mean that the art is going to be shitty. I also give an update on my book situation, about which I'm slowly uncovering what's holding me back (starts with a p...

I am digging through some very limiting beliefs around my health & dreams—what is holding me back from going BIG? I talk about procrastination, shame & a secret dream I am both restless & terrified to pursue. also, I talk about the anti-dote in trusting my path & being open to the possibility that those beliefs aren’t the truth! thank you for listening, love. if you enjoyed the epi...

okay, this is just one of those days where I don't have the answers--or so I thought. bare with me, as I ramble about not knowing how to get on with my book, realizing it's cause I don't know what I am doing, or even WHO I AM, in general, to suddenly realizing I actually am beginning to embody everything I'm learning in this creative recovery--maybe even a ' self' recovery? the mentioned podcast e...

just finished my shitty song #2, y'all!! I talk about how shitty creating is serving me. for instance, I'm understand how it's opening my mind to creating out of an abundance mindset rather out of one of scarcity--noticing how the latter has blocked me in the past. this is a friggin life-hack. this is gonna change HOW I want to show up & create in the future. "the permission to create shitty a...